One Year and Under Club Part 2
Miracles Happen
Join Date: Mar 2009
Posts: 9,977
My husband (we are separated) came over today and told me we should put the house up for sale. That I should start looking for something else. He said he can't afford to keep it any longer. Deep down I know I would like to sell it and find something smaller and farther away. I am really scared to do this right now though. To have to sell and buy all in the same time with the same money is very frightening to me, I become overwhelmed. I need to get a divorce from him but have no money for the lawyer. There is just so much going on, I am just gonna breathe right now and turn it all over. I know I am suppose to do the footwork but I'm just not sure what it is right now. I guess what I really need to do is pray on it. Anyway, thanks for letting me vent.
Member
Join Date: May 2008
Location: NY
Posts: 6,608
(((Believe))) You are in a hard spot sober or not, but definitely better handled by a sober person. I am so sorry. I'm a list person. I make lists when overwhelmed. If you break things down "sometimes" it can help. Wish I could be better help, but glad you vented.
Member
Join Date: Jul 2008
Location: Massachusetts
Posts: 729
HI!!!!!!!! It has been so long since I have been on here! Good news I have remained sober and still have my same date but I missed everyone... It is good to see that you are all still here!!! I did not read through all the posts as it would take me a lifetime and I will try to be better.
Update on me.
I have worked the 12 steps and can now Sponsor so I will be out looking for Sponsees.
I have 3 homegroups which I love with lots of friends (surprise about that)
I am still addicted to facebook
I am on a softball league which I have never played our first game is today
I am going to ICYPAA which is a huge conference
And many more things. I did not think my life could be so amazing. It is still a struggle but I do not have the desire to drink today and that is a blessing.. So I need to remember to come back here more often to the people who give me experience strength and hope
And there are many anniversaries coming up this month and next
Update on me.
I have worked the 12 steps and can now Sponsor so I will be out looking for Sponsees.
I have 3 homegroups which I love with lots of friends (surprise about that)
I am still addicted to facebook
I am on a softball league which I have never played our first game is today
I am going to ICYPAA which is a huge conference
And many more things. I did not think my life could be so amazing. It is still a struggle but I do not have the desire to drink today and that is a blessing.. So I need to remember to come back here more often to the people who give me experience strength and hope
And there are many anniversaries coming up this month and next
Sober 6/5/2008
Join Date: Jun 2008
Location: Point Vermin, Peedro, CA
Posts: 150
11 & 9 months alcohol- and nicotine-free
Am walking and hiking around 40 miles each week. Gardening, camping and taking pictures. It's amazing the kind of attention span I can muster when I'm not drunk have the day and hung over the other half.
To Thine Own Self Be True
Join Date: Jun 2008
Location: So Cal
Posts: 1,946
Hi guys.
I just had to say this, somewhere. Tomorrow is my 1 year sobriety bday. So, one year ago today I hit bottom. And it was an ugly bottom.
I am feeling exceptionally squirrely today.
I am irritable and discontent. I am sad, emotional, guilt ridden, etc.
What the heck is WRONG with me today????????
I just had to say this, somewhere. Tomorrow is my 1 year sobriety bday. So, one year ago today I hit bottom. And it was an ugly bottom.
I am feeling exceptionally squirrely today.
I am irritable and discontent. I am sad, emotional, guilt ridden, etc.
What the heck is WRONG with me today????????
Member
Join Date: May 2008
Location: NY
Posts: 6,608
Hey TT - Congratulations again and I did a bit of quick research. I know Fizzy doesn't believe in P.A.W.S., but I sure do. This might be totally applicable to you and your situation and something for me to keep my head up about.
"The symptoms of PAW typically grow to peak intensity over three to six months after abstinence begins. The damage is usually reversible, meaning the major symptoms go away in time if proper treatment is received. So there is no need to fear. With proper treatment and effective sober living, it is possible to learn to live normally in spite of the impairments. But the adjustment does not occur rapidly. Recovery from the nervous system damage usually required from six to 24 months with the assistance of a healthy recovery program. Recent research is showing that for some recovering people the symptoms of PAW often occur at regular "moon cycle" intervals and without apparent outside stressors. Often those 30, 60, 90, 120, 180, and 1 & 2-year sobriety dates seem to be "triggering" times for PAW symptoms to increase. People recovering from long term opiate and stimulant use often have PAW symptoms for no apparent reason for up to 10 years after they have stopped using their drug of choice. Often PAW symptoms appear to come and go without apparent reason and without any specific pattern. Individuals who intend to have consistent long-term recovery must learn to recognize these symptoms and learn how to manage them."
Here's the symptoms -
TYPES OF PAW SYMPTOMS
1. Inability to think clearly
2. Memory problems
3. Emotional overreactions or numbness
4. Sleep disturbances
5. Physical coordination problems
6. Stress sensitivity
Here's the link to the info I just posted PAWS part 1 - Research - Health Pages - MedHelp
Hope that helps and don't get too stressed about it. I believe knowledge is power.
"The symptoms of PAW typically grow to peak intensity over three to six months after abstinence begins. The damage is usually reversible, meaning the major symptoms go away in time if proper treatment is received. So there is no need to fear. With proper treatment and effective sober living, it is possible to learn to live normally in spite of the impairments. But the adjustment does not occur rapidly. Recovery from the nervous system damage usually required from six to 24 months with the assistance of a healthy recovery program. Recent research is showing that for some recovering people the symptoms of PAW often occur at regular "moon cycle" intervals and without apparent outside stressors. Often those 30, 60, 90, 120, 180, and 1 & 2-year sobriety dates seem to be "triggering" times for PAW symptoms to increase. People recovering from long term opiate and stimulant use often have PAW symptoms for no apparent reason for up to 10 years after they have stopped using their drug of choice. Often PAW symptoms appear to come and go without apparent reason and without any specific pattern. Individuals who intend to have consistent long-term recovery must learn to recognize these symptoms and learn how to manage them."
Here's the symptoms -
TYPES OF PAW SYMPTOMS
1. Inability to think clearly
2. Memory problems
3. Emotional overreactions or numbness
4. Sleep disturbances
5. Physical coordination problems
6. Stress sensitivity
Here's the link to the info I just posted PAWS part 1 - Research - Health Pages - MedHelp
Hope that helps and don't get too stressed about it. I believe knowledge is power.
Miracles Happen
Join Date: Mar 2009
Posts: 9,977
I know I got that PAWS just didn't know it was called that, so thanks Horselover.
TT, I think everyone gets antsy like you are feeling when coming up on any anniversaries. I have been around alot of friends celebrating lately and even last night a friend celebrating 20 years told me he was feeling like that. So just give yourself a break and just be proud of your accomplishment.
CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR 1 YEAR SOBRIETY, YOU WORKED HARD AND YOU EARNED IT!!!!!
TT, I think everyone gets antsy like you are feeling when coming up on any anniversaries. I have been around alot of friends celebrating lately and even last night a friend celebrating 20 years told me he was feeling like that. So just give yourself a break and just be proud of your accomplishment.
CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR 1 YEAR SOBRIETY, YOU WORKED HARD AND YOU EARNED IT!!!!!
Sober since 9th May 2008
Join Date: May 2008
Posts: 2,973
Day 364 - cool
As predicted I disagee with Horsie, but hey would be pretty boring if we all thought the same things.
For what its worth I reckon we all feel different at various times jus cos we do.
Its called emotions or something, not that I know cos I'm a bloke !!!!!
We drank for so long we forgot how to feel, life just can't be a good laugh all the time, although I like to try !!!
So the moon can do what it wants, ain't no PAW's or Hoofs or claws or whatever getting me.
I'm now on holiday for 17 days, yippee !!!!!!!
We go away on monday, its been raining here for days so hopefully that will stop.
Year ago today I really thought I didn't have many years left in this world and now .........................................
As predicted I disagee with Horsie, but hey would be pretty boring if we all thought the same things.
For what its worth I reckon we all feel different at various times jus cos we do.
Its called emotions or something, not that I know cos I'm a bloke !!!!!
We drank for so long we forgot how to feel, life just can't be a good laugh all the time, although I like to try !!!
So the moon can do what it wants, ain't no PAW's or Hoofs or claws or whatever getting me.
I'm now on holiday for 17 days, yippee !!!!!!!
We go away on monday, its been raining here for days so hopefully that will stop.
Year ago today I really thought I didn't have many years left in this world and now .........................................
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Join Date: Nov 2007
Posts: 26,425
Congradualations to both of you!!!! Yep the eve of our aniversery..the day we hit bottom...wow...it is pretty amazing and has some emotional impact on us I think.
I was somewhat squirly after my BD...cause i was soooooooo exited about having a year. A whole year!!!!!!
I tend to agree with Fizzy (especially on the first sentance) .... yes biggggg suprise, and not that anyone cares either (snirkle)
Sometimes it makes things easer to deal with if we feel we can put a label on them...so if it helps...great Bottom line for me is I go wack on a regular basis...now i just get through it sober (hugs) to all
I was somewhat squirly after my BD...cause i was soooooooo exited about having a year. A whole year!!!!!!
Its called emotions or something, not that I know cos I'm a bloke !!!!!
We drank for so long we forgot how to feel, life just can't be a good laugh all the time, although I like to try !!!
So the moon can do what it wants, ain't no PAW's or Hoofs or claws or whatever getting me.
We drank for so long we forgot how to feel, life just can't be a good laugh all the time, although I like to try !!!
So the moon can do what it wants, ain't no PAW's or Hoofs or claws or whatever getting me.
Sometimes it makes things easer to deal with if we feel we can put a label on them...so if it helps...great
Bottom line for me is I go wack on a regular basis...now i just get through it sober (hugs) to all
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