Class of May 2012 part 13
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Good morning, Mayans!
Off to work in a few minutes but wanted to check in before I go. One of the things I'm really happy about is my sleep. I now rarely take a very tiny dose of ambien. I have a white noise generator and when I go to bed I very, very slowly start counting back from 99, focusing totally on my slow breathing and the counting, with count always on the out breath. Usually I'm asleep by the time I hit the mid 80's, sometimes a bit sooner or later. It has been many, many years since I was able to sleep without meds!
Next on the mental hygiene agenda is to again start logging what I eat and exercise so I can work on losing my excess 20 lbs.
I'm reading good things from all of you in your posts. Much strength and pleasure in sobriety.
Btw, if we had 36 hours in each day, IMHO we'd quickly fill it up and feel just as busy.
Off to work in a few minutes but wanted to check in before I go. One of the things I'm really happy about is my sleep. I now rarely take a very tiny dose of ambien. I have a white noise generator and when I go to bed I very, very slowly start counting back from 99, focusing totally on my slow breathing and the counting, with count always on the out breath. Usually I'm asleep by the time I hit the mid 80's, sometimes a bit sooner or later. It has been many, many years since I was able to sleep without meds!
Next on the mental hygiene agenda is to again start logging what I eat and exercise so I can work on losing my excess 20 lbs.
I'm reading good things from all of you in your posts. Much strength and pleasure in sobriety.
Btw, if we had 36 hours in each day, IMHO we'd quickly fill it up and feel just as busy.
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Good Morning All,
FP - Thank you for your thoughful post. You always take the time to address each and every one of us. Congratulations on 186 days
That is amazing! I really enjoyed your advice to "be good to yourself and learn to destress". I am still working on being good to myself every day. I do call myself a lot of names and even in spite of telling myself that just for one day I will be kind to myself, I still find myself saying horrible things to myself. Clearly, working on years of self-loathing is going to take a lot of time and patience.
Lilac - I too have been feeling blue lately. I need to sit down today and write a grattitude list and focus on what I do have as opposed to what I think I should have at this point in my sobriety. I wish you a very happy thanksgiving
HRB - I loved the garden pictures. Wow, that was a lot of work! Your garden is very impressive. I went a little nuts in the spring with my gardens. Unfortunately, they didn't turn out well at all. The season was hot and rainy and didn't bode well for the plants. Next year, I would like to scale my efforts back. I spent about $1,200 on the gardening hobby. I am so glad you are enjoying the fruits of your efforts.
Saskia - I am so glad to hear that you are enjoying your new exercise and yoga routines. I would love to take some water aerobics and yoga classes in the future.
Jeni - I too find it very difficult to share in front of a group of people that I do not know well. Each sponsor has encouraged me to share more. For me, I get a lot out of just listening at this point. When something has really been bothering me - I have shared. I am not going to put undue pressure upon myself to share just to share. I recognize why this is recommended. So that we get to know others and get support from the fellowship, but it can be very difficult to open up in a social atmosphere when we are not accustomed to doing it and stone cold sober at that! You are sharing with your sponsor and you are sharing with us. Just take your time.
Wishing everyone a happy TGIF
FP - Thank you for your thoughful post. You always take the time to address each and every one of us. Congratulations on 186 days
That is amazing! I really enjoyed your advice to "be good to yourself and learn to destress". I am still working on being good to myself every day. I do call myself a lot of names and even in spite of telling myself that just for one day I will be kind to myself, I still find myself saying horrible things to myself. Clearly, working on years of self-loathing is going to take a lot of time and patience.Lilac - I too have been feeling blue lately. I need to sit down today and write a grattitude list and focus on what I do have as opposed to what I think I should have at this point in my sobriety. I wish you a very happy thanksgiving
HRB - I loved the garden pictures. Wow, that was a lot of work! Your garden is very impressive. I went a little nuts in the spring with my gardens. Unfortunately, they didn't turn out well at all. The season was hot and rainy and didn't bode well for the plants. Next year, I would like to scale my efforts back. I spent about $1,200 on the gardening hobby. I am so glad you are enjoying the fruits of your efforts.
Saskia - I am so glad to hear that you are enjoying your new exercise and yoga routines. I would love to take some water aerobics and yoga classes in the future.
Jeni - I too find it very difficult to share in front of a group of people that I do not know well. Each sponsor has encouraged me to share more. For me, I get a lot out of just listening at this point. When something has really been bothering me - I have shared. I am not going to put undue pressure upon myself to share just to share. I recognize why this is recommended. So that we get to know others and get support from the fellowship, but it can be very difficult to open up in a social atmosphere when we are not accustomed to doing it and stone cold sober at that! You are sharing with your sponsor and you are sharing with us. Just take your time.
Wishing everyone a happy TGIF
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Good morning everyone!
Did not manage to rise at 5am. I rolled out of bed just after 6am. No gym for me this morning, and that's fine because it's about 15 degrees outside. Had a little trouble sleeping. I'll hit the gym after work. And I will be leaving work no later than 4pm today. One of the benefits of having a contract for 30 hours per week is that I actually have time (when I'm not sick or drunk) to take care of myself and not feel rushed. Drawback of course is that in 30 hours per week I'm supposed to accomplish 2 jobs.
Jeni, I totally understand your hesitancy to share in groups. Baby steps. You are making a start by sharing here! I think Dee's advice is good (as always). We just need to not drink. How we deal with everything else that comes with sobriety is up to us. If you feel overwhelmed by meetings, cut back to just a couple a week. For me, I was totally overwhelmed by being "required" to attend 3-5 meetings per week at times that interfered with my ability to get to sleep leading up to my last booze session. This is not the first time, either. More meetings, I've often been told. If it comes at the expense of my sleep and sanity, then they are not helpful. Be true to yourself, but also don't throw in the towel, as AA has seemed to be super-helpful for you.
I started reading "Breaking Addiction," the follow-up to "heart of addiction." It is both book and workbook for the person struggling with addiction. The other book high on my list? Rational Recovery.
Ok, need to go get ready for work (ugh...should be a slow day though).
Did not manage to rise at 5am. I rolled out of bed just after 6am. No gym for me this morning, and that's fine because it's about 15 degrees outside. Had a little trouble sleeping. I'll hit the gym after work. And I will be leaving work no later than 4pm today. One of the benefits of having a contract for 30 hours per week is that I actually have time (when I'm not sick or drunk) to take care of myself and not feel rushed. Drawback of course is that in 30 hours per week I'm supposed to accomplish 2 jobs.
Jeni, I totally understand your hesitancy to share in groups. Baby steps. You are making a start by sharing here! I think Dee's advice is good (as always). We just need to not drink. How we deal with everything else that comes with sobriety is up to us. If you feel overwhelmed by meetings, cut back to just a couple a week. For me, I was totally overwhelmed by being "required" to attend 3-5 meetings per week at times that interfered with my ability to get to sleep leading up to my last booze session. This is not the first time, either. More meetings, I've often been told. If it comes at the expense of my sleep and sanity, then they are not helpful. Be true to yourself, but also don't throw in the towel, as AA has seemed to be super-helpful for you.
I started reading "Breaking Addiction," the follow-up to "heart of addiction." It is both book and workbook for the person struggling with addiction. The other book high on my list? Rational Recovery.
Ok, need to go get ready for work (ugh...should be a slow day though).
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Good afternoon Mayans,
Gotta get ready for work. I work next 2 nights help a friend move on Saturdat then work another 3, 12 hour shifts Sun, Mon, Tues. then Wed I leave to meet my family in northern Florida for thanksgiving. It's mid way for everybody so not such a bad drive. Thank goodness I had a wonderful 3 days off. I am looking forward to the family time, drama and all. I will post while my partner is driving on Wed. I just wont have time till then.
I wish you all happy healthy days until then.
Gotta get ready for work. I work next 2 nights help a friend move on Saturdat then work another 3, 12 hour shifts Sun, Mon, Tues. then Wed I leave to meet my family in northern Florida for thanksgiving. It's mid way for everybody so not such a bad drive. Thank goodness I had a wonderful 3 days off. I am looking forward to the family time, drama and all. I will post while my partner is driving on Wed. I just wont have time till then.
I wish you all happy healthy days until then.
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HRB have good work days and a good trip! Stay close to us as needed. Loved the garden pics! I have some flower bulbs that I need to plant for the spring but have never really gardened before. Had a couple of pots of tomatoes that never turned orange. We made fried green tomatoes!
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I'm off to bed....Friday tomorrow. Hurrah!
Seeing my parents on Saturday. This used to throw me into emotional turmoil, but it isn't now. I guess although I still struggle with things, and worry I should be further along in emotional maturity than I am, is an indication that actually I am more together now. I need perhaps to recognise the things I do now with ease that I would have drunk on. Spending a day surrounded by alcohol and hugely dysfunctional dynamics doesn't throw me into a spin. And I never ever thought I'd say that......
Seeing my parents on Saturday. This used to throw me into emotional turmoil, but it isn't now. I guess although I still struggle with things, and worry I should be further along in emotional maturity than I am, is an indication that actually I am more together now. I need perhaps to recognise the things I do now with ease that I would have drunk on. Spending a day surrounded by alcohol and hugely dysfunctional dynamics doesn't throw me into a spin. And I never ever thought I'd say that......
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Jeni, it sounds to me that you have made an enormous amount of progress. We will always be a work in progress and can always work on other changes. It can be good to stop and enjoy the many ways in which you have changed! And if the exercise talk makes you tired, you need to try my trainer!!! I wasn't sure if I was going to survive my training session yesterday.
Tanja, you are an inspiration for me. In spite of anxiety issues, etc. you are staying strong in sobriety and take the time to post to others! WTG
Lilac, I'm noticing you sound much stronger than before and you are taking the lead in exploring things that could help. Keep it up!
Rock, I hope you have a joyful Thanksgiving. You are one awesome dude!!!
OLL, I love it -- no ripe tomatoes so you made fried green tomatoes! That shows a great can-do attitude. I hope your home struggles are getting better!
Cheers to all!
Tanja, you are an inspiration for me. In spite of anxiety issues, etc. you are staying strong in sobriety and take the time to post to others! WTG
Lilac, I'm noticing you sound much stronger than before and you are taking the lead in exploring things that could help. Keep it up!
Rock, I hope you have a joyful Thanksgiving. You are one awesome dude!!!
OLL, I love it -- no ripe tomatoes so you made fried green tomatoes! That shows a great can-do attitude. I hope your home struggles are getting better!
Cheers to all!
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Good Thursday evening, May mates!
Yes, Jeni, yay for Friday tomorrow! Looking forward to sleeping in on the weekend.
I posted something similar in another thread, You-Rock, but I wish you the very best during your family time. Make sure to protect your back while you help your friend move so you can truly enjoy your holiday pain free.
Sas, I like your white noise idea to help with sleep. It's great in the summer with the air conditioner on to drown out partying neighbors.
Keep up the great sober strength, Lilac! Hope your last work day of the week is a pleasant one.
Big hugs to you, Tanja. Sobriety brings about so much self-reflection and pushes us to face our fears. I think you're absolutely wonderful and I'm proud to call you my friend.
Thank you for reporting your day counts with us, Bionic Lee. I believe that it really works to keep many of us on the right track.
OneLess, I'm a novice gardener, too. I plant cool things, cross my fingers, and see what survives. Fresh garden tomatoes are the best!
How are you doing, Emily? Looking forward to your next post, classmate.
(((Dee))). Love to you, sober mate.
So, one of my neighbors put a hand-written complaint in my mailbox today that a tree by my father's house has branches leaning on their house, and want me to remove them ASAP. Huh. I'm thinking they don't realize that the tree actually straddles the property line and that it's up to them to take care of those branches. A potential conflict that I'll need to address with them this weekend. Hoping the discussion goes well, but neighbors can be unpredictable creatures. It's always something...
Wishing all of my lovely boaters a happy and sober evening/day. Love and hugs to all.
Yes, Jeni, yay for Friday tomorrow! Looking forward to sleeping in on the weekend.
I posted something similar in another thread, You-Rock, but I wish you the very best during your family time. Make sure to protect your back while you help your friend move so you can truly enjoy your holiday pain free.
Sas, I like your white noise idea to help with sleep. It's great in the summer with the air conditioner on to drown out partying neighbors.
Keep up the great sober strength, Lilac! Hope your last work day of the week is a pleasant one.
Big hugs to you, Tanja. Sobriety brings about so much self-reflection and pushes us to face our fears. I think you're absolutely wonderful and I'm proud to call you my friend.
Thank you for reporting your day counts with us, Bionic Lee. I believe that it really works to keep many of us on the right track.
OneLess, I'm a novice gardener, too. I plant cool things, cross my fingers, and see what survives. Fresh garden tomatoes are the best!
How are you doing, Emily? Looking forward to your next post, classmate.
(((Dee))). Love to you, sober mate.
So, one of my neighbors put a hand-written complaint in my mailbox today that a tree by my father's house has branches leaning on their house, and want me to remove them ASAP. Huh. I'm thinking they don't realize that the tree actually straddles the property line and that it's up to them to take care of those branches. A potential conflict that I'll need to address with them this weekend. Hoping the discussion goes well, but neighbors can be unpredictable creatures. It's always something...
Wishing all of my lovely boaters a happy and sober evening/day. Love and hugs to all.
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awesome garden you-rock!!!
Jeni, I know this was a few posts ago but I would recommend being upfront with your dear friend. If she is the one you used to go all out with so to speak I wonder if you getting sober might inspire her or plant a seed for later down the line. I would not recommend showing up to meet her without telling her first. You wouldn't want to find her drunk or tempt yourself (and I say this to you because that is EXACTLY how I've slipped recently, hanging out w/ friends who don't know I've quit). Hugs. It's super hard but if she is as dear of a friend as you say, she will get over it. This could be a whole new level of depth for your friendship!!! What is a friend if you can't share both good times AND bad?
Day 35 today. Got a busy weekend planned and no possible slips on my radar Family night tomorrow night, brunch on Saturday, movie and dinner on Sunday...all people who are supportive of my sobriety!!! I have to squeeze some studying in too - the life of a PT student, you know. One would think I'd hardly have TIME to drink, really....
Love to all. Goodnight
Jeni, I know this was a few posts ago but I would recommend being upfront with your dear friend. If she is the one you used to go all out with so to speak I wonder if you getting sober might inspire her or plant a seed for later down the line. I would not recommend showing up to meet her without telling her first. You wouldn't want to find her drunk or tempt yourself (and I say this to you because that is EXACTLY how I've slipped recently, hanging out w/ friends who don't know I've quit). Hugs. It's super hard but if she is as dear of a friend as you say, she will get over it. This could be a whole new level of depth for your friendship!!! What is a friend if you can't share both good times AND bad?
Day 35 today. Got a busy weekend planned and no possible slips on my radar
Family night tomorrow night, brunch on Saturday, movie and dinner on Sunday...all people who are supportive of my sobriety!!! I have to squeeze some studying in too - the life of a PT student, you know. One would think I'd hardly have TIME to drink, really....Love to all. Goodnight
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Yay, it's Friday!!!
Kitty-thanks for your words of advice about how to deal with my friend. I have already told her I'm not drinking because of stomach problems and I'm happy to drive, and also that I won't be staying overnight. She was really disappointed but I think it will make life easier for me.
Lee-I love reading your positive posts, you are doing fantastically well my friend x
FP and OLL- I love my garden too but have very little expertise. H does most of what needs to be done and I take on more of a lying on a chair observing and advising role, he he! Oh I miss the sunlight at this time of year....
I'm feeling ok today, decided to put my worries about what to do about AA to the back of my mind. It has given me so much and helped me reach where I am now and it won't be easy to let go of. I'm intending to go to my meeting tonight. There's a guy there I really respect. He's been sober for a million years....well maybe not quite a million, but he often talks to me and takes me under his wing a bit. I will make a point of talking it all through with him.
Lilac and Sas-I love reading your posts too, you are both so intelligent and thoughtful.
You are all so important to me, thanks to you all xxxxx
Kitty-thanks for your words of advice about how to deal with my friend. I have already told her I'm not drinking because of stomach problems and I'm happy to drive, and also that I won't be staying overnight. She was really disappointed but I think it will make life easier for me.
Lee-I love reading your positive posts, you are doing fantastically well my friend x
FP and OLL- I love my garden too but have very little expertise. H does most of what needs to be done and I take on more of a lying on a chair observing and advising role, he he! Oh I miss the sunlight at this time of year....
I'm feeling ok today, decided to put my worries about what to do about AA to the back of my mind. It has given me so much and helped me reach where I am now and it won't be easy to let go of. I'm intending to go to my meeting tonight. There's a guy there I really respect. He's been sober for a million years....well maybe not quite a million, but he often talks to me and takes me under his wing a bit. I will make a point of talking it all through with him.
Lilac and Sas-I love reading your posts too, you are both so intelligent and thoughtful.
You are all so important to me, thanks to you all xxxxx
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Yay it's Friday is right!! Jeni I love your "lying in a chair observing an advising role!!" Too funny.
Kitty great work on day 35! Have a good weekend. So glad you'll be spending it with supportive people, just what you need and deserve after your stressful family visit recently.
FP good luck with your fathers neighbors. Sounds like a drag. Like enough is not already going on in your area. They should be grateful they have a house to let a tree lean on!
Lilac glad to hear you're reading up on recovery. I read a couple books in the beginning that were very enlightening. Feel free to share anything that strikes you.
Well I am so glad it's Friday. Looking forward to another productive painting weekend but going to try to sprinkle in some fun and friends. Do I dare mention I may make a shopping list for Christmas gifts? Alrighty, into work for me. Have a great day everyone!
Kitty great work on day 35! Have a good weekend. So glad you'll be spending it with supportive people, just what you need and deserve after your stressful family visit recently.
FP good luck with your fathers neighbors. Sounds like a drag. Like enough is not already going on in your area. They should be grateful they have a house to let a tree lean on!
Lilac glad to hear you're reading up on recovery. I read a couple books in the beginning that were very enlightening. Feel free to share anything that strikes you.
Well I am so glad it's Friday. Looking forward to another productive painting weekend but going to try to sprinkle in some fun and friends. Do I dare mention I may make a shopping list for Christmas gifts? Alrighty, into work for me. Have a great day everyone!
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Good morning, all! TGIF!
Started the morning with a guided meditation using one of the meditation CDs I purchased a couple months ago (just now busting it out). I feel so calm. What a shame that I have to go to chaotic work and kill it, but at least I'll go with a calm mind.
Kitty, nice job on 35 days!
Jeni, Thank you for the kind words. And it sounds like you have a good plan to deal with your doubts. I hope you hear just what you need tonight.
OLL - hope you have a lovely weekend
FP, Lee, RockBottom, hope you all have a good weekend too.
I finally got to the gym last night after work. Only the 2nd or 3rd time in 2 weeks - between being sick, my mini-binge and being depressed, I haven't been able to fit it in. Not the best workout, but did a little over an hour of cardio and some stretching. Needed to kick in those mood-boosting endorphins! I really do poorly without exercise - my mood sinks pretty low. I've been on antidepressants and they don't even do much for me unless I get regular exercise. So moving is my antidepressant and I'm working on a regular meditation practice to serve as my antianxiety medication.
Hope everyone has a good Friday!
Started the morning with a guided meditation using one of the meditation CDs I purchased a couple months ago (just now busting it out). I feel so calm. What a shame that I have to go to chaotic work and kill it, but at least I'll go with a calm mind.
Kitty, nice job on 35 days!
Jeni, Thank you for the kind words. And it sounds like you have a good plan to deal with your doubts. I hope you hear just what you need tonight.
OLL - hope you have a lovely weekend
FP, Lee, RockBottom, hope you all have a good weekend too.
I finally got to the gym last night after work. Only the 2nd or 3rd time in 2 weeks - between being sick, my mini-binge and being depressed, I haven't been able to fit it in. Not the best workout, but did a little over an hour of cardio and some stretching. Needed to kick in those mood-boosting endorphins! I really do poorly without exercise - my mood sinks pretty low. I've been on antidepressants and they don't even do much for me unless I get regular exercise. So moving is my antidepressant and I'm working on a regular meditation practice to serve as my antianxiety medication.
Hope everyone has a good Friday!
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Good morning, boaters!
FP, from your description, it sounds like your father's neighbors may be a bit testy, though I suspect there are lots of testy people in that area that have those feelings! Perhaps the branches are a reminder of the storm and they aren't thinking clearly and want the reminder gone. Good luck in dealing with them, I hope it goes smoothly!
Kitty, great advice to Jeni! Congratulations on day 35!!!
Jeni, I agree - yay it's Friday! I like the way you are thinking and handling things. Great way to deal with the issues with your friend without cutting her out of your life! And I'm still imagining that garden of yours and hope you still have that spot for me :-)
OLL, you sound really good! Glad you are going to take some time for fun in addition to your painting. From what i recall of your previous description, it sounds like your home is going to be lovely when you get done with your hard work!
Lilac, good for you for trying the meditation and recognizing how important those endorphins are! Having been on antidepressants and anti-anxiety meds for too many years to count and now exercising regularly and doing meditation, it's slowly dawning on me just how much I can help myself. I'm so happy to hear it's helping you. You are sounding strong, sister!
And a shout-out to all of our May banditos and banditas for a good Friday and relaxing weekend!
AFM: doing ok but tired. Long work day yesterday as I'm scrambling to finish a project by December 1st. It's looking iffy so I am putting in extra hours. That comes at the cost of having my home reasonably neat and clean and it means I don't have enough time to relax. But, I'm still going to the gym and I know this project will be over soon enough and then I'll have a good break. Although it is cold here, the sun is out and I feel very fortunate in so many ways. I feel sad for those who are still struggling so much in the aftermath of Sandy.
FP, from your description, it sounds like your father's neighbors may be a bit testy, though I suspect there are lots of testy people in that area that have those feelings! Perhaps the branches are a reminder of the storm and they aren't thinking clearly and want the reminder gone. Good luck in dealing with them, I hope it goes smoothly!
Kitty, great advice to Jeni! Congratulations on day 35!!!
Jeni, I agree - yay it's Friday! I like the way you are thinking and handling things. Great way to deal with the issues with your friend without cutting her out of your life! And I'm still imagining that garden of yours and hope you still have that spot for me :-)
OLL, you sound really good! Glad you are going to take some time for fun in addition to your painting. From what i recall of your previous description, it sounds like your home is going to be lovely when you get done with your hard work!
Lilac, good for you for trying the meditation and recognizing how important those endorphins are! Having been on antidepressants and anti-anxiety meds for too many years to count and now exercising regularly and doing meditation, it's slowly dawning on me just how much I can help myself. I'm so happy to hear it's helping you. You are sounding strong, sister!
And a shout-out to all of our May banditos and banditas for a good Friday and relaxing weekend!
AFM: doing ok but tired. Long work day yesterday as I'm scrambling to finish a project by December 1st. It's looking iffy so I am putting in extra hours. That comes at the cost of having my home reasonably neat and clean and it means I don't have enough time to relax. But, I'm still going to the gym and I know this project will be over soon enough and then I'll have a good break. Although it is cold here, the sun is out and I feel very fortunate in so many ways. I feel sad for those who are still struggling so much in the aftermath of Sandy.
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I'm home from work, putting my feet up with a cup of tea....bliss!
Time to shake off the week. It has actually been a good one. Got a few staff issues to contemplate, but I will reflect on them and seek advice without over stressing and waking up worrying about them I hope!
I'm still undecided about AA. But I will go and listen and try to keep an open mind.
I'm feeling strong with the not drinking. There are days that go by that I don't think about it at all. Weeks even.
It seems kind of normal to be drinking tea on a Friday night now. I used to be well on my way to getting drunk by 5.30 in the bad old days!
How life changes!
Time to shake off the week. It has actually been a good one. Got a few staff issues to contemplate, but I will reflect on them and seek advice without over stressing and waking up worrying about them I hope!
I'm still undecided about AA. But I will go and listen and try to keep an open mind.
I'm feeling strong with the not drinking. There are days that go by that I don't think about it at all. Weeks even.
It seems kind of normal to be drinking tea on a Friday night now. I used to be well on my way to getting drunk by 5.30 in the bad old days!
How life changes!
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Do you know what? Something really lovely happened tonight and I wanted to share it with you all. It's something really simple but it could never have happened 6 months ago when I would have been completely blacked out by now on a Friday.
My son was home tonight. He is usually out socialising on Fridays. Let me describe him to you-he is 19 years old, a trendy, fashion conscious, fitness fanatic (how I ever raised someone as polar opposite as me is one of life's mysteries!). He is what I suppose teenage girls would describe as 'cool'. He has been working for the past 2 years and drives a brand new car (a benefit from continuing to live at home no doubt). He has a nice girlfriend who is away at uni at the moment. He loves his car, music and clothes in that order, oh and sport, he REALLY loves that. He is also tall and good looking with the most loving heart I know, and yeah I'm biased......
But anyway, he allows me to borrow his car to go to meetings if H is out at work in our old clapped out rust bucket. He forgives me moving his seat forward and adjusting the mirrors, he forgives me leaving chocolate wrappers in there, he forgives me practically anything... But I overstepped the mark earlier in the week apparently. My crime? When he took a crowd of the guys home from football practice and proudly turned on his state of the art music system...I'd adjusted it to play Lionel Ritchie!!! He was absolutely mortified! I laughed so much at the indignant look on his face.
To be able to laugh like that is priceless.
It feels good to be sober xx
My son was home tonight. He is usually out socialising on Fridays. Let me describe him to you-he is 19 years old, a trendy, fashion conscious, fitness fanatic (how I ever raised someone as polar opposite as me is one of life's mysteries!). He is what I suppose teenage girls would describe as 'cool'. He has been working for the past 2 years and drives a brand new car (a benefit from continuing to live at home no doubt). He has a nice girlfriend who is away at uni at the moment. He loves his car, music and clothes in that order, oh and sport, he REALLY loves that. He is also tall and good looking with the most loving heart I know, and yeah I'm biased......
But anyway, he allows me to borrow his car to go to meetings if H is out at work in our old clapped out rust bucket. He forgives me moving his seat forward and adjusting the mirrors, he forgives me leaving chocolate wrappers in there, he forgives me practically anything... But I overstepped the mark earlier in the week apparently. My crime? When he took a crowd of the guys home from football practice and proudly turned on his state of the art music system...I'd adjusted it to play Lionel Ritchie!!! He was absolutely mortified! I laughed so much at the indignant look on his face.
To be able to laugh like that is priceless.
It feels good to be sober xx
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