Class of April 2013 Part 3
 

last part here :

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-2-a-20.html

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Day 2! Made it. Little "rougher" than one but I'm still here.

Today I completed my 21 day program.
Five nights inpatient and the rest intensive outpatient program.
I feel better, less cranky, less jittery.

Start back to work tomorrow and I'm a little nervous but I know that
God is with me and I can handle it. Wish me luck!

wishing you luck Ali - best wishes to you too muskrats :)

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Muskrats and Ali - you're doing great!

Day 18 (take 2) coming to a close here. Chat meeting just started if anyone's interested...

Congrats muskrats, Ali and Paul!

I feel like my sobriety commitment is still continuing to expand. I read the first 5 chapters of the "big book" last night and enhanced my understanding of the concept of a higher power. I feel different. Even my wife said she feels like something is really different now.

As long as I don't get overconfident, I think I am getting closer to the right path.

Way to go!! 3 weeks is HUGE!! :)

Don't worry about work... you'll make it through one day at a time. You can do this! :)

Thanks AnotherPaul... you motivated me to finally go check out the chat function here and join in on the meeting. :)

2 days is great muskrats! :You_Rock_


Hang in there... it gets better, with time.

Nice! They're quite helpful, just like real life meetings.

How Non-Boozers JUST DON'T GET IT PART: A GAZILLION

Paddled this morning. Really went after it. I'm inspired by the jiggles I see when I'm on my board. Yuck.

Least I'm not all boozy bloated.

After paddling the scene went as such:

Buddy: Can we stop quick at the store, I'm gonna pick up some stuff.
Me: Sure.
<Buddy comes out with a case of Coke, and a GIANT BOTTLE of whiskey.>
Buddy: I know you're taking it easy on the drinking...but...I figure a night or two with me won't hurt. <smiles>
Me: Man...I told ya. I'm done. It's over.
Buddy: <laughs> Just while I'm here. You stop again when I leave...no big deal.
<Sigh>

I like my bud a lot. (Trust me. Not just everyone gets to stay at our house). But...man! Like I need that kind of crap.
In a way it's making me tougher. Far as saying no, not being overly bothered by it being around. Fact of the matter is...it smells pretty gross to me.

I realize I should have been more clear about some ground rules, and/or my cessation of drinking...but...
Anyway: I'm pretty proud of my three weeks...and I'm not about to blow it for what I know would just suck anyway. There might be about 3 1/2 seconds of "fun" and that would be the evil little burst of glee I would get from actually drinking again.
The shame, physical pain, and mental anguish is SO not worth even a drink with a pal.

Yuck.

Sorry to be a downer...but that's the story here.

On the uptick, I had a mad hard paddle...and am sore--but feel great! Being sober is a lot nicer than not being be...I can say that with out a shred of doubt.
Best!
SB

Scoutie- Way to go on keeping your three weeks! You won't regret that. :)

And next time, your buddy will know you won't give in so it will get easier.

I found I needed to be absolutely unequivocal in my noes, Scout.
Even then some people didn't get it.

There's a natural process of moving on in those latter cases - it's sad but it is what it is.

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I'm part of this class. I'm using 4/15 as my sober day since it's easy to remember with it being tax day. Every time I get a craving I think about how sick I was the last time I drank and the withdrawal symptoms from several days of binge drinking. I've already made it through a funeral reception and later on hung out with my brother while he drank a six-pack of my favorite beer and I stayed sober, so that's something. I'm hoping he will learn to curb his drinking as well since he obviously has a problem and has had health issues from it (which he denies).

welcome sokil :)

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I hear ya Dee.

Fortunately, I decided to get sober sooner--rather than too late.
A lot of plans had been made, tickets bought, blah, blah, blah.

I have some issue with the recovery thought of changing your friends and such. I was a drinker. I made the plans to drink. I was the one that made any innocuous get together a drinking event.

All things considered: I had/have a pretty cool life. It's just getting better sans drinking, so I'm going to take that with me, and keep positive buddies (like this one, who just happens to be unaware/thick/on vacation) around me--and cut out the types of things *I* would do to get drunk.

Sneak. Hide. Drink alone. Feel sorry for myself. Be uninspired.

I can think of only one thing alcohol has ever done for me: Taught me to despise the person I am when drinking.

I'm feelin' good, and I want it to continue. Mood swings be damned...I'm going to see this thing through.
Regards,
S.B. The First.

Struggling some tonight...I've been feeling great during the days at work, but I'm feeling some of the underlying darkness in me rise after being lied to and unappreciated by my brother and my mom tonight. Peeling back some of the proverbial onion layers and realizing it's kinda crunchy and black in the middle. The core of where all of my alcohol abuse is coming from, no doubt. I am starting to dislike coming home. Normally I would have drank after the events tonight, but instead I walked for over 5 miles and now have blisters on my feet. I am appreciating the fact that tomorrow is a new day. Day 12, in fact, and I am proud of that.

Hi All, 08:09 and I'm sat outside the hotel where out Sales Conference is happening, agenda looks free bar opens at 16:30, wish me luck guys - I'm going in...

Stay tough Napster!
Just think of our good ol' Bandicoot fight song!
(I seem to have lost the music).

Nuts anyway. Be strong!
We're here!

Day 10 here in Germany.......feeling Great!!!