Reeny

Good for you, yestofreedom! You did it!

LindseyMarie

Good morning everyone! It's great to see the forum was busy last night! I took my 6 year old to a pool party last night, and surprisingly, I had a blast! It was from 6-9pm (a little late for six year olds, but hey, it was friday!) I actually squeezed myself into a bathing suit and got in the water while the other moms sat on the sidelines. It felt great to let loose w/ my daughter and not watch the clock and count down the minutes till I could get home and drink. My friend/neighbor who's kid was there said that she was surprised to see me because she figured I would never give up my friday night for a kids b-day party. :| I secretly was offended, but really had NO to right to be. It's true. I wouldn't have!

Has anybody else dealt w/ little comments like this? I had a couple yesterday, actually a few. One that I mentioned above, then a co-worker asked me if I was ready to get my drink on and then another co-worker in Boston called and was telling me about a new drink she invented and how much I would love it. All of these irritated me because, hell, can't you see I've been sober for a week?? LMAO! I haven't really said anything to anyone, so in their defense, i'm still the same ol' lushy Lindsey. It's cool though, this is the bed I made for myself...and you know how the saying goes.

On a side note, I woke up this morning went to have a smoke outside and a flock of seagulls were flying over the quarry by my house. The sun was up but just really starting to shine and it hit their wings and man....what a great day to be sober In the past, I would have been annoyed the sun was shining so bright and making my hangover worse.

I would personalize this post, but I feel wicked far behind so I will just say Good morning and I hope everyone is doing as great as I feel. For those who are struggling, I'm sorry and keep strong and post often.

Reeny: Cup o' Joe = a cup of coffee I love that we are scattered all over the world, it makes this forum that much more interesting

Well my puppy is being a weenie so I best tend to that before she wakes up my kids!

KEEP ON TRUCKIN' GUYS!

p.s. Dee, i hate earaches....they reduce me to my 5 year old self...whining for my Mom and wanting to be held. lol... I hope you get well soon!

9yearsgone

Morning Lindsey,

I have the exact same experience regarding the kids activities. Before I used to be counting time while they were in soccer/football/swimming. I rushed to get home to my drink.

Feels like freedom! Like someone takes off a chore that must be done off your to do list.

Have a great day and thanks for your post.

Dorris

I knew my good morning mood would not last.............

it's been 10 wks since I had a huge falling out with my parents, especially my mum and it's killing me, I can't beleive she want nothing to do with me and my family any more. I have be slowly coping with it but just wanted to go visit my nan, (her mum) and my mums car was outside.

I can't stop crying, having a right old panic attack, I know I'm not going to be able to switch off until I go to sleep.

I hate the fact I can't have a drink to forget about it all.

Rosieblue

Dorris hang in there try to do something to take your mind off things for now. Drinking wont solve any problems i spent the last 5 years or more using drinking to block things out and make me feel happy. It dont work. What you trying to block out will still be there tomorrow whatever the problem time will is a good healer.

Serenityforme

Cheaking in for day 12...

Meeting went really well..still have my wonderful job...phew, thank God..I really do love my work..Thank you for all your support and kind words..it really does make a difference and helped with my confidence. I was SO happy and felt blessed driving back from the office, you were all in my thoughts..you,d given me courage to face the fear without AV even getting a word in!!..Well, saying that, it did mange to get its devious whisper in on the way home.."Everythings ok, go on get a nice bottle of red to celebrate". It suddenly dawned on me before I caved into its usual arrival when Im feeling good..or bad for that matter..Your not invited!! I am happy..why would I allow you to let me completely ruin this feeling? I wanted to stay connected with this emotion, it feels good.I wasnt going to let myself down again and I wasnt gonna let you guys down too..I admire each and every one of our journies..we will do this together...thanks SR. Got home,into PJ,s and had some fish and steamed veg followed by key lime pie and a glass of...water with a slice of lemon...laid on the bed,snuggled up with hubby and a wonderful peace and tiredness took me off to sleep. Managed to sleep uninterupted until 5am (from @ 10pm)!! Amazing for me!!

Rosiblue and Lindsey - I love crystals too - they are our little healing helpers..they have a beautiful gentle energy.

Avra - hope you enjoyed your movie. Good idea havent been to the cinema in a while

Dorris - Day 26!! - Glad last night went well - have to giggle about how we probably all wish him a nasty hangover...guess what I really mean is Im glad I wasnt him today about 11ish..


Scott - my husband has been very supportive too. we are blessed. I havent said I will never drink again..seems to high a bar at the moment...like how big is the universe type of thing..baby steps at the moment, not quite so easy for my AV to argue with

Howie56 - Hope your feeling better today and everyrthing is ok at work. I was in the same space yesterday and Ithink it was Reeny who said to me that things probably wouldnt be as bad as I thought and she was right...It was my anxiety levels at the moment and negative thinking patterns running wild.

PBC - how lovely a granddaughter. Such a blessed gift. I am estranged from my two beautiful girls (ages 23 & 20) long story...BUT I hope one day I can be where you are..holding my baby,s baby in my arms..just awesome.. x

Reeny - wtg getting through Australia day! I think the majority of us are spending quite alot of our time keeping busy or curled up in PJ,s. Like you Im not quite ready to socialise yet..Getting to know the new me and keeping up with these threads and wonderful posts keeps my head busy at the moment. Feel safe here. Wishing you happy holidays

Bounced and Sober1ck - LMAO at the corkscrew scenario..Oh the bad old days..learnt early on to wrap a teacloth round the cutting edge of the knife before pushing down on the handle!! Bounced, hope your feeling better today.

Rosie,Lindsey and Sober1ck - hope your finding your reading material good company..I have to study really hard for the next 4 weeks..so lots of reading about health and social care for me..I know..why cant I care for myself like I do others?? ridiculous isnt it..

Wishing each and everyone of you a happy, sober Saturday..Chocolate brownies seems to be the way to go...hubby will love me if I bake some - he,s American...oh yes..off I trot

BIG LOVE and as always

Serenityforme

Dorris - hang in there honey..you CAN do it, rosieblue is right it wont make you feel any better to drink..you know deep down you will only hurt yourself. sending you big hugs...

bounced

Hey Dorris

You sent me one of these earlier

so here is one right back to you again (((cwtch)))

Stay with us on this.

bounced

nel68

Good afternoon class, I will be so happy when spring comes!!! The winter blahs!! I am holding very strong I have not had one craving which surprises me, last year when I quit every day was a struggle for the most part....Makes me wonder why this time is different for now, I am struggling on the smoking but I have not given in to it ...30 days is right around the corner

Lisamum

I have mentioned my giving up drinking to a few people and the main answer I get back is "oh! That's boring" or "why the hell would you want to do that" I had a chance to go to our local today and I just don't feel strong enough to fight my av in public. Had a great day at work and would usually round of a day like this with some wine and I just can't shut my av up. It keeps telling me you gave up so easily you can't have really had a problem one won't hurt. No drink in house and there is no way I'm going out now as boys bedtime shortly.
First time I have been so tempted

bounced

A couple of people on here have had a rough day so here is something that might give you a smile.

(It is an admission by Bruce Robinson who wrote "Withnail and I" and, at the time, used to drink 5 bottles of wine per day)

"Some years ago, here at the farmhouse, I ran out of wine. I set off in the car to get some more. In the mirror I saw this silver van, close behind me. I accelerated and so did he. We get over the hill and he's on me quite badly now, so I slam on my brakes to freak him out. He braked as well, but he was still aggressing me. I thought, 'I've had it with you, you c*nt.' I stopped and got out, effing and blinding. That's when I realised I had my wife's horse-trailer attached to the back of my car".

Carlotta

ROFLMAO that s just too funny.

Good morning, just wanting to check in with my class.
My last drink was last Saturday. I woke up with a splitting headache which I blame on the idiots upstairs who were partying all night. I prayed that I d not drink today and that I d not kill the neighbors and took some aspirin and I m feeling better.
Am planning to go to an AA meeting today...really nervous, not been in the rooms since 2006. All meetings are different and I just hope I can find a home group which is right for me. I need to get a copy of the big book and also hook up and get some numbers from women with good sobriety so I have a support system in the physical world.

PeacefulRain

Hello all!

I did a power sleep last night....almost 11 hours since we went to bed early and the kids slept in about an hour longer then usual this morning.

Just hangin out with the wee ones today watching some disney movies. Good day so far!

halfvictory

hope everyone is doing good this afternoon (if ur in the US). It's ~3pm where I'm at and I am feeling great at the moment. It's times like this where I get a bit worried. This is where I can get cocky and think just one is fine. But I'm staying strong. Have to go get new running shoes and that will keep me busy for about an hour.

stay strong everyone.

sober1ck

I want to get rid of that habit too... I know it's not love to be outside when it's cold enough to frost my b***s and there I am, sucking down half a cigarette. Addiction is addiction. Good for you for kicking it and not giving in!

sober1ck

<RANT> Sometimes at meetings when someone says "keep coming back" just because there's a hint that my world is not 100% serene... I just want to be like "I'm just looking for someone who has what I want. I'll keep looking." Or something rude. So anyway, the sponsor who (yes just my POV) is a d*ck does have one thing I want, he apparently hasn't drank for awhile and also relapsed a lot while learning. That was my interest.

Let me digress. I was at a meeting a couple years ago, and the know-it-all lead by an old timer was getting on my last nerve. I actually interrupted the lead to insult him a little. OK, a lot. It was pretty dramatic. At the time it felt like a real win, but a short time later I felt bad about it. Because this man is just so... Marines... I didn't expect an amend to go very well, but the following Saturday I managed to go up to him. As I began to apologize, he extended his hand and just said, "Don't worry about it. Been there." That made a huge impression on me, and I'll always remember it.

Now, I was similarly impolite, although it was over the phone, with Dick. I don't even remember his real name. So he's sitting next to me at this meeting Thursday (and my ex-girlfriend, lovely)... I don't know if he was expecting me to say something, but I was in a mood when I made my brief comment, in part b/c my ex said something directed at me (no one else would know, because it started "I have a friend...") you b*tch, anyway... to make a long boring story short, after the meeting Dick said "Keep coming back. Or don't." Which I guess is just take it or leave it. I bit my tongue, but to be sober that long (whatever it is) and still be petty.... I hope I get a little better.... we'll see. </RANT>

nel68

Loved this!! Thanks for the laugh

Reeny

Know exactly what you mean, Lindsey and 9yg. My 3 young adult sons now come and help me make dinner every evening (I used to shoo them away before - you know why) and they even sit on my bed at night-time and talk. Not one of them has mentioned my not drinking, maybe they're scared they'll jinx it.
Happy and safe Sunday, SR friends.

Reeny

Stay strong, Dorris. Keep posting and remember how important getting sober and well is for you (and your own family). Maybe you can sort things out with your Mum later but for now focus on yourself. We're here and on your side. Sending you lots of strength from across the oceans, Dorris.

Lisamum

I survived again no drink. Watched a American pie reunion big laughs did the trick. Night night it's 11.30 uk time keep strong people. Day 27 tomorrow!