Class of April 2013 Part 5
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Day 68 is wrapping up here.
Spent the day not smoking weed. I almost have a whole day-- something that never would have happened when I was drinking. Feeling the withdrawal kicking in-- chills and lack of appetite, nausea, and almost a sort of numbness in my fingers and hands. Broke down and cried even though I wasn't sad. Now, I do feel a little sad, but no real reason why.
I am making it ok though. Eating a little soup tonight and having a glass of tea. I can't think too much about this. I just want to make it to bed without getting high, but now I'm not sure I even remember why...
Spent the day not smoking weed. I almost have a whole day-- something that never would have happened when I was drinking. Feeling the withdrawal kicking in-- chills and lack of appetite, nausea, and almost a sort of numbness in my fingers and hands. Broke down and cried even though I wasn't sad. Now, I do feel a little sad, but no real reason why.
I am making it ok though. Eating a little soup tonight and having a glass of tea. I can't think too much about this. I just want to make it to bed without getting high, but now I'm not sure I even remember why...
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Day 76 for me today. Going to try to meet up with my sponsor sometime today. If she's back in town. We had to reschedule our Wed meeting for today due to weather again. Will be working Step 3 I suppose...
Listening to some jazz piano online this morning, sipping some strong coffee, all cats have been fed and are happy, husband was fed his eggs & toast and is happy... now, what shall I do today? Going to make phone calls to my Dad & Grandfather to wish them a Happy Father's Day for sure... making a trip down this week to visit with them both.
We're thinking of names for the new kitten. So far... Lacey, Lola, Bunny, Ruby and Grace.
How's everyone's weekend so far?
Listening to some jazz piano online this morning, sipping some strong coffee, all cats have been fed and are happy, husband was fed his eggs & toast and is happy... now, what shall I do today? Going to make phone calls to my Dad & Grandfather to wish them a Happy Father's Day for sure... making a trip down this week to visit with them both.
We're thinking of names for the new kitten. So far... Lacey, Lola, Bunny, Ruby and Grace.
How's everyone's weekend so far?
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Hi everyone,
6 weeks today. Had a very nice day with hubby and daughter. It was a very tough weekend, craving wise. Today was especially hard because of some relationship issues with my own Dad. In the past I would have drank over it, but today, with the help of husband, I stayed strong. So happy to be sober going to bed.
6 weeks today. Had a very nice day with hubby and daughter. It was a very tough weekend, craving wise. Today was especially hard because of some relationship issues with my own Dad. In the past I would have drank over it, but today, with the help of husband, I stayed strong. So happy to be sober going to bed.
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begin at the beginning Lynne....back to basics
Dont drink anymore....think about were you went wrong and why... and think about what you need to add to your programme to stop it happening again ?
You didn't lose that sober time, it's still there, along with everything you learned and everything you achieved - this is recovery vers 2.0, thats all
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Dont drink anymore....think about were you went wrong and why... and think about what you need to add to your programme to stop it happening again ?
You didn't lose that sober time, it's still there, along with everything you learned and everything you achieved - this is recovery vers 2.0, thats all
Welcome back
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Was PMSing late yesterday and today pretty bad. Cried today twice. Once over a silly joke My husband and a friend made a comment about the new kitten and tears started streaming down my face! Lol. Sober periods are intense!! This is pretty crazy. Finally relief came this afternoon. Not feeling quite so nutty and high strung.
Got some more vitamins today. A new gummy multi, gummy B complex, niacin, ester C, amino acids. Will be ordering some more magnesium powder soon. And some more herbal tea.
Continuing care group tomorrow at noon.
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My husband and a friend made a comment about the new kitten and tears started streaming down my face! Lol. Sober periods are intense!! This is pretty crazy. Finally relief came this afternoon. Not feeling quite so nutty and high strung. Got some more vitamins today. A new gummy multi, gummy B complex, niacin, ester C, amino acids. Will be ordering some more magnesium powder soon. And some more herbal tea.
Continuing care group tomorrow at noon.
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I let Father's Day get to me. My dad passed away last year and I find it difficult to either accept it and move on or to not use it as an excuse. Does that make sense. I have to say though my friends have rallied around me tenfold this time to help me out mentally.
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Yes, it makes sense. I was drinking when my mom died and it took me about a year to get to where I could work in sobriety. I felt stuck in grief up until this April. She died in April 2010. If I Could have stayed sober since summer 2011 when I joined SR I think I could have processed the grief sooner...
So just keep in mind when we are active in the addiction it slows all sorts of growth. And you need to be able to grieve sober and feel the feelings. You can do it
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So just keep in mind when we are active in the addiction it slows all sorts of growth. And you need to be able to grieve sober and feel the feelings. You can do it
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It sounds stupid but I don't know if I could handle grief councelling!! I have been through PTSD councelling and I hated it. Urgh. I felt much, much worse afterwards. I need to figure out a better way to cope. I thought I had it down but obviously not. I was PMSing too, much worse than normal. Trying to decipher a connection here.
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I think there's a definite correlation but being a man I'll leave that to others more well versed in the subject, Lynne.
With grief, like Jennie said, alcohol stops us from feeling,...but it also stops us from dealing with things...I think it actually keep the wound fresh.
Whatever you decide to do, I hope you'll explore other ideas than drinking
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With grief, like Jennie said, alcohol stops us from feeling,...but it also stops us from dealing with things...I think it actually keep the wound fresh.
Whatever you decide to do, I hope you'll explore other ideas than drinking
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