FizzyWater

Was a new job within a job, if that makes sense, still working for the same company.

Didn't want the move but like most things, not as bad as I feared.

Honu

I screwed up.

All my co-workers were going to Happy Hour, and I declined. Others went to the "Gay Bar", i.e. sex clubs, and, obviously, that wasn't the place for me. We were in Amsterdam.

So, I had no one to hang with. Some went on a 25 mile bike ride. The Netherlands are beautiful now. However, I am not fit enough to do that. So, I ended up alone.

I was alone. So, my mantra, is "alone=wine".

So I drank wine.

I am a loser, and I don't know how to get out of this.

Honu

itisatruth

Honu - YOU ARE NOT A LOSER.



:praying

kyeyezofblue

me too. but i am not for sure who i am or why i am. i feel like a blank slate waiting to be filled.i am 1 week out of rehab, i have been to one meeting , my doc , and now my therapist, but my life is still one big puzzle and my body is one big train wreck. but thru meeting and hopefully this page i will come out fighting and win against the beast that has destoryed my life. keep us all in your thoughts as we will do the same for you. i look at it i have already hit rock bottom now i am ready to go up for a while and repair the aftermath.

jsml1234

Strong work Phal!

FizzyWater

doing well Phaleron

NewDayNow

It's ok phal that 6 month mark looming thing only hurts a little bit. then there is that 9 month looming thing. Ouch

Honu- no problem. Yes you totally screwed up.

Your like me, we are one and the same,you and I. We are in this together. I am an alcoholic. You as well?

I know what you really meant when you said you were a loser. I remember thinking just the same, a mantra. I am almost 7 months sober but I do remember saying that. I remember the struggle, and the fear that came with saying that. I would Wake up in the morning,year after year and drag the razor across my chin and point out the obvious, Eye to eye just me and the mirror - I would just say it-I am a loser.

I am almost seven months sober. I am not struggling with it. I thought I was a loser. I was so wrong. Your not a loser my dear friend

I hope you see through to my heart in what I've just said

Ed

FizzyWater

Another week over at work, was just thinking on my way home tonight, this weekend will be my 50th sober weekend in a row.

Football seasons nearly over, just 2/3 weeks left, means I've nearly watched an entire season sober as well.

NewDayNow

Cool Fizz,

You now have the off season to work on those footie moves

NewDayNow

By the way,

I stopped smoking 5 days ago. Drug free now.

Believe808

Phal congratulations on your upcoming 6 mths.

Today is 7 months for me. Unbelieveable it does feel great to say it.

NewDayNow

That's great believe,

Bet it feels good as well

JustAYak

Way ta go Phal

Day 28 coming to a close for me.

TTOSBT

Fizzy,
I can not believe it has almost been a year, eh?
It is almost time for us to celebrate! Two weeks from today.
Phal, that is wonderful!

FizzyWater

Went Geocaching for the first time today.

Father in law has been doing it for a while and bought us a GPS, my wife and kids have been out a few times but today was the first time I'd been.

Really just another reason to go out for a walk but the kids enjoy looking for the treasure ( ok, I did as well ). Sorting out a wee bag of goodies to swap now.

If anyone fancies trying it, its certainly better than sitting home with a bottle, you'll get a GPS for about the same price as 2 bottles of spirits would have been plus your out in the fresh air and living.

Still amazes me how bored I always used to be, now I struggle to get everything done that I want to in a day.

Never seem to have as much time as I want to spend with the kids, come on-line, read my book, get out and about and active, guess its cos it is just boring if your sitting in the house half jakied all the time.

Believe808

Fizzy sounds like you had a blast! I never heard of geocaching. Is the GPS the same as like you use in a car?

Horselover

Hi all!! Sounds like everyone is doing well! Just wanted to check in.

Been looking at model homes. We're thinking of building a modular. We're going through the models and all I see in the kitchen are those places for wine bottles. You know the ones they put there for you to store the bottles horizontal like. I say to my husband, "Well you don't drink and I don't drink, I guess that option is something we won't pay for." It is odd because less then a year ago I would have found that pretty cool. Life changes and so do we I guess.

FizzyWater

Its a hand held one we have, about the size of a mobile phone but works the same as a satnav in the car, just it doesn't talk to you.

Bit like a compass, it points you in the right direction.

Basically, you pick a bit of the countryside to go to, maybe a hill, you put in the cordinates of the cache ( there are websites set up with them on it ) and off you go searching.

Most of the caches are waterproof tubs with small toys or coins in them, the idea is that you swap something of your own with something in the tub of equal value. There is a log book as well for you to log the date and time you visited and what you swapped.

I'm really new to it but looking at yesterdays cache, it has been going for 5 years and had hundreds of visiters.

There are coins you can buy with serial no's which hopefully people will take and log them on the internet. They seem to be all over the world so there is no limit to how far a coin could travel if logged properly.

It all started in America round about the same time that GPS systems took off.

Believe808

Sounds like alot of fun. Thanks for explaining.

TTOSBT

Happy Monday all!
I am feeling strong today.
I am on Step 9 and have started on my amends.
I made my amends to my husband this weekend.
This was hard and evoked a lot of old emotions but boy, do I feel better today!
Less than 2 weeks until a year of sobriety!!!!