August Sobriety Group Pt 5
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I am rethinking my whole moderation "plan." (although it wasn't much of a plan really) Not only am I rethinking it, I am tossing it out the window. I always said to myself that if I screw up even once, it's not working. Last night I drank more wine than I had planned to. Nothing disasterous came of it, but I did not feel well throughout the night, got bad sleep, and now have a headache. So that is it.
I actually just emptied what was left in the bottle, put it out in the recycling bin along with a couple of other empties I had hidden in my closet (from the last time I was drunk, 9/25 when I hit my head on the floor). It's all gone. Out of my life!!!
My plan is to go to an AA meeting today and try to get some more sleep. There's not much going on at work right now, so I can stay home today. I'll let you know how it goes (the meeting). This will be only the second AA meeting of my life.
So maybe I will have a sobriety date after all. Maybe it's today
I hope so.
Have a nice day everyone ....and for all of you who have 60 or so days.... help me do this!!! I want to be where you are
Laura
I actually just emptied what was left in the bottle, put it out in the recycling bin along with a couple of other empties I had hidden in my closet (from the last time I was drunk, 9/25 when I hit my head on the floor). It's all gone. Out of my life!!!
My plan is to go to an AA meeting today and try to get some more sleep. There's not much going on at work right now, so I can stay home today. I'll let you know how it goes (the meeting). This will be only the second AA meeting of my life.
So maybe I will have a sobriety date after all. Maybe it's today
I hope so.Have a nice day everyone ....and for all of you who have 60 or so days.... help me do this!!! I want to be where you are
Laura
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Good luck with your meeting Laura! For sure, let us know how it goes! Also, today is the day for the big date right? I hope it is a good one.
Have a great day to everyone, and keep posting. It is another great day to be alive! Last night I got into a good political debate on facebook. Man, people get heated about politics! haha. Anyways, it was a good way to pass the time.
Hugs, Brent
Have a great day to everyone, and keep posting. It is another great day to be alive! Last night I got into a good political debate on facebook. Man, people get heated about politics! haha. Anyways, it was a good way to pass the time.
Hugs, Brent
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Heck, I never even started with a moderation plan--and yeah, where y'all minds went is where I done went--I'm not that different than y'all.
Sorry for those select few I still can shock. For the rest of y'all, I'll post again when I'm right...
As always though, take care.
-TB
Sorry for those select few I still can shock. For the rest of y'all, I'll post again when I'm right...
As always though, take care.
-TB
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PC- probably nobody on this thread. I go up and down, right and wrong, and that's what I do... I'm not a reliable specimen, tehee.
Sooooo, TJ, do tell... how'd it go?
Brent, you guessed right. And, since I think you're about a year off from me, which somehow matters in school (my friends in real life--ie, through work or a common past--tend to be of different generations) how do you have a conversation in facebook? I got an account, I don't understand it really. Probably doesn't help my isolation from people here. I get invites, including from a girl I know who wants me to be a farmer. ??? I'm a farmer's daughter... She's a city girl from the Philipines... huh? Am I looking at this too logically? I decided a few months back to just accept everybody into MySpace and see where it goes... it's actually kinda amusing. But my facebook is my real name/real photo... don't wanna degrade myself like that myspace account. Again, am I thinking about this too seriously for late 20s? Don't know how to act my age really... such a shame.
It's wet and miserable, I got accidentally locked out of my house into the desert rainstorm (if you're not from the desert, understand rain comes once a year or so... flash flooding is how it lands--all at once basically). 3 hours. I was miserable, and I guess coming down... solved that one though. The rain's still outside, my pajama legs are still wet from the knees down, ain't no getting warm today.
Take care y'all,
-TB, still from August and still with more smileys on her calendar than letters...
Sooooo, TJ, do tell... how'd it go?
Brent, you guessed right. And, since I think you're about a year off from me, which somehow matters in school (my friends in real life--ie, through work or a common past--tend to be of different generations) how do you have a conversation in facebook? I got an account, I don't understand it really. Probably doesn't help my isolation from people here. I get invites, including from a girl I know who wants me to be a farmer. ??? I'm a farmer's daughter... She's a city girl from the Philipines... huh? Am I looking at this too logically? I decided a few months back to just accept everybody into MySpace and see where it goes... it's actually kinda amusing. But my facebook is my real name/real photo... don't wanna degrade myself like that myspace account. Again, am I thinking about this too seriously for late 20s? Don't know how to act my age really... such a shame.
It's wet and miserable, I got accidentally locked out of my house into the desert rainstorm (if you're not from the desert, understand rain comes once a year or so... flash flooding is how it lands--all at once basically). 3 hours. I was miserable, and I guess coming down... solved that one though. The rain's still outside, my pajama legs are still wet from the knees down, ain't no getting warm today.
Take care y'all,
-TB, still from August and still with more smileys on her calendar than letters...
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Report on my AA Meeting
So I went to a noon meeting today, figuring that is when "respectable" people who work would probably go to one (what was I afraid of? Skid row bums?)
It was REALLY good. I don't know what else to say. To see that whole room filled with "respectable looking" people -- all ages, men, women, nationalities, races, etc. ALL OF THEM ALCOHOLICS, just like me.
I just introduced myself as a new person but did not share any of my story. Wanted to see how these things work first. Many people shared things, so it was interesting. I enjoyed it and at the end they did this prayer thing where everyone holds hands and says some prayers. Now I'm not too into praying, but I went along with it because it was fine and, besides, I'm used to "touchy feely" stuff from my yoga classes. To be honest, I actually did pray to God last night to relieve me from this burden of drinking. That was while my head was pounding, I was nauseated, and could not sleep.
So one of the interesting things at the meeting was that the speaker (or leader) said, "You are not here today by accident. There is a reason for it." I know that meant different things to different people there, but perhaps more for me because it was my first AA meeting (not counting the one I went to back in....??? last fall???) and I very nearly did not go today. I got showered, dressed, made the drive there, found parking, etc. and I made it -- for a reason.
At the end three very nice women introduced themselves to me and welcomed me. Two of them gave me their phone numbers, hugged me, etc. and said they were so glad I came to the meeting today. One said she is going to call me to make sure I keep going to meetings and that I can and should call either of them if I feel tempted to drink.
So that is my report. I will have the date report later. I have already decided I am ordering cranberry juice on the rocks and if he asks why.... I'll say I'm not drinking these days...
Brent, funny about the Facebook stuff. Yeah, I'm on there way too much and we do get into heated political debates! I'm trying to stay away from them from now on. It's not good for my blood pressure
Later, all!
TB --- are you okay?
It was REALLY good. I don't know what else to say. To see that whole room filled with "respectable looking" people -- all ages, men, women, nationalities, races, etc. ALL OF THEM ALCOHOLICS, just like me.
I just introduced myself as a new person but did not share any of my story. Wanted to see how these things work first. Many people shared things, so it was interesting. I enjoyed it and at the end they did this prayer thing where everyone holds hands and says some prayers. Now I'm not too into praying, but I went along with it because it was fine and, besides, I'm used to "touchy feely" stuff from my yoga classes. To be honest, I actually did pray to God last night to relieve me from this burden of drinking. That was while my head was pounding, I was nauseated, and could not sleep.
So one of the interesting things at the meeting was that the speaker (or leader) said, "You are not here today by accident. There is a reason for it." I know that meant different things to different people there, but perhaps more for me because it was my first AA meeting (not counting the one I went to back in....??? last fall???) and I very nearly did not go today. I got showered, dressed, made the drive there, found parking, etc. and I made it -- for a reason.
At the end three very nice women introduced themselves to me and welcomed me. Two of them gave me their phone numbers, hugged me, etc. and said they were so glad I came to the meeting today. One said she is going to call me to make sure I keep going to meetings and that I can and should call either of them if I feel tempted to drink.
So that is my report. I will have the date report later. I have already decided I am ordering cranberry juice on the rocks and if he asks why.... I'll say I'm not drinking these days...
Brent, funny about the Facebook stuff. Yeah, I'm on there way too much and we do get into heated political debates! I'm trying to stay away from them from now on. It's not good for my blood pressure
Later, all!
TB --- are you okay?
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So just wrote an e-mail to my date tonight about meeting (where and when, etc.) and I casually mentioned that I won't be drinking alcohol (that I have stopped "for a while" and that I feel healthier without it, but that it's totally fine if he has something alcoholic. I probably didn't even need to do that, but just wanted to get it out in the open ahead of time...
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Maybe I'm totally "out of it" (wouldn't be surprised) but it seems to me like that was an extra step...
Most of the guys I meet (and yes, I'm 29, but I pass for 16) want to know if I smoke weed, then they leave my little world. Seems to me you shouldn't have to explain not drinking as much as I don't explain not smoking marijuana (truth is, I'm allergic lol). I tell people I don't drink, nobody seems to have a problem with it (or maybe that's why I have no friends), even though here on SR that's more of a known hit or miss fact...
Funny, I'm a farmer's daughter but naive by no means... has the world progressed to the point where an urchin is actually forced to think...?
Gotta go check on my pride & joy... be back y'all.
Still thinking... and aimin' for a month solid of smiley faces...
-TB, drinking 'cause there's no instruction book for handling 5,000 people without alcohol...why not actually...
Most of the guys I meet (and yes, I'm 29, but I pass for 16) want to know if I smoke weed, then they leave my little world. Seems to me you shouldn't have to explain not drinking as much as I don't explain not smoking marijuana (truth is, I'm allergic lol). I tell people I don't drink, nobody seems to have a problem with it (or maybe that's why I have no friends), even though here on SR that's more of a known hit or miss fact...
Funny, I'm a farmer's daughter but naive by no means... has the world progressed to the point where an urchin is actually forced to think...?
Gotta go check on my pride & joy... be back y'all.
Still thinking... and aimin' for a month solid of smiley faces...
-TB, drinking 'cause there's no instruction book for handling 5,000 people without alcohol...why not actually...
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Originally Posted by thirtybubba 
Brent, you guessed right. And, since I think you're about a year off from me, which somehow matters in school (my friends in real life--ie, through work or a common past--tend to be of different generations) how do you have a conversation in facebook? I got an account, I don't understand it really. Probably doesn't help my isolation from people here. I get invites, including from a girl I know who wants me to be a farmer. ??? I'm a farmer's daughter... She's a city girl from the Philipines... huh? Am I looking at this too logically? I decided a few months back to just accept everybody into MySpace and see where it goes... it's actually kinda amusing. But my facebook is my real name/real photo... don't wanna degrade myself like that myspace account. Again, am I thinking about this too seriously for late 20s? Don't know how to act my age really... such a shame.
Conversations can be done privately (like our pm's) or on each other's wall where everyone who is a friend can see them. Or you can do a chat.
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I know it seems silly that you have to explain "not drinking" but at my age (45) and in my social circles, it's very common to drink alcohol socially and not so common to go out for a soda, etc. There's just always that awkward moment when the waiter says, "Can I get you a glass of Chardonnay? Or a pomegranat martini perhaps? " and you say, "Oh, club soda for me." And then your date or friend feels awkward like, "Why isn't she getting a drink? Should I get an alcoholic drink?" So I was trying to avoid that ahead of time.
Anyway.... I will let you all know how it goes!
Anyway.... I will let you all know how it goes!
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Day 3, sober and exhausted. Not sleeping well and it's catching up with me. Spent the day sleepwalking at work.
TJ, good luck with the new plan! It's great that you found the meeting helpful!
TB, good job on the smiley faces!
I never got into Facebook. I have over 100 "friends" there and I do check in once in a while but only to read about what people have been up to. Don't even have my real picture there, just a funny animal picture.
TJ, good luck with the new plan! It's great that you found the meeting helpful!
TB, good job on the smiley faces!
I never got into Facebook. I have over 100 "friends" there and I do check in once in a while but only to read about what people have been up to. Don't even have my real picture there, just a funny animal picture.
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Hello (((Everyone)))! :)
traderjane...I think it's great that you attended the meeting! Even better that you were able to be in a group that you felt comfortable in! :) WOW! What an experience you are going through. I totally agree that it was no accident. It's quite amazing that you prayed to God last evening and wound up at an AA meeting today :) You sound very strong and determined! Well, you ARE both of those things and if you set your mind to this, I know you can and WILL! :)
sphalerite... I am SO HAPPY for you and your husband...It's SO AWESOME that you are taking this journey TOGETHER. Totally awesome. Congrats on your first of many wonderful, healthy trips to your beloved cabin :)
I have missed connecting with you all on a daily basis. The first thing I noticed when I visited tonight is that ANEW has not checked in. (((ANEW)))...As I stated in my PM to you, this thread is not the same without your cheerful, uplifting avatar...it suits you perfectly! :)
I have been doing wonderfully! :) Being away from the computer is really hard because it's my main source of connection, but it's been unbelievably productive. I am a much better wife, mother, and individual when I am not on the computer all day long. It's really hard for me to regulate myself. I was in a habit of getting up in the morning, grabbing a cup of coffee and sitting in front of the computer for the first few hours of the day. It was not a good start for me. I had a hard time breaking myself away and then I felt defeated because the morning had gotten away from me! :O Honestly, my computer addiction has been more harmful than anything else in my life. In a lot of ways, it has kept me from LIVING my life. I envy those of you who can find balance :)
As for the addiction that brought me here...I am no longer drinking on a daily or even weekly basis. I am still working on the desire to say NO when I am in social situations. I will get there :) For now, I am in a very good place. Life is good.
If anyone wants to know *my* secret to staying away from alcohol, it is to immerse yourself (completely) in more important things ;) I know some of you beautiful people find yourself in a place in your life where you don't know what that is and my advice to you would be to immerse yourself in finding out what it is...and then GO FOR IT :)
Sending lots of love and hugs to all of you,
traderjane...I think it's great that you attended the meeting! Even better that you were able to be in a group that you felt comfortable in! :) WOW! What an experience you are going through. I totally agree that it was no accident. It's quite amazing that you prayed to God last evening and wound up at an AA meeting today :) You sound very strong and determined! Well, you ARE both of those things and if you set your mind to this, I know you can and WILL! :)
sphalerite... I am SO HAPPY for you and your husband...It's SO AWESOME that you are taking this journey TOGETHER. Totally awesome. Congrats on your first of many wonderful, healthy trips to your beloved cabin :)
I have missed connecting with you all on a daily basis. The first thing I noticed when I visited tonight is that ANEW has not checked in. (((ANEW)))...As I stated in my PM to you, this thread is not the same without your cheerful, uplifting avatar...it suits you perfectly! :)
I have been doing wonderfully! :) Being away from the computer is really hard because it's my main source of connection, but it's been unbelievably productive. I am a much better wife, mother, and individual when I am not on the computer all day long. It's really hard for me to regulate myself. I was in a habit of getting up in the morning, grabbing a cup of coffee and sitting in front of the computer for the first few hours of the day. It was not a good start for me. I had a hard time breaking myself away and then I felt defeated because the morning had gotten away from me! :O Honestly, my computer addiction has been more harmful than anything else in my life. In a lot of ways, it has kept me from LIVING my life. I envy those of you who can find balance :)
As for the addiction that brought me here...I am no longer drinking on a daily or even weekly basis. I am still working on the desire to say NO when I am in social situations. I will get there :) For now, I am in a very good place. Life is good.
If anyone wants to know *my* secret to staying away from alcohol, it is to immerse yourself (completely) in more important things ;) I know some of you beautiful people find yourself in a place in your life where you don't know what that is and my advice to you would be to immerse yourself in finding out what it is...and then GO FOR IT :)
Sending lots of love and hugs to all of you,
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ANEW! Welcome back from vacation! I hope you had a fabulous time! :) I guess you WERE too busy enjoying life to check in ;) SO GOOD to see you! :) Isn't that amazing that we posted at the same time! Talk about a connection! :)
I have to say...you are all inspiring me to check out an AA meeting...even though I have broken the daily/weekly drinking addiction, I still have unfinished business. I must deal with the infrequent social aspects...there is no such thing as "just one" in my alcoholic brain :( Ugh.
Okay, well...it's time for me to sign off :) So good to see everyone!
Love and hugs,
I have to say...you are all inspiring me to check out an AA meeting...even though I have broken the daily/weekly drinking addiction, I still have unfinished business. I must deal with the infrequent social aspects...there is no such thing as "just one" in my alcoholic brain :( Ugh.
Okay, well...it's time for me to sign off :) So good to see everyone!
Love and hugs,
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OK, not having much luck trying to upload pics. It says there is an error. If anyone can tell me how to do that to the thread, I would appreciate it. Just send me a PM so we don't cutter up the board. Thanks everyone! Hugs!
Brent
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Hey Brent!
See? I am bad. Didn't I say I was leaving like a half hour ago? I've been trying to catch up on e-mail and online business before I have to head home! LOL I know you said PM, but I'd like to post to the board because I want to make sure I understand correctly...There is an icon in the REPLY box that looks like a postcard. It is yellow and looks like a mountain/peak with a stamp in the upper right hand corner. I believe this is how you insert an image or a picture. From looking at the pop-up, it almost appears that you need to use an online picture support program like Shutterfly or Google Picasa, which would lead me believe that you cannot upload pictures directly from your computer into a post...This confuses me because I know you can upload a picture from your computer for an avatar...hmmm....Hopefully I am wrong and someone else knows the trick! :)
See? I am bad. Didn't I say I was leaving like a half hour ago? I've been trying to catch up on e-mail and online business before I have to head home! LOL I know you said PM, but I'd like to post to the board because I want to make sure I understand correctly...There is an icon in the REPLY box that looks like a postcard. It is yellow and looks like a mountain/peak with a stamp in the upper right hand corner. I believe this is how you insert an image or a picture. From looking at the pop-up, it almost appears that you need to use an online picture support program like Shutterfly or Google Picasa, which would lead me believe that you cannot upload pictures directly from your computer into a post...This confuses me because I know you can upload a picture from your computer for an avatar...hmmm....Hopefully I am wrong and someone else knows the trick! :)
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