Serious part 2
I can hear the snoring across the ocean!!
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Sorry you missed your class, Paul. Was it just fatigue that held you back? Or fear? Just wondering. You had been really looking forward to it, I thought.
Re slow circles .. I'm not sure what the heck I meant. I just wanted to dance with him. Slow. The circles? Who knows.
Take good care Stone et al talk to you all tomorrow.
Re slow circles .. I'm not sure what the heck I meant. I just wanted to dance with him. Slow. The circles? Who knows.
Take good care Stone et al talk to you all tomorrow.
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I dunno Paul. I rarely post here any more but this got me today.
I'm tired too - I got up at 5.30 today, walked to the bus, got to the train station, waited, standing room only, for 15 mins, got a train, caught another bus....then did it all in reverse coming home - 4 hours all up - all for one hour physio in the pool.
I hate it - but I do it because I know I need to.
I'm not trying to make myself out a hero here, and I'm not trying to put you down either - but I really believe any real kind of change needs work, Stoney - it sucks - but it should.
We have to change our lives and the way we think and react - and if that's easy, then we're not doing it right.
We need to be responsible to ourselves in a way we haven't been before. It all rests with us. We sink or swim according to what we do, or don't do
Sure it's just one class.
But all the plans in the world mean nothing if we don't follow through on them - in a recovery sense, all we're left with then is the 'same old same old' and the white knuckling...and that never lasts - we both know that.
I don't want to see you back there again.
I hope you make it next week - and to a few other things too.
D
I'm tired too - I got up at 5.30 today, walked to the bus, got to the train station, waited, standing room only, for 15 mins, got a train, caught another bus....then did it all in reverse coming home - 4 hours all up - all for one hour physio in the pool.
I hate it - but I do it because I know I need to.
I'm not trying to make myself out a hero here, and I'm not trying to put you down either - but I really believe any real kind of change needs work, Stoney - it sucks - but it should.
We have to change our lives and the way we think and react - and if that's easy, then we're not doing it right.
We need to be responsible to ourselves in a way we haven't been before. It all rests with us. We sink or swim according to what we do, or don't do
Sure it's just one class.
But all the plans in the world mean nothing if we don't follow through on them - in a recovery sense, all we're left with then is the 'same old same old' and the white knuckling...and that never lasts - we both know that.
I don't want to see you back there again.
I hope you make it next week - and to a few other things too.
D
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I am seriously happy that I'm seriously sober cause I had a heart-stopping moment last evening when I thought my internet connection had been cut off... and my connection to the world had been severed... My first thought was to drink away my frustration, but my next thought was "no, that won't help, will only make things worse" and I kept on going, stone-cold-sober!
I went to bed sober and woke up early this morning sober, only to find I had internet again. Don't know why I didn't have it last night, but happy to wake up sober this morning and find my internet had been reconnected. I'd have been seriously angry with myself if I'd caved in last night. But I didn't! And I have no reason to be mad or ashamed of myself. Sobriety rocks! And it's much better for my mental state too!
I went to bed sober and woke up early this morning sober, only to find I had internet again. Don't know why I didn't have it last night, but happy to wake up sober this morning and find my internet had been reconnected. I'd have been seriously angry with myself if I'd caved in last night. But I didn't! And I have no reason to be mad or ashamed of myself. Sobriety rocks! And it's much better for my mental state too!
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Ro, no fear just tired. I know that when I have not got out for so long a kind of inertia does come, so I do have to be careful...maybe a little of that did come into play.
Dee, it was just one class but I do take your point. I aint white knuckling either, I had a few cravings in the first 30 days but mostly I love being sober and rarely crave, it is just I have a track record of giving in to them. Yes, I need to change more, do more and like I said to Ro I am aware there is a certain amount of inertia going on that I have to overcome.
I have worked hard at changing myself and a lot of it is internal and can't be measured by whether I go somewhere or not...beating alcoholism is an inside job. But I do know that I need to fight harder and overcome the inertia when it comes to outside activities.
At 30+ days I think it is OK to be kind of gentle with oneself and if I am tired I am tired and it's no good feeling guilty about that. It is a fine line to walk, to be both gentle and disciplined with myself and it is ok for people to nudge me if they think I am going too far in either direction.
Hi to the other diamonds, lol. What is with page 22?
Yea, new smileys!
lol
Dee, it was just one class but I do take your point. I aint white knuckling either, I had a few cravings in the first 30 days but mostly I love being sober and rarely crave, it is just I have a track record of giving in to them. Yes, I need to change more, do more and like I said to Ro I am aware there is a certain amount of inertia going on that I have to overcome.
I have worked hard at changing myself and a lot of it is internal and can't be measured by whether I go somewhere or not...beating alcoholism is an inside job. But I do know that I need to fight harder and overcome the inertia when it comes to outside activities.
At 30+ days I think it is OK to be kind of gentle with oneself and if I am tired I am tired and it's no good feeling guilty about that. It is a fine line to walk, to be both gentle and disciplined with myself and it is ok for people to nudge me if they think I am going too far in either direction.
Hi to the other diamonds, lol. What is with page 22?
Yea, new smileys!
lol
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