Class of September 2011 Part 2
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Class of September 2011 Part 2
continues from here:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...2011-a-21.html
Keep up the good work guys
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http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...2011-a-21.html
Keep up the good work guys
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Fallingwater: when I husband I and I first began dating 8 years ago I started to crochet a scarf for him. I began in september and planned to give it to him for Christmas. When I was nearly done he saw it and said he would like it wider, then longer...long story short I still haven't finished it. It has become a sort of relationship fetish. At this point he would be appalled if I actually finished it and presented it to him. By the time we are in our dotage it will be 30ft long (it is already 2.5 feet wide!) but that's o.k. I have made many many scarves in the intervening years, but I still pick it out of the basket every once in awhile and do a row or two.
Husband got off work early today so I am off for some quality time. Night all.
Husband got off work early today so I am off for some quality time. Night all.
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Originally Posted by alaskasunshine
Ok. We have three sunshines our class. Chaotic,Sally and I. There must be some coincidental significance. I LOVE IT.
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DITTO!
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Double ditto!
Originally Posted by alaskasunshine
Ok. We have three sunshines our class. Chaotic,Sally and I. There must be some coincidental significance. I LOVE IT.
Posted by chaoticsunshine:
DITTO!
Posted by me:
Double ditto!
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Originally Posted by juststopit 
Fallingwater: when I husband I and I first began dating 8 years ago I started to crochet a scarf for him. I began in september and planned to give it to him for Christmas. When I was nearly done he saw it and said he would like it wider, then longer...long story short I still haven't finished it. It has become a sort of relationship fetish. At this point he would be appalled if I actually finished it and presented it to him. By the time we are in our dotage it will be 30ft long (it is already 2.5 feet wide!) but that's o.k. I have made many many scarves in the intervening years, but I still pick it out of the basket every once in awhile and do a row or two.
Husband got off work early today so I am off for some quality time. Night all.
Husband got off work early today so I am off for some quality time. Night all.
I crocheted an afghan years ago, started with a tight stitch, then a looser stitch, not paying attention. What shoulda been a rectangle shaped up to a trapezoid! Doing something creative is a great idea, though. Stress relieving (well, usually...)
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Originally Posted by juststopit
Fallingwater: when I husband I and I first began dating 8 years ago I started to crochet a scarf for him. I began in september and planned to give it to him for Christmas. When I was nearly done he saw it and said he would like it wider, then longer...long story short I still haven't finished it. It has become a sort of relationship fetish. At this point he would be appalled if I actually finished it and presented it to him. By the time we are in our dotage it will be 30ft long (it is already 2.5 feet wide!) but that's o.k. I have made many many scarves in the intervening years, but I still pick it out of the basket every once in awhile and do a row or two.
Husband got off work early today so I am off for some quality time. Night all.
Husband got off work early today so I am off for some quality time. Night all.
I crocheted an afghan years ago, started with a tight stitch, then a looser stitch, not paying attention. What shoulda been a rectangle shaped up to a trapezoid! Doing something creative is a great idea, though. Stress relieving (well, usually...)
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Trying to quiet the voices, but they are very loud and persistant today for some reason. I did make it to a meeting at lunch. Still, the craving is there. 
Day 8 is more than halfway over. That IS something.
Day 8 is more than halfway over. That IS something. Guest
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Day 1 yet again. I am beyond sick and tired of alcohol. I feel horrible every morning. I can't remember the last time I woke up and didn''t feel exhausted, dehydrated, and headachey.
I don't need to list all the reasons I need to quit. I've said them all here before.
I think the main thing that draws me to alcohol despite ALL those reasons not to drink, is anxiety.
When sober, I get intense anxiety. I get dizzy, my chest and back muscles get stiff. My stomach flutters. And I know that a little drink would put a stop to all of it.
Well, let's try this again....
I don't need to list all the reasons I need to quit. I've said them all here before.
I think the main thing that draws me to alcohol despite ALL those reasons not to drink, is anxiety.
When sober, I get intense anxiety. I get dizzy, my chest and back muscles get stiff. My stomach flutters. And I know that a little drink would put a stop to all of it.
Well, let's try this again....
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congratulations on day 8 alaska.
Welcome back IrishEyes
I got sick of just trying...trying would only ever get me so far. Support and tryiong new things helped me a lot.
The trick for me was adding more and more 'tools'
Everyone can beat this - it's just up to us to decide how far we're prepared to go, I think?
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Welcome back IrishEyes
I got sick of just trying...trying would only ever get me so far. Support and tryiong new things helped me a lot.
The trick for me was adding more and more 'tools'
Everyone can beat this - it's just up to us to decide how far we're prepared to go, I think?
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Originally Posted by alaskasunshine
Trying to quiet the voices, but they are very loud and persistant today for some reason. I did make it to a meeting at lunch. Still, the craving is there. Day 8 is more than halfway over. That IS something.
Day 8 is more than halfway over. That IS something. I totally relate to this! I haven't had an alcohol craving in a few weeks, and I think today is Day 17 or 16. Annnyway, I found myself today REALLY wanting something to drink. I had to force myself to sit down and write out my feelings, and I realized that what I wanted was a sense of normalcy like most people my age (mid 20's), not to get drunk.
I want to be able to relax and mess around with a few beers. Before I started drinking to get drunk, I did genuinely enjoy the taste of certain beers. I have to remember that there was life before I discovered alcohol, and that I would have to create a new normal.
I had to think about all the threads I've read about people who've abstained for 6 months then jumped back in with two feet because they thought they could moderate. I don't know if I can moderate (I know of a few people who drank like I did, but have eased into a life of moderation - or well from what I see. You never know what goes on behind closed doors), but I know that if I try it's too risky.
My head was swimming today! I made sure to spend the majority of my day with my mother who has no clue that I ever drank, so I couldn't even go down the alcohol aisle of the grocery store, let alone buy anything. I also only took a wallet with me so that I couldn't hide alcohol in a bag or anything. Once I get past about 6 or 7pm, there's no way to go out of the house and get anything without looking suspicious, so I know for sure that I'm locked in for the night, alcohol wise. I literally was counting the minutes until 6pm today so that I couldn't break my sobriety promise to myself.
Ugh! What's going on in my brain???
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Day 14
I haven't posted here much, but I read all of your comments and I feel for everyone who has the same struggles as I do.
I'm on day 14, but the last few days have probably been the worst since I stopped. Oddly though, even though every day during this time I tell myself it's over, I'm going to drink today, I don't. I'm so scared of going back to the anxiety, the shame, the remorse.
However, not sure how long that will continue, but so far the one day at a time approach, I guess, is working.
My anxiety, which initially got much better, was through the roof the last 2 days. I had a panic attack yesterday. Not good, and not sure why it's coming back with such a vengeance.
Any help explaining would be appreciated.
I'm on day 14, but the last few days have probably been the worst since I stopped. Oddly though, even though every day during this time I tell myself it's over, I'm going to drink today, I don't. I'm so scared of going back to the anxiety, the shame, the remorse.
However, not sure how long that will continue, but so far the one day at a time approach, I guess, is working.
My anxiety, which initially got much better, was through the roof the last 2 days. I had a panic attack yesterday. Not good, and not sure why it's coming back with such a vengeance.
Any help explaining would be appreciated.
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I think if you've drunk for a while, dealing with life sober is always doing to cause some initial anxiety - but if I knew exactly why anxiety comes and goes, I'd make a million
Have you thought about seeing a Dr or even just finding more support for your recovery?
One day at a time doesn't really mean we have to grit our teeth and drag ourselves through each day.
Maybe some more support might help lighten your load?
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Have you thought about seeing a Dr or even just finding more support for your recovery?
One day at a time doesn't really mean we have to grit our teeth and drag ourselves through each day.
Maybe some more support might help lighten your load?
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Ok so yesterday was booze free so that makes today day 5 for me....yesterday was very tough and i wanted a drink so bad i really dont know how i made it through the day...Today will also be very hard as today is pay day and i always slip up on this day,lets just hope today i dont.....Thanks guys...
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Originally Posted by stevie88
Ok so yesterday was booze free so that makes today day 5 for me....yesterday was very tough and i wanted a drink so bad i really dont know how i made it through the day...Today will also be very hard as today is pay day and i always slip up on this day,lets just hope today i dont.....Thanks guys...
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Day 16 nearly over. Had dinner with ABFs parents last night and they all got pretty wasted. It wasn't even tempting to have a drink and join them. I was up bright and early while ABF slept off his hangover all day. Sigh.
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Way to go Tiger!
I don't know why it happened but despite everything I have written here and how much I want to stop drinking I was so sorely tempted last night. Hot evening, thirsty... wifey says:
"Do you want anything from the shop love?"
Taking time to reflect on the pros and cons helps a lot.
Pros for not drinking:
A: My skin is clearing up. (I have psoriasis and it's clearing).
B: My face is not so blotchy with angry red veins.
C: I notice the weight is dropping off.
D: I'm starting to take an interest in the kids.
E: I'm much more organised. Even manicuring my nails.
F: Starting to think about getting new clothes and looking smarter.
G: Started setting some new life goals.
H: Blood pressure is returning to normal.
I: Bank account is off life support.
J: Started sleeping better.
K: Getting up earlier.
L: Every morning waking up sober is a joy thinking of what the alternative would be.
M: Ironed a T-shirt for the first time in years to bike to work.
Pros for drinking:
A: Can get out of my mind and do ridiculously stooopid things.
B: Hmmm... can't think of anything else?
"Umm no I don't want anything thanks".
Actually LOOKING FORWARD to the weekend so I can go and do things!
I don't know why it happened but despite everything I have written here and how much I want to stop drinking I was so sorely tempted last night. Hot evening, thirsty... wifey says:
"Do you want anything from the shop love?"
Taking time to reflect on the pros and cons helps a lot.
Pros for not drinking:
A: My skin is clearing up. (I have psoriasis and it's clearing).
B: My face is not so blotchy with angry red veins.
C: I notice the weight is dropping off.
D: I'm starting to take an interest in the kids.
E: I'm much more organised. Even manicuring my nails.
F: Starting to think about getting new clothes and looking smarter.
G: Started setting some new life goals.
H: Blood pressure is returning to normal.
I: Bank account is off life support.
J: Started sleeping better.
K: Getting up earlier.
L: Every morning waking up sober is a joy thinking of what the alternative would be.
M: Ironed a T-shirt for the first time in years to bike to work.
Pros for drinking:
A: Can get out of my mind and do ridiculously stooopid things.
B: Hmmm... can't think of anything else?
"Umm no I don't want anything thanks".
Actually LOOKING FORWARD to the weekend so I can go and do things!
Last edited by kopfan; 09-30-2011 at 04:16 AM. Reason: Tshirt thing
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kopfan: terrific job my friend! I am so lucky that my husband has decided to stop drinking too. We used to just set each other up to fail (we would say we were going to "take a break" from drinking...usually because we were hungover and feeling lousy...and then one of us would just come home with drinks.). Now I feel like we are both so glad not to be drinking, and neither of us wants to be the jerk who ruins it for the other. I am not sure what changed, but an grateful nonetheless.
I have a question for you all. I have been thinking about why I drank. I have alcoholism on both sides of the family so there is that. But I never picked up a drink with the intention of getting drunk. That isn't to say that I wasn't aware that I likely would get drunk. Rather, I don't believe I ever drank as an escape, or to drown my problems. I drank because beer tasted good, and one or two beers in the evening on the back porch or out with friends was nice. But then after two beers I couldn't stop. So my question is, am I deluding myself? Is it possible to be an alcoholic but not have other emotional baggage? I feel like the depression and anxiety I experience are the result not the cause of my drinking.
Have great days everyone....looking forward to a beautiful, sober, fall weekend!
I have a question for you all. I have been thinking about why I drank. I have alcoholism on both sides of the family so there is that. But I never picked up a drink with the intention of getting drunk. That isn't to say that I wasn't aware that I likely would get drunk. Rather, I don't believe I ever drank as an escape, or to drown my problems. I drank because beer tasted good, and one or two beers in the evening on the back porch or out with friends was nice. But then after two beers I couldn't stop. So my question is, am I deluding myself? Is it possible to be an alcoholic but not have other emotional baggage? I feel like the depression and anxiety I experience are the result not the cause of my drinking.
Have great days everyone....looking forward to a beautiful, sober, fall weekend!
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Originally Posted by juststopit
we would say we were going to "take a break" from drinking...usually because we were hungover and feeling lousy...and then one of us would just come home with drinks.
Wifey is going to collect a prescription for champix tonight which she used last year to give up smoking.
A side effect was that she also stopped wanting to drink so hopefully my chances of recovery will be much greater if she stops as well.
Have a great weekend everyone and Stevie - Lay off that beer this weekend
Have a good time everyone.
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