MarkstheSpot

Bit of upsetting fallout this morning (one of the mums to MrsMarkthespot: "Your husband: I've never seen anyone so drunk and still be on their feet.") that bothered me all day, especially as she said it in front of the kids. But I've just told myself, "Well, madam, you'll never see me like that again," and feel kind of... I don't know, almost relieved about it all in a way.

Tell you what, can't stop eating, though.

Marria

I realise that a big part of me feels that only alcohol can truly make me happy. How crazy that is when it brings me so much unhappiness! I'm reaching the end of day 1 and I'm very glad to have this March class to turn to. Got through some cravings earlier on today and I'm drinking lots of coffee.
Best wishes to you all

InsertNameHere

I battled with that as well, well hell I am still fighting it a little, I am just holding on to the hope that there has to be more to life than what mine has become, all I did for fun was drink, nothing else. If there wasn't drinking involved I didn't want to be there, I think that we need to see what else is out there because eventually drinking stops being fun and life passes you by with every bottle. There has to be more than that, and everyone here with sober time in says that there is so I am going to find out what there might be out there.

Dee74

sorry ARTEMIS - thought I'd welcomed you already - welcome

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Dee74

I used to feel like that too Marria -but I think I was confusing 'happiness' with the short term relief I'd get from drinking - which as you say, only ends up making you more unhappy eventually anyway....

Happiness is not the same as 'not feeling bad', I think. One of the best things about recovery for me is being happy, for the first time in my adult life.

I had a lot to sort out in my life, and in my head, so I didn't become happy over night...

but once I reached the point I liked my life sober and liked who I was, that feeling of peace and happiness has never left me - even in the bad times we all have from time to time

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pattylulu

aww, that truly sucks....stay strong.

Dee74

sorry for your loss BD.

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pattylulu

5th day - feeling better. Today I spent too much time caught up fantasizing how great life was when I could drink & do pills. Sick!

Jennx7

Great job. Pattylulu. I'm pulling for ya!

Jennx7

BD,
I am so sorry for your loss. I'm an avid dog lover and really understand your pain. Great job staying sober, alcohol just makes grief so much worse. You are in my thoughts tonight.

DreamingDog

Just checking in. I'm still here and working on my issues.

I drank one more time since I posted on the 20th. I don't remember what day it was exactly so I'm going to claim Friday, March 23, 2012 as my sober date. I know it was either Wednesday or Thursday but don't remember exactly.

Anyways, keep going strong every one. I'm glad to see so many people racking up the sober days.

Jennx7

Keep working on it dreaming dog!!!

Dee74

Welcome back DreamingDog

whats your plan to stay sober now?

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vinyl

On day 7 and happy to be part of the March gang.

Here's to claiming it again next March as an anniversary!

Dee74

good to have you here Vinyl

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Jennx7

Welcome vinyl!

InsertNameHere

Welcome back D Dog, I went throught about 4 months of trying to quit and failing over and over again. I don't know what you plan on doing but every time I got asked that question I didn't know how to respond. What it took for me was reading Rational recovery starting to apply AVRT and then finally deciding I was finished drinking after all. Not that I need to stop not that i think I want to stop, Firmly decide that I was done drinking. Granted that obviously took a while and I am not trying to preach RR/AVRT to you I am just saying what worked for me. I am also saying that maybe you need to find something that will work for you, be it AA, AVRT, whatever. I know all my attempts at just stopping because I should with no system in place didn't work maybe you will fair better but I am thinking something to help couldn't hurt.

Vinyl glad you decided to join us.

I am doing okay with my morning so far, I have some work cut out for me but I have someone that is going to help and all weekend to get it done. Hopefully today or at least this morning is better than yesterday which was a doosey. I seem to be having a lot of those recently. I guess life dosen't stop coming just because you stop drinking hu?

Have a good day everyone I know you are all still asleep right now but I am a few hours a head of you. Except for you UK ers I know you are right there with me.

Delilah1

It appears I have made it just under the wire as part of the March class. Looking forward to learning from all of your stories, and staying away from wine. Going to try to sleep.

Dee74

welcome to the thread Delilah

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InsertNameHere

I hope you do, to both of them Welcome.