Class of July 2012 Part 5
MTN, I wish you would stay here too.
Vajra, stay strong! Let us know how you are doing. I like posting every day in the morning to help set my mind in a positive direction and I like reading SR whenever my mind wanders towards drinking. There is always some post that strikes a cord within me.
Mel, never was a pot smoker, but before I knew better, I thought it would have helped me to quit drinking. Didn't take it up because of my kids. It would break my heart to see them take up drugs, but of course, it's OK for me. Now, no drinking and no substitute drug, but I like how you identified something else positive will fill the void created.
Obladi, hope all is well. Keep up the good fight!
R4R, you've had that neck thing for a while. Good idea to get it checked out.
For fun, how many words can we find within the letters of, "class of July?"
Vajra, stay strong! Let us know how you are doing. I like posting every day in the morning to help set my mind in a positive direction and I like reading SR whenever my mind wanders towards drinking. There is always some post that strikes a cord within me.
Mel, never was a pot smoker, but before I knew better, I thought it would have helped me to quit drinking. Didn't take it up because of my kids. It would break my heart to see them take up drugs, but of course, it's OK for me. Now, no drinking and no substitute drug, but I like how you identified something else positive will fill the void created.
Obladi, hope all is well. Keep up the good fight!
R4R, you've had that neck thing for a while. Good idea to get it checked out.
For fun, how many words can we find within the letters of, "class of July?"
Good Morning every one - another refreshing day. Nice to wake up with a clear head and a sense of focus. Until my true brain wakes up and I get all scattered.
Heading out for a walk with my dogs to enjoy the sunshine and the crisp fall like air (about 46, when I woke up it was 34!).
Take care everyone - have a great day!
Heading out for a walk with my dogs to enjoy the sunshine and the crisp fall like air (about 46, when I woke up it was 34!).
Take care everyone - have a great day!
WELCOME BACK, MTN!!!!! Now is the time.... and of course, you can post here also. Do what it takes to stay off the 'stuff'.
Extremely stressfulness this morning. COO breathing down my neck and others. AND I forgot my meds... took the zoloft, but it does no good for anxiety/wanting to tear someone's throat out feelings. But all I can do is pray.... sometimes that's enough.
Ugh....
Other than that, it's a wonderful Wednesday. Hubby birthday today... gotta fix him some meatloaf for dinner - or buy it from Bob Evans
Extremely stressfulness this morning. COO breathing down my neck and others. AND I forgot my meds... took the zoloft, but it does no good for anxiety/wanting to tear someone's throat out feelings. But all I can do is pray.... sometimes that's enough.
Ugh....
Other than that, it's a wonderful Wednesday. Hubby birthday today... gotta fix him some meatloaf for dinner - or buy it from Bob Evans
Hi Everyone,
So I am feeling very embarrassed. After 70 days, I caved into the pressure on Sunday, and had a drink. I don't know why I caved, but I did and I feel so embarrassed, guilty and remorseful. After, my husband said - "oh, I didn't think you would drink it". It was sitting there calling me. I ignored it for quite a while., Then I had a sip. Then I had the drink - a single shot. Maybe it was good, because I haven't had any cravings since. I realized as I was drinking it that I didn't really want and or need it - but none the less, I drank it.
So does this mean I go back to square one in counting days? Did I screw up with paws too? I can't believe I drank it!!!!
Now I am angry at my husband for putting me in such a position, but I am angrier at myself for the lapse.
Oh well, today is Tuesday, and the sun is shining.
So I am feeling very embarrassed. After 70 days, I caved into the pressure on Sunday, and had a drink. I don't know why I caved, but I did and I feel so embarrassed, guilty and remorseful. After, my husband said - "oh, I didn't think you would drink it". It was sitting there calling me. I ignored it for quite a while., Then I had a sip. Then I had the drink - a single shot. Maybe it was good, because I haven't had any cravings since. I realized as I was drinking it that I didn't really want and or need it - but none the less, I drank it.
So does this mean I go back to square one in counting days? Did I screw up with paws too? I can't believe I drank it!!!!
Now I am angry at my husband for putting me in such a position, but I am angrier at myself for the lapse.
Oh well, today is Tuesday, and the sun is shining.
Katan - some people count days that are in a row. That works for some, maybe not all. Please just look at the days you did. Highlight all those days on a calendar. Use them to remind you that you can do this. I'm by no means doing a super job, but I'm happy that my calendars is getting more highlights on it than I've had in over a year. It feels good and gives me incentive to get more. So, you have had 70 days sober. Today is 71 out of 72. Do what works for you. You know how I feel about regret. If I regretted too much in my life I would have never explored the world of backpacking, motorcycling, running power equipment (I love cutting wood - great stress relief), canoe/camping, winter camping. I never let my regrets stop me from moving forward.
You have done an amazing job, I'm just glad you recognized this as something you shouldn't do. When I took on moderation last year I thought I had it down. But, I surely proved to myself I was wrong. This time around has been much more difficult to get past those same hours every day. But, thanks to the routine and the insulin changes in my body due to carbs from alcohol, the spike hits every day at the same time.
Let's see 71 out of 72 days today for you, okay? I'm sorry your husband put you in that position.
Take care - and enjoy the sunshine. Isn't it beautiful today - I'm just across the pond.
You have done an amazing job, I'm just glad you recognized this as something you shouldn't do. When I took on moderation last year I thought I had it down. But, I surely proved to myself I was wrong. This time around has been much more difficult to get past those same hours every day. But, thanks to the routine and the insulin changes in my body due to carbs from alcohol, the spike hits every day at the same time.
Let's see 71 out of 72 days today for you, okay? I'm sorry your husband put you in that position.
Take care - and enjoy the sunshine. Isn't it beautiful today - I'm just across the pond.
Marjoram - thanks for the words of wisdom. I have been so angry at myself, and the husband since Sunday. Other stuff going on with him too that exacerbates the issue - but reality is no one made me drink the drink---i did that all by myself.
Good part is I am back on track wiser, and feeling less cravings (at least for the last two days.)
Good part is I am back on track wiser, and feeling less cravings (at least for the last two days.)
Hi Everyone,
So I am feeling very embarrassed. After 70 days, I caved into the pressure on Sunday, and had a drink. I don't know why I caved, but I did and I feel so embarrassed, guilty and remorseful. After, my husband said - "oh, I didn't think you would drink it". It was sitting there calling me.
So I am feeling very embarrassed. After 70 days, I caved into the pressure on Sunday, and had a drink. I don't know why I caved, but I did and I feel so embarrassed, guilty and remorseful. After, my husband said - "oh, I didn't think you would drink it". It was sitting there calling me.
You are singing my tune, because I ALMOST CAVED TEN MINUTES AGO! I was cleaning a closet and there were beers in the corner that I bought for guests (since I was a martini drinker).
I pulled a closet box aside and my eyes glimpsed the strewn bottles of beer lying on their sides in a dark corner. Then it was as if I was hit by a superior alien's science-fiction-hypno beam from a 50s movie: "Must drink the beer, must drink the beer, must drink the beer . . ."
I can tell you exactly what I thought next. I then thought "Must drink the water, must drink the water." Okay, now you know how crazy I am. But crazy worked. I went a poured a large glass of water and chugged it. And the desire to drink the beer went away.
But I came close. Very close! I wouldn't be embarrassed, Katan. What I am trying to say in this story is that we are all in the same boat.
Congratulations on the 70 days.
Mel
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Welcome back MTN glad to see you back here!! Definitely keep posting
Katan, don't sweat the small stuff. You're doing great big picture, and you didn't turn one drink into a binge. Carry on with the good work!
Mel, nice job choosing water over beer. That can't have been easy!
TIG you mean you want us to use our brains???
Better day today. Beautiful weather and no headaches or exhaustion.
Katan, don't sweat the small stuff. You're doing great big picture, and you didn't turn one drink into a binge. Carry on with the good work!
Mel, nice job choosing water over beer. That can't have been easy!
TIG you mean you want us to use our brains???
Better day today. Beautiful weather and no headaches or exhaustion.
I got so rattled by the beers that I just ran upstairs and signed on to SR. I have not been back downstairs. They are still sitting down there, in the dark, staring into space no doubt, like evil trolls ready to gobble me up the moment my guard is down. I need to go back down and dump them in the trash.
Mel
Good Morning All - Mammogram came back clean, so that is good. Just waiting on bloodwork results.
Another good day awaits. Cloudy, rainy, and cool today....but I like days like this sometimes so I don't feel so anxious to get so much done.
Hugs to everyone.
Another good day awaits. Cloudy, rainy, and cool today....but I like days like this sometimes so I don't feel so anxious to get so much done.
Hugs to everyone.
Back on track. No cravings..so that is a positive thing.
Rain forecasted here too.
Marjoram - glad the test results have been favourable.
Mel - beer only has a 3 month shelf life. It's time to get rid of it
TIG, Mel, Dee, NFW and Everyone I may have omitted - thank you all for the support. I think part of the reason I caved last week, was that I had not been on SR regularly for a couple of weeks to keep up the positive reinforcement.
So...tada!! I'm back
Rain forecasted here too.
Marjoram - glad the test results have been favourable.
Mel - beer only has a 3 month shelf life. It's time to get rid of it
TIG, Mel, Dee, NFW and Everyone I may have omitted - thank you all for the support. I think part of the reason I caved last week, was that I had not been on SR regularly for a couple of weeks to keep up the positive reinforcement.
So...tada!! I'm back
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I think time on SR is very well spent. Some days you don't have a whole lot to report (a good thing in our world) but those are the days you can read, and encourage others that are currently struggling. Venting here is great too, I just don't have anyone that can relate in my immediate world.
Hope everyone has a great day no matter what the weather!
I was thinking of the quote "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results". Reminded me of us, and how many times we thought we could cut back on drinking, or save it for "special occasions" yet always getting the same negative results. What made us think it would be different each new time? (are we all severe optimists? lol) On the flip side, what is different about this time around that we've been able to change the process?
Hope everyone has a great day no matter what the weather!
I was thinking of the quote "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results". Reminded me of us, and how many times we thought we could cut back on drinking, or save it for "special occasions" yet always getting the same negative results. What made us think it would be different each new time? (are we all severe optimists? lol) On the flip side, what is different about this time around that we've been able to change the process?
[QUOTE=flachead;3586015]TIG - did you get that cow in your Avatar from WI...? LOL
She's my partner in crime. In that picture, we just looted the Milwaukee Cheese Castle and are racing towards the boarder.
Hey, did anyone hear about the 15ft python found in Lake Michigan near Chicago?
She's my partner in crime. In that picture, we just looted the Milwaukee Cheese Castle and are racing towards the boarder.
Hey, did anyone hear about the 15ft python found in Lake Michigan near Chicago?
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