Living in Sobriety Pt 22
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Join Date: Apr 2008
Location: massachusetts
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PR...I'm so sorry.....
Louis...from where I sit, you are doing all the right things....being honest with yourself and others, contacting, listening and speaking with others in the same boat, being realistic about what you are dealing with...but most importantly...you are genuinely trying to the best of your ability. I think the last is a not so subtle biggy. Because fear rules us so, sometimes I think I am trying my best, but on closer inspection, I can see myself making excuses (fear or not willing to give up control) as to why I won't do this or that. But you are really examining your motives, and not deceiving yourself (which is very easy to do, in my book).
All this is a long way of saying that it is a pleasure to watch you grow in sobriety. You and I are alike, I think. Your words always resonate with something inside of me. No need to ever apologize for talking about how you are feeling. What you say, helps me, even if you don't realize it. Back, again, to a we program....
Louis...from where I sit, you are doing all the right things....being honest with yourself and others, contacting, listening and speaking with others in the same boat, being realistic about what you are dealing with...but most importantly...you are genuinely trying to the best of your ability. I think the last is a not so subtle biggy. Because fear rules us so, sometimes I think I am trying my best, but on closer inspection, I can see myself making excuses (fear or not willing to give up control) as to why I won't do this or that. But you are really examining your motives, and not deceiving yourself (which is very easy to do, in my book).
All this is a long way of saying that it is a pleasure to watch you grow in sobriety. You and I are alike, I think. Your words always resonate with something inside of me. No need to ever apologize for talking about how you are feeling. What you say, helps me, even if you don't realize it. Back, again, to a we program....
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Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: Portland, Oregon
Posts: 711
Good morning and Monday everyone!
I am sitting at the car shop once again, but this time it was planned. I should be done here by lunch and then I have the rest of the day off. I am trying to burn all my vacation days before the end of the year.
I think I am going to go to the 'Fresh Market' after this and get something to make a nice dinner tonight. Fresh Market is kind of like Whole Foods here.
I am sitting at the car shop once again, but this time it was planned. I should be done here by lunch and then I have the rest of the day off. I am trying to burn all my vacation days before the end of the year.
I think I am going to go to the 'Fresh Market' after this and get something to make a nice dinner tonight. Fresh Market is kind of like Whole Foods here.
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Join Date: Mar 2009
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my head knows its on a losing battle so is trying anything to get inside me to mess me up some more... i think in the hope i will use...
I am not going to let it... i need to keep myself safe.. and i do that by coming here and spouting all this cr*p thats in my head... sorry you guys have to put up with itMy head/disease definately dont want me to do this step 4/5... the power will be gone from it when i do.
I am not going to let it... i need to keep myself safe.. and i do that by coming here and spouting all this cr*p thats in my head... sorry you guys have to put up with itMy head/disease definately dont want me to do this step 4/5... the power will be gone from it when i do.
we CAN do ANYTHING we put our minds too.
And your sharing all this here, that's awesome Louis, because when you get through something that's hard, it gives others hope that they too can get through it. That's what has been a saving grace for me in sobriety, seeing that others get through the things that are troubling, and they don't pick up, so I believe I can do the same thing. And so on it goes, one alcoholic helping another.
And your disease and your secrets will have NO POWER over you after you do your 5th Step. Good Ridiance I say!!!
Louis I know I keep saying it, but I really am so damn proud of you. You have grown so much in the past month, you are showing me and everyone else that this program works IF YOU WORK IT. Bravo my friend.
Living in sobriety
Join Date: Feb 2009
Posts: 3,870
k Im so sorry your heart is a little broken today. Life can be very REAL at times.
I hope you can be gentle with yourself and take it easy today. Feel those feelings.
Louis its a pleasure to listen to you share your feeling with us and grow in your recovery. This is the stuff that keeps me coming back. The stuff I an relate too. The stuff that makes me closer to you. The stuff that reminds me I am not alone on my journey. remember together we can do what I could not..... xxoxoxox
I hope you can be gentle with yourself and take it easy today. Feel those feelings.
Louis its a pleasure to listen to you share your feeling with us and grow in your recovery. This is the stuff that keeps me coming back. The stuff I an relate too. The stuff that makes me closer to you. The stuff that reminds me I am not alone on my journey. remember together we can do what I could not..... xxoxoxox
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Join Date: Mar 2009
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In work but bored right now. Thinking I have so much to do at home and nothing to do here but at least I'm getting a paycheck. I ordered a bouquet of flowers from my sponsors parents Flowershop for my daughter, they do beautiful arrangements.
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Join Date: Apr 2008
Location: massachusetts
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You know, I was thinking of all of us the other day and started to match up different people with what they, as individuals, are going through. And there's some MAJOR SHYTE for some of us. And how amazing that everyone is facing, what I think, are issues pretty high up the Richter scale...sober. Wow. I do not (thank God) have anything remotely minor even, going on. Each and every one of you is an inspiration for me.
OK..I'm glued back together. I can't tell you how funny I felt, walking into the dentist, with my tooth in a little baggie, saying "Could you please glue this back on? The Gary Larsen in me was imaging all sorts of funny scenarios....the pirate hopping in, carrying his peg, saying "my foot fell off, have any glue?"....that sort of stuff.
And then I went to the market to load up on water for the project. Call me Gunga Din!
OK..I'm glued back together. I can't tell you how funny I felt, walking into the dentist, with my tooth in a little baggie, saying "Could you please glue this back on? The Gary Larsen in me was imaging all sorts of funny scenarios....the pirate hopping in, carrying his peg, saying "my foot fell off, have any glue?"....that sort of stuff.
And then I went to the market to load up on water for the project. Call me Gunga Din!
...that gummy look is not good!!!!....... 
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Join Date: Jun 2007
Location: Texas
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Originally Posted by Rowan 
Has anyone considered going to the next World Conference? It's in July in Texas! I would love to go!
Yes Yes Yes!!!! I'm going Rolo! Let's meet up there!!! :bounce:
BTW.....I'm home and had a great time on the cruise.
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Here's me. but when drinking could be found in doorways!
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All of LIS
Thankyou for helping me along my journey... definately a WE journey....
Its a pleasure to take this journey with you... i couldnt do it alone...
Thankyou for helping me along my journey... definately a WE journey....
Its a pleasure to take this journey with you... i couldnt do it alone...
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HOS:
I remember one christmas mornin.. i was visiting my mum and had stayed the night before... anyway i woke with the cap off my tooth in my mouth... thankfully i hadnt swollowed it...
My mum didnt know what to do so we got some chewing gum... stuck my tooth back in with that until i could get to the dentist...
Christmas dinner was ate very warily
Glad you got it sorted though and dont look like Nelco's pic!!!!!
I remember one christmas mornin.. i was visiting my mum and had stayed the night before... anyway i woke with the cap off my tooth in my mouth... thankfully i hadnt swollowed it...
My mum didnt know what to do so we got some chewing gum... stuck my tooth back in with that until i could get to the dentist...
Christmas dinner was ate very warily
Glad you got it sorted though and dont look like Nelco's pic!!!!!
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