hypochondriac

Congratulations on passing your test INH and good luck with that party x

I am so jealous of your meditation course Jeni, do let me know what it's like x

Jeni26

Well done INH! Hope the party goes well too.

Thanks for your words...not sure whether there's affection for each others quirkiness as much as a good deal of tolerance....he collects anything and everything and I'm afraid I find that extremely difficult at times. But then, he's not drinking and he puts up with me so I guess it's (almost) even. LOL.

How was work today Hypo?x

hypochondriac

It was okay thanks Jeni. It is quiet at the moment as a few members of staff are on holiday. It's nice but I am a little concerned that I won't manage to get a lot of work done, as I am interrupted by the shop a lot, and that it will reflect badly on me from my bosses perspective. I am at the point now that I don't think I can do right. I am just going to do the best I can.

Jeni26

Well you can only do what you can do. If there are staff shortages you won't be able to cover the same amount of work, that makes sense to me!

Hope this issue with your boss settles down a bit x

hypochondriac

He has been better with me. It's just left me paranoid. When are you back at work Jeni? x

Jeni26

I'm going in for the day tomorrow for meetings, then start back Monday. I'm not looking forward to it, but not dreading it either. I'm determined to keep my rational head on now, not take the worlds problems on my shoulders, and try to keep some sort of work/life balance going.....we will see. Anyway, the alarm going off at 5 tomorrow will be enough to shock me senseless!!x

hypochondriac

Good luck Jeni x I hope it isn't too much of a shock for you x

Caledonia1

Hello my lovely Marchers

INH Big congratulations on passing, great stuff.

Jeni Totally identify with the Alcoholic obsessive behavior. It does have it's advantages at times...........lol
Meditation course sounds wonderful, think I'll look into that too.

Hi Hypo You'll love your smart phone once you get the hang of it, SR always on hand sure is handy.

Things busy as usual at my end but find myself dealing with life's stresses easier these days.

Catch you all later
x

hypochondriac

Lovely to hear form you Nicky x

Jeni26

You're sounding good Nicky x.

Last few days of the holidays for me, and I'm starting to come down from the high I've been on for the past few weeks. Reality hitting again I think! X

hypochondriac

Reality sucks x

Jeni26

Yeah, it can do. Are you ok? Was that in response to my post or are you feeling down?xx

hypochondriac

In response to your post. I should have put a winky smilie face instead of that sad one. I am actually okay. I sold a ton of stuff at work today and I think my boss is happy with me, or all that money I made, either way I don't feel too crappy But yes, reality sucks the majority of the time. That's why I read so much, I have this whole other world in my head that I can retreat into so I don't have to live too much in the real word

Jeni26

I found reading so difficult to do for a long time in sobriety, it's like my head was so full of 'stuff' that I couldn't concentrate without drifting off. I would continually need to re-visit what I'd read before because I'd forgotten what it said. That is gradually improving I'm pleased to say!!

Glad you're ok xxx

jobei

Hello everyone... Long time no see. I guess I've hit a new bottom,
Not sure if I thought things would be different or even cared. It's
The most horrible and hoffiric place that I've been to. I have to try
To get out but it's like a weight that has already crushed me, I have
Nowhere to go. I don't feel sorry for myself I made all these choices
And this is the sum of my decisions. All I can do now is pray for help..

Jeni26

Oh Job, I'm so sorry my friend xxxx

Please come back to SR and start posting again, you have many many friends here.

You can get out of hell again and reach that happy place. It is possible. I'm praying with you my friend xxx

Dee74

I hope you'll start posting again too Jobei - you know what kind of miracles this place can wring

D

jobei

I will find a way

hypochondriac

So glad you came back Job And you had a way. You can post regularly here and go back to AA too if you need support. I know it is tough but you were doing so well before, this can be just a minor blip x

Jeni, I couldn't read in early sobriety either! I had to resort to magazines cos I could only hold my concentration for a few minutes. Reading biographies helped cos it was just a narrative and didn't tax me too much, and then they were usually by other alcoholics so I learnt lots too. I still haven't tackled anything more complex but I am reading much more now x

Jeni26

I've been thinking of Job all day, I really hope he finds his way back to us. I've missed him.

I have always been a prolific reader and its the one thing I hope to get back to. As a child I would spend days reading to escape into another world. I'm really pleased that after 15 months of sobriety, the skill of concentration is finally returning...!! I managed to read and take it in on holiday, so maybe a corner has been turned. Like you, I also managed to read biographies. Weird.

How was your day? I had counselling and went to the gym, so am mentally and physically exhausted! X