Obladi

Messed up badly and I'm back.
Smarts something fierce to be acting like such an idiot.
I am so sick of this, folks.

I'm not going to make a goal.
I'm not going to make any promises.
I'm just going to make it through now.

Maybe if I can be completely honest, I can get through this.

Dee74

In the end, I figured out all I needed to do was not drink Obladi.
It's not easy, but it is simple.

Do whatever you need to do - grab whatever support you need - to make that happen, my friend

D

Marcher13

A curve ball came at me. I admin and moderate on a totally unrelated forum and messages and emails started coming about a problem posting. I had to go into the server and fiddle, just what I didn't want to do when I was getting this meal ready. My heart is racing, AV is shouting at me that I really really deserve a drink now -- what about popping a white in the freezer. Not doing it, got that chinotto and all of you. Breathe, breathe.

breathe. Gosh it's good fiddling with herbs and lemon for chilled water, it really is.

Mizzuno

I'm joining the class. Hi everyone. Keep up the good work.

Dee74

I empathise Marcher - just do what you can do...noone can ask or expect more

D

Obladi

Marcher, you deserve the satisfaction of knowing that you withstood the urge. Hang in there.

Hey, Mizzuno. Welcome - this is a very fine group you joined.

Dee, I know.
*sigh*

Northlander

Hey Obladi - big hug - we are in your corner, my friend. Thanks for posting.

Welcome Mizzuno - I met you in another thread - glad you have joined the Class of March 2013. We call ourselves the Sober Marchers.

Sassy - can't wait till I join you in the double digits - tomorrow will be 10 days for me.

Welcome RiverFriend and DeborahJO

Congrats on 4 days MeSoSober

bepresent - please mix me a mocktail while you're at it - thanks

IreLander - thanks for posting and not getting the 12 pack - we're here for you buddy

T4Texas - welcome - I am sorry for all you lost when you fell off the wagon - we are here to rebuild. Happy to have you a part of the Sober Marchers

Has anyone seen JimJim? He started our group - JimJim, you okay buddy?

SFMS, you doing okay, friend?

Much love to all the Sober Marchers. I head back home tomorrow after my sober business trip. Had a bout of depression today out of the blue, but I did not drink. Happy sober Sunday everyone.

Mizzuno

Hey Obladi. You are not alone. One moment at a time.

Jimuk

Hang in there Obladi, I know you have this covered this time mate ;-)!

Welcome Mizzuno, T4Texas good to see you!

Be strong Marcher13, I think you're very brave, not sure if I could hold it together so soon. Stay safe my friend.

Dee,

Branches

Good evening, Marchers!

Nagel - welcome!
Obladi - you know what they say when you fall off a horse, you gotta climb back on. You can do it.
Mizzuno - Glad to meet you!
Marcher 13 - Amazing that you juggled entertaining and server probs without caving. Wow! You rock.
Mirage, Duffster, Irelander, Chanty, Dee, Jimuk, T4Texas, and everybody else on this forum who made it through last night and today without saying, "Oh, heck with it. I'm having a drink," I'm so proud of all of us.

This afternoon around 5:00 p.m. I really, really, really wanted a glass of wine. Have had some probs with a BIL who is mentally challenged but not so challenged that he's not able to wreak havoc within the family. This is the second weekend in a row that there's been drama with the outlaws, er, inlaws, that gets my DH all upset and wound up and I get upset and wound up and want to smack said BIL (not nice, I know). Sooo, I didn't drink when my daughter got in a car accident Thursday, didn't drink when we found out it costs more to repair the car than it's worth on Friday, and didn't drink when my BIL/SIL pulled their usual shenanigans today even tho' it had my husband screaming on the phone for half the time we were out together this afternoon. Nope, I did not. However, I did tell my hubby, who is also an RA, that I wanted some wine, and he very kindly said, "I know you do. How about I buy us some ice cream instead?" That was awesome that he was so nice. I don't think I was so nice when he was trying to quit.
Hope everyone has a great evening. Thanks for listening to me vent!

NewDay79

Congrats on day 4 MeSoSober!

RiverFriend hello! I am also trying to do the 90 in 90. I am on day 6.

Saskia, you go lady! Congrats on day 14.

Deb, I am also the mother of young ones, two boys ages 9 and 4. I would be on my second glass of wine while I ironed their clothes for the next school day. I don’t know how I rationalized that. I went to my first AA meeting last Monday. I was nervous as all get out. But they are really nice. Make sure to let them know this is your first meeting and get your 24 hours chip! And lots of people cry at their first meeting. When I didn’t, someone remarked that they were surprised I was so composed!

Ireland and Nagel, I also like fantasy. I am currently reading the “Wizard’s First Rule” series.

Congrats on Day 9, Jimuk. I am tempted to go and see the Die Hard film. How was it?

Stay strong T4Texas! We are all rooting for you.

Welcome back Obladi. I had to tell myself ‘Not tonight. I will worry about tomorrow when it comes but tonight is not an option.’ It helped me get through tonight.
Don’t beat yourself up over the slip. We have all been there and are happy to see you again.

Stay strong Marcher13! We are all rooting for you.

Hi Mizzuno! Welcome.

Congrats on your sober business trip North! I was also wondering about JimJim and Soberformyson. How are you guys? Check in please.


Onward Marchers!

In 39 minutes, I will officially be on day 7.

Nagel

Hey Guys,

Really great to hear from everyone. Really great to see everyone fighting for this, because this is worth fighting for.

I had a frustrating day. "When it rains, it pours". I came off my own terrible binge just two days ago and am closing out day one of my sobriety. Today, unexpectedly, while finishing up at the library talking with you fine folks early in the afternoon, my friend, who lives out-of-state drove to Chicago out of his own drinking binge. This is a great friend of mine, but we would wreck the town together. We would drink, run around downtown, steal, tag, and be complete monsters. But, I felt that I owed him. I had to drive into the city to meet him. We got lunch at a pizza joint and caught up. He was still drunk/hungover from not sleeping for a day and a half and then driving to see me at four in the morning. He started drinking. I was fine with him drinking beer in front of me, but when I got a strong smell of his shots of whisky, I wanted it. I wanted to give in and drink with him, but I didn't. I told him about my binge and that I was going to quit drinking and start going to AA. He sympathized with my plight but was not sold on the idea. By this point, having known how exhausted he was and drunk, I decided to leave his truck in the parking lot at a nearby mall and drive back to my neck of the woods. I bought him a cheap hotel room for the night, being only a room renter myself. I left him after he finally passed out. I'll pick him up in the morning.

At the same time when he first called me this afternoon, I found out a close cousin of mine was in the ER for the last two days. She accidentally drank too much. It broke my heart.

I didn't drink tonight. I tried to attend an AA meeting that I didn't research well enough and it was not actually happening tonight, so I drove out to mcdonalds for wifi so I could vent to you guys.

I'm worried I won't be able to sleep tonight and that I will want to drink. I don't want to drink. I'm tired though, physically exhausted. I want to attend an AA meeting in the morning before I pick up my friend and take him to breakfast. I want to be ok.

Sorry for the long post guys. I read everyone's comments and really appreciate them. You guys give me such hope. I look at everyone's days of sobriety and I want them to go up. I want to do this with you guys. It's wonderful to feel like there are others looking out for you.

Delilah1

Hello All,

I was originally part of the October class, and met wonderful people there. However, took a detour away from sobriety, so here I am again. Made it through the holidays fine, right around 90 days decided a glass of wine would be okay. I have fallen back into that daily routine that I worked so hard to change.

So here I am again, glad to be part of this class.

Branches

Nagel,

This is your first day of freedom. You can do it. Your AV, who is the enemy of your soul, is screaming at you because he knows he's losing and he's trying to fake you out and tell you that you really, really need a drink to cope with your drunk friend and your relative being hospitalized for over-drinking, but you're too smart not to see that drinking isn't the answer for too much drinking.

I'm not proselytizing here, but there's a Bible verse I'm really fond of that talks about putting on the full armor of God to withstand the fiery darts of the enemy, and that when you've done all the preparation you can to stand, to just stand. Visualize yourself armored in the support of your friends here at SR and your Higher Power, and you can stand up to this.

NewDay79

Hi Nagel,

I do not think I could handle having a drinking buddy getting hammered right in front of me. It shows how strong you are and how much you really want this. Sometimes it helped me to read the 'Stories of Recovery' section. Gives me hope that I can get through this. Mayhap that will help you. One day at a time, my friend. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

SoberKat9

Hi all. Joining the March class.

Day 13 for me (14 in 3 hours!). I feel like I have so much more energy lately. It's amazing how alcohol can kill motivation. Continuing to remind myself that I can have all the things I want to achieve...as long as I don't let alcohol ruin those chances. :-)

JimJim

Morning all, I've just caught up on all of your posts.

Here's a thought for the day from that great bloke the Dalai Lama.

'Whether our action is wholesome or unwholesome depends on whether that action or deed arises from a disciplined or undisciplined state of mind. It is felt that a disciplined mind leads to happiness and an undisciplined mind leads to suffering, and in fact it is said that bringing about discipline within one's mind is the essence'.

I did Google Drop Bear country to see where it is. It took me to the Urban Dictionary... :P

Welcome to the new folks,

I'm just glad you're with us Obladi

Nagel

SoberKat9

Congratulations! I am so very jealous. I want to feel better. I want to be able to excercise again and feel alright. I hope you keep it up. Always remember how you felt in that moment and never give it up

Marcher13

Marchers :: drum roll:: I did it!!! I got through a big Sunday lunch, serving, pouring wine for others, talking, having a good time and I did not have a drop of alcohol. It wasn't easy I came close, I was stressed facing the lunch because of no booze while others imbibed plus computer server problems (my volunteer position) but I didn't give in!

One of my moderate drinking friends was talking about how the good part of red wine is in the grape skins and that doctors have found you'd need to drink about 1000 glasses to get the health benefits that have been claimed. I said, "Ok X, you take care of the first 500 and I'll do the other 500", everyone laughed and we went on talking about other things.

A young friend has bought me a special bottle of moscato from a recent winery trip, I poured it in four other glasses, we all chatted about the colour, how summery it looked, the light bubbles in it and we went on talking about other things. Nobody asked why I wasn't drinking it, I'd already commented on its specialness.

I drank my chinotto. I ate more than I usually do at such meals, when I'm drinking I don't want to eat much. I ate main course, dessert, fruit, downed two cups of good coffee. Usually my head's in the third bottle by now or I'm dozing on the lounge. I've cleaned up, the dishwasher is on, I've brought the washing in off the line and I'm about to walk the dog again today.

There are two half empty bottles in the fridge, they are not my friends no matter how often they call me over to play. I've been so productive and energetic all day -- I've had a horrid headache but I was able to take some paracetemol without fear of knocking myself out.

I'm going to have a salad sandwich for dinner and I'm going to wake up in the morning without a hangover. Gotta get through the evening but I am not going to wreck this massive achievement.

I keep looking at the recycle bin -- two empty wine bottles and a few small beer bottles, my usual two extra aren't there.

Now I know I can socialise with good friends, have a good time and not be drunk at the end of it. Other situations will arise, this evening is going to make AV chirp and nag but I got through this day, I can go to bed early again and Day 2 can become Day 3.

I love our bus.

360shoes

You go March13!! Awesome, fabulous, outstanding. You just created what your tomorrow will feel like! Wake up tomorrow and soak in how great that feels. The self respect you will feel tomorrow is all about what you chose to do today..right now. Keep self paying it forward. You can do this and I can't wait to see just how fabulous you can take it. I'm thinking you have no limits.