Class Of January 2012 Part 8
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Hi classmates!
Nel, I'm sorry you were ill, don't blame yourself about your kids. I don't think kids appreciate their parents like they should. I know mine don't.
Billy, so nice to "see" you again. Don't be a stranger here. And I actually like Eyore : ).
I went to my hub's company Christmas party tonight. I ate a small country's worth of calories. But I didn't drink! I was pleased that it wasn't difficult and once I got past walking into a room where I don't know anybody very well, I just forgot about it. It felt good, like a real accomplishment.
I care about you all and I appreciate all your encouragement and friendship.
Nel, I'm sorry you were ill, don't blame yourself about your kids. I don't think kids appreciate their parents like they should. I know mine don't.
Billy, so nice to "see" you again. Don't be a stranger here. And I actually like Eyore : ).
I went to my hub's company Christmas party tonight. I ate a small country's worth of calories. But I didn't drink! I was pleased that it wasn't difficult and once I got past walking into a room where I don't know anybody very well, I just forgot about it. It felt good, like a real accomplishment.
I care about you all and I appreciate all your encouragement and friendship.
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Well done on the not drinking K. We are awesome. I can go into the supermarket now and not even show the remotest interest in the wine aisle. Keep it going K and I take your wise words on board x
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Good morning, family!
The best gift in the world? Billy back here with us and with his awesome sense of humor in tact! :day6
So FIAFI, I hear you about the voices in our heads. I have to admit that now that I am sober and have no options other than to confront and work through feelings and situations, it is easy for me to second guess and get caught up in mental bs. I never realized how my perfectionism and impatience were such major contributors to my poor choices when frustration set in. Or when I felt I needed a reward; or an excuse; or a friend; or a ____________ fill in the blank.
This house is awesome and awful - AA? LOL -sorry....not enough coffee yet
. It has suffered years of abuse but has tremendous charm. It is HUGE. I am used to one bedroom apartments with most every convenience at my fingertips. Not so here. No shower; antiquated electrical outlets. Filthy appiances and a non working oven (bad, bad, bad for a chef!!) and just general dirtyness. So I decided Friday night to make it a game. I'm playing Pioneer Woman and starting from scratch. I decided to appreciate what I have. My family a mile away is number one. I have heat, running water, and a cool, safe place with tons of potential. The cat digs it - she has squirrels and lots of stuff to watch from the floor to almost ceiling windows. I can turn the bottom half of this place into cozy living quarters and not have to worry about high heating costs in the ghastly upstairs (ok, I am a bit of a snob - I like clean and now realize I'm way more cleaner that I thought I was!!) I will do this one day at a time. I don't have to accomplish everything in a day. I have $ in the bank and no where I need to be. Slowing down is hard, but what a luxury. All of this is a big adjustment. No work issues is probably my biggest demon, if that makes sense. I think being co-dependant and having no one to report to or to be needed by is pretty eye opening - who'd a thunk?
So today, it will be into Home Depot for a look around. Dinner with the kids for the big 54 and enjoying my first birthday in many years WITHOUT a drink or 10. Another year older - yep. But many years wiser in just 11 months. Life is good.
Love and hugs from this old woman to you all!
T
The best gift in the world? Billy back here with us and with his awesome sense of humor in tact! :day6
So FIAFI, I hear you about the voices in our heads. I have to admit that now that I am sober and have no options other than to confront and work through feelings and situations, it is easy for me to second guess and get caught up in mental bs. I never realized how my perfectionism and impatience were such major contributors to my poor choices when frustration set in. Or when I felt I needed a reward; or an excuse; or a friend; or a ____________ fill in the blank.
This house is awesome and awful - AA? LOL -sorry....not enough coffee yet
. It has suffered years of abuse but has tremendous charm. It is HUGE. I am used to one bedroom apartments with most every convenience at my fingertips. Not so here. No shower; antiquated electrical outlets. Filthy appiances and a non working oven (bad, bad, bad for a chef!!) and just general dirtyness. So I decided Friday night to make it a game. I'm playing Pioneer Woman and starting from scratch. I decided to appreciate what I have. My family a mile away is number one. I have heat, running water, and a cool, safe place with tons of potential. The cat digs it - she has squirrels and lots of stuff to watch from the floor to almost ceiling windows. I can turn the bottom half of this place into cozy living quarters and not have to worry about high heating costs in the ghastly upstairs (ok, I am a bit of a snob - I like clean and now realize I'm way more cleaner that I thought I was!!) I will do this one day at a time. I don't have to accomplish everything in a day. I have $ in the bank and no where I need to be. Slowing down is hard, but what a luxury. All of this is a big adjustment. No work issues is probably my biggest demon, if that makes sense. I think being co-dependant and having no one to report to or to be needed by is pretty eye opening - who'd a thunk? So today, it will be into Home Depot for a look around. Dinner with the kids for the big 54 and enjoying my first birthday in many years WITHOUT a drink or 10. Another year older - yep. But many years wiser in just 11 months. Life is good.
Love and hugs from this old woman to you all!
T
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Katrinka, way to go on surviving the dreaded "don't know anybody" holiday party hell ....sober. That takes guts!
Billy, I love your humor. It is so appreciated
NBC, you just made ALOT of major life changes, be easy on yourself! And
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOUNG LADY!!!
:day1
Nel, are you feeling better?
Billy, I love your humor. It is so appreciated
NBC, you just made ALOT of major life changes, be easy on yourself! And
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOUNG LADY!!!
:day1
Nel, are you feeling better?
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Happy Birthday, NBC!! Aww, you're still just a baby! Congratulations on all the huge changes in your life. It all sounds so right for you, but scary I bet. Just take it one day at a time (where have I heard that expression before?) and enjoy the change of scenery and the closeness of your family.
Sad news today. My 42 yr old cousin died this morning from a rare degenerative brain disease. He leaves a wife and 5 yr old son. So sad for my aunt and uncle, too.
Today is month 11 for me. Doing a little happy dance.
Sad news today. My 42 yr old cousin died this morning from a rare degenerative brain disease. He leaves a wife and 5 yr old son. So sad for my aunt and uncle, too.
Today is month 11 for me. Doing a little happy dance.
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:day1 NBC!....Billy I loved the pic. of Dee hard at work...lol.. I wish we had a 'like' button, like we do on facebook...Katrinka good for you on the Christmas party, so sorry to hear bad news of your family **{hugs&prayers to you}}.... NBC, I so love your attitude towards life...I have awesome classmates! I been busy cleaning today, will check in soon
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Good morning, all! Well today I will be departing this big, filty, antiquated, wait for it - wait for it ......recreational pharmaceutical house! I promise, only I could find and rent a crack house. Seriously! But as I type this I am smiling and laughing because it is just so typical and all's well that ends well. Found (and toured and touched and all but licked the floor!) adoreable 2 bedroom doll house yesterday in a distant town. Clean as a whistle, totally redone by the landlord who just bought and rennovated it in past couple of months. It has a garden spot in the backyard that chef here will cherish. A claw foot tub w/shower that chef here will cherish. Beautiful refinished hardwood floors that chef here will cherish - y'all get the idea? 
Apparently, it is widely known locally about the place I am departing being the hub of lots and lots and lots of transactions of an illegal sort. Yeppers - leave it to me to land my happy a$$ in digs like this!! But just like my Jan Fam - onward and upward. The smile will have to be pried off my face and the future looks so awesome. I feel as though I have arrived - and let me just say, there is alot of "thank you, Jesus" being said by this alkie. Off to load the rig and head for higher ground!! I love you guys and gals - thanks for putting up with and reading the "Seedy bog blog". 
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Apparently, it is widely known locally about the place I am departing being the hub of lots and lots and lots of transactions of an illegal sort. Yeppers - leave it to me to land my happy a$$ in digs like this!! But just like my Jan Fam - onward and upward. The smile will have to be pried off my face and the future looks so awesome. I feel as though I have arrived - and let me just say, there is alot of "thank you, Jesus" being said by this alkie. Off to load the rig and head for higher ground!! I love you guys and gals - thanks for putting up with and reading the "Seedy bog blog". :
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Hey NBC gal you are doing great. The new house sounds fantastic, very American Gothic.
Life deals us funny cards. I went to the ex Ms Billys today (spit spit) to pick up some stuff, and the very second I pulled up in her drive I got an email telling me to upgrade my membership on a dating site.
See even the Gods of exalkies look after us at our most down times, I cracked up laughing
xxx
Life deals us funny cards. I went to the ex Ms Billys today (spit spit) to pick up some stuff, and the very second I pulled up in her drive I got an email telling me to upgrade my membership on a dating site.
See even the Gods of exalkies look after us at our most down times, I cracked up laughing
xxx
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Better to find out things.....sooner than later. Good luck moving again NBC.
Billy, you are a riot. (Insert Monty Python picture here)
I'm not computer savy like most of you.
I'm having a bit of a rough patch, control issues.
Deep breath, say Serenity prayer, repeat....
I need to cry.....I only cried when I drank, then the first month or so of sobriety. Now, dry as a desert. I hold everything in....not good. I'm feeling very frustrated & nobody to vent to but my God.
I miss my friends from work, I wish I had a normal family (at least a not psychotic dysfunctional one)
I wish my husband would stop drinking.
I wish my moods weren't ALL OVER the place.
Ok, venting done.
Thank you God, I am sober, healthy, have a home, food. I have it better than 90% of the land covered earth. Forgive me for taking it for granted.
Bless you all for your support
Billy, you are a riot. (Insert Monty Python picture here)
I'm not computer savy like most of you.
I'm having a bit of a rough patch, control issues.
Deep breath, say Serenity prayer, repeat....
I need to cry.....I only cried when I drank, then the first month or so of sobriety. Now, dry as a desert. I hold everything in....not good. I'm feeling very frustrated & nobody to vent to but my God.
I miss my friends from work, I wish I had a normal family (at least a not psychotic dysfunctional one)
I wish my husband would stop drinking.
I wish my moods weren't ALL OVER the place.
Ok, venting done.
Thank you God, I am sober, healthy, have a home, food. I have it better than 90% of the land covered earth. Forgive me for taking it for granted.
Bless you all for your support
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