Class of January 2013 pt 6
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Drove past the bottle shop on the way home from dropping my son in town tonight and I changed lanes to pull in! Saturday night, I've done so well, you all know the AV routine ... But I kept driving, don't know why because everything in my head was saying have a drink. Too close a shave for comfort.
Good onya for passing the bottle shop by, Reeny. Cool post you shared, Gilmer. I really hope everyone else is in a good place right now.
I'm coming up on 3 months and starting to feel really well. Because drinking was a part of my life for the last 25 years I don't know what "normal" will be for me. I still have urges and all that stuff but things are improving in all areas so I'll take this as the new normal.
Best,
W
"On my winter break from school last December I got drunk every day. I lost all desire to do anything else but drink; however, try as I would to be drunk all day, the buzz only lasted for an hour, and I was just zombie-like the rest of the day. When it was time to snap out of it and function, I found I couldn't string two thoughts together. I had become a big, useless waste--"
Gilmer, this is EXACTLY how I was at that time except that I was not on school break. I could have written that myself...I am so grateful to be free of the obsession and the compulsion today and I love what Dee said about being sober opening a world of opportunities.
The AVs have been extremely quiet for a while and I have no desire to drink I cannot let my guard though, obviously what I have been doing is working so far and it would be stupid to stop doing it because I feel like a normal person and have no cravings and compulsions, my beast is cunning, baffling and powerful and it could be laying in wait..but I cannot be too fearful of relapsing and paranoid either, the point of recovery is to move on and hopefully improve our quality of life and inner peace.
Have a good and sober week end everyone and for being there.
Gilmer, this is EXACTLY how I was at that time except that I was not on school break. I could have written that myself...I am so grateful to be free of the obsession and the compulsion today and I love what Dee said about being sober opening a world of opportunities.
The AVs have been extremely quiet for a while and I have no desire to drink I cannot let my guard though, obviously what I have been doing is working so far and it would be stupid to stop doing it because I feel like a normal person and have no cravings and compulsions, my beast is cunning, baffling and powerful and it could be laying in wait..but I cannot be too fearful of relapsing and paranoid either, the point of recovery is to move on and hopefully improve our quality of life and inner peace.
Have a good and sober week end everyone and for being there.
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