Class of June 2011 part 12
instant
Join Date: May 2011
Location: Australia
Posts: 5,711
TP well done on your time.
What a great thing is I am up at 6am and my mind is free. This means time is my own, rather than give it up to the torment of the struggle in it's various phases.
Today is going to be a scorcher, I do not think I will ride to work.
What a great thing is I am up at 6am and my mind is free. This means time is my own, rather than give it up to the torment of the struggle in it's various phases.
Today is going to be a scorcher, I do not think I will ride to work.
Member
Join Date: Nov 2010
Location: near London, UK
Posts: 582
Hi guys,
Hard to imagine your weather Jim being mid winter here. Great jobs on your 8 months and your 7 TP. Im at 7.5ish now - I would never have believed it possible a year ago. I have so much to be thankful for.
Im still off work - doc has signed me off for another 2 weeks although I can go back sooner if I get better in that time. Wierdest illness ive ever had - most of the time I feel ok but I need to be near to a toilet all the time - I will say no more!
Starting work on my step 9 now - Im loving the steps and the things they have taught me I would recommend them to anyone who is unhappy - not just alcoholics! Im not AA obsessed I dont go to that many meetings but those steps I would recommend to anyone.
STILL not done my tax return - however it should only take me an hour or so and Ive got at least the rest of this week off work!
Despite everything I think this is the happiest I have ever been in January
xx
Hard to imagine your weather Jim being mid winter here. Great jobs on your 8 months and your 7 TP. Im at 7.5ish now - I would never have believed it possible a year ago. I have so much to be thankful for.
Im still off work - doc has signed me off for another 2 weeks although I can go back sooner if I get better in that time. Wierdest illness ive ever had - most of the time I feel ok but I need to be near to a toilet all the time - I will say no more!
Starting work on my step 9 now - Im loving the steps and the things they have taught me I would recommend them to anyone who is unhappy - not just alcoholics! Im not AA obsessed I dont go to that many meetings but those steps I would recommend to anyone.
STILL not done my tax return - however it should only take me an hour or so and Ive got at least the rest of this week off work!
Despite everything I think this is the happiest I have ever been in January
xx
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Join Date: Sep 2010
Posts: 711
Just wanted to drop in and say after reading the past few days you guys are all doing such fantastic work!! I love reading the progress, seeing the pics, being allowed to have a peek into what's going on in your lives, the honesty, the list goes on and on.
It was interesting - the other day out of the blue I got an email from an old friend, the group leader of Celebrate Recovery that I had found over a year ago. I'll never forget how back then I drove past my church (that I had managed to stop attending) each and everyday, seeing the electronic sign at the edge of the street advertising the ministry. I guess every time I drove by a tug must have accumulated within my heart and one evening I went. They are all wonderful people there and I attacked my sobriety with a passion. After about 4-5 mths I had an unsettling event and was alone- turned back to the bottle and the hole of despair. I was on the cusp of something great but turned away from it all once again. Fast forward 8 months later and here comes May 28th 2011 - my day one....again.....this time the ciggies and booze all in one package.
After all this time I thought he had forgotten about me as I had not thought to at least check in or stop by for a visit. It was so nice to hear from him and I wrote back that I was doing fabulous these days and feel delivered from it all, and wrote that I would find the time to come by some evenings to celebrate my recovery and socialize. I guess sometimes we can get so consumed with recovery we can't see past our own noses.
It was interesting - the other day out of the blue I got an email from an old friend, the group leader of Celebrate Recovery that I had found over a year ago. I'll never forget how back then I drove past my church (that I had managed to stop attending) each and everyday, seeing the electronic sign at the edge of the street advertising the ministry. I guess every time I drove by a tug must have accumulated within my heart and one evening I went. They are all wonderful people there and I attacked my sobriety with a passion. After about 4-5 mths I had an unsettling event and was alone- turned back to the bottle and the hole of despair. I was on the cusp of something great but turned away from it all once again. Fast forward 8 months later and here comes May 28th 2011 - my day one....again.....this time the ciggies and booze all in one package.
After all this time I thought he had forgotten about me as I had not thought to at least check in or stop by for a visit. It was so nice to hear from him and I wrote back that I was doing fabulous these days and feel delivered from it all, and wrote that I would find the time to come by some evenings to celebrate my recovery and socialize. I guess sometimes we can get so consumed with recovery we can't see past our own noses.
instant
Join Date: May 2011
Location: Australia
Posts: 5,711
Hey Pumpkin / Leo, isn't it great how well we can do when we stop shooting ourselves in the foot? I went to a farewell for a friend who is moving interstate for work. Everyone was drinking and I got a few comments and questions. It was great to see some people but after they had a few it got a bit crass, and my friends farewell speech was impaired by his level of intoxication.
I have cause to reflect on all that, in my view the alcohol impacted negatively on the event not enhanced it as I would have previously thought. I had the sort of weekend which would have led to a nightmare of drinking into the early morning, and intense cravings. At times I did wonder if in time all the madness, and struggle would drive me to suicide.
To be where we are is truly cause to celebrate Leo !!
I have cause to reflect on all that, in my view the alcohol impacted negatively on the event not enhanced it as I would have previously thought. I had the sort of weekend which would have led to a nightmare of drinking into the early morning, and intense cravings. At times I did wonder if in time all the madness, and struggle would drive me to suicide.
To be where we are is truly cause to celebrate Leo !!
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Join Date: Jun 2011
Location: Kent, UK
Posts: 351
It is great to read all your posts.
I am sober and happy.
The first phase of my business has ended. After 8 months of work I have created some superb products, some are already bringing money in and after two tours this week with Australians, my new tours are ready to rock and roll!
I am exhausted but so happy and content!
I have done it, created a my own business and started to bring money in. And doing what I wanted to do!
And all sober.
It is lovely reading your posts this morning!
Chimp!
I am sober and happy.
The first phase of my business has ended. After 8 months of work I have created some superb products, some are already bringing money in and after two tours this week with Australians, my new tours are ready to rock and roll!
I am exhausted but so happy and content!
I have done it, created a my own business and started to bring money in. And doing what I wanted to do!
And all sober.
It is lovely reading your posts this morning!
Chimp!
instant
Join Date: May 2011
Location: Australia
Posts: 5,711
Spat the dummy at work over a "real issue". I thought I handled it all better overall than I would have before. At times I feel I work for clowns, or this is some kind of candid camera show with someone deliberately being an imbecile, and my manager is gormless. It's ok I will not drink and I have followed up with an appropriate apology and some sensible action on " the issue".
And I am home and relaxed. 9 months ago I would be into the wine by now and whining to my wife.
And I am home and relaxed. 9 months ago I would be into the wine by now and whining to my wife.
instant
Join Date: May 2011
Location: Australia
Posts: 5,711
Thanks Dee. I was bike riding yesterday and I thought that perhaps my sobriety is the most precious thing I have. Without it so many things are damaged, given up or not possible.
I am so lucky to have my wife's understanding.
I am so lucky to have my wife's understanding.
instant
Join Date: May 2011
Location: Australia
Posts: 5,711
we have had a needed cool change. I woke up and realised I had ideas in my head and felt good. Waking up was a nightmare for years.
It is clear to me that my brain is starting to function better, and it seems that this trend will continue for some time. I am really starting to open up and get on top of things rather than being in a reactive and irritable state.
It is clear to me that my brain is starting to function better, and it seems that this trend will continue for some time. I am really starting to open up and get on top of things rather than being in a reactive and irritable state.
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Join Date: Nov 2010
Location: near London, UK
Posts: 582
I can relate to what you said 100% its fantastic to have my brain back, my house is coming back together nicely and I feel it is a home now rather than a nightmare to barely keep functioning. The only thing I have noticed is that I dont really want to go out anymore - im not sure if its a self defence mechanism, maybe partly but Ive been invited to an AA function on Saturday so no danger of drinking yet I just dont feel like socialising - id rather stay at home, potter, watch tv or play games. I wonder if this is still alcoholic type behaviour isolating myself like this.
Still Im happy with my life the way it is at the moment and there is nothing I need that I dont have - I am very fortunate to have been given the gift of sobriety.
Still Im happy with my life the way it is at the moment and there is nothing I need that I dont have - I am very fortunate to have been given the gift of sobriety.
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Join Date: Jun 2011
Location: Kent, UK
Posts: 351
Morning All, still here, still sober!
It was great to read the posts from the last few days. Pumpkin and Instant, you are an inspiration. It is a wonderful journey. A journey that means that we are alive.
I will write some more later but right now, I need to crack on with my work!
Chimp!
It was great to read the posts from the last few days. Pumpkin and Instant, you are an inspiration. It is a wonderful journey. A journey that means that we are alive.
I will write some more later but right now, I need to crack on with my work!
Chimp!
instant
Join Date: May 2011
Location: Australia
Posts: 5,711
Yes Chimp today we celebrate being Australian. I am up early and will be at work by 9. It is going to be 31 and the sun is shining. There is a community breakfast in the local park I will go to on my way to work.
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