Bottoms Part 120
~miss nikky~
Join Date: Aug 2008
Location: windsor gardens, south australia, australia
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Ro please dont fork your eyes up!
they are pretty eyes!
well i really must go now i have Jai at home crook an got to take him to the doctors to get medicine.
To get medicine i have to pawn some dvd's also as i dont get paid til 2mrw,
so i must run an get the bus or we will be late as usual.
i must say though my energy isnt so low this morning, maybe listening to mindfullness cd'd while i slept has helped a little
or maybe i just feel usefull cos one of my kids needs me cos he ill... i dunno.
my april is 17 today, so i'm like wow i kept a kid alive for 17years!
not bad for a lady who thinks she a screw up an has some screws lose.
im certainly not feeling suicidal anymore an im aware as of this morning that my partners death anniversary is coming up on sunday so maybe thats had alot to do with me being all up n down to..
theres alot involved in my journey but i will get ther
i certainly dont give up easy, an the trip to hosp. helped in a way to show me i dont want to be depressd an go in to the psyche ward, i dont belong there or in a grave i belong here an in life living it to the best of my ability even though at time my ability to live might not be the best i can do.
ciao for now
happy family day to all that are celebrating it
im going to we dont have it here an i think its just a swelll idea really
they are pretty eyes!
well i really must go now i have Jai at home crook an got to take him to the doctors to get medicine.
To get medicine i have to pawn some dvd's also as i dont get paid til 2mrw,
so i must run an get the bus or we will be late as usual.
i must say though my energy isnt so low this morning, maybe listening to mindfullness cd'd while i slept has helped a little
or maybe i just feel usefull cos one of my kids needs me cos he ill... i dunno.
my april is 17 today, so i'm like wow i kept a kid alive for 17years!
not bad for a lady who thinks she a screw up an has some screws lose.
im certainly not feeling suicidal anymore an im aware as of this morning that my partners death anniversary is coming up on sunday so maybe thats had alot to do with me being all up n down to..
theres alot involved in my journey but i will get ther
i certainly dont give up easy, an the trip to hosp. helped in a way to show me i dont want to be depressd an go in to the psyche ward, i dont belong there or in a grave i belong here an in life living it to the best of my ability even though at time my ability to live might not be the best i can do.
ciao for now
happy family day to all that are celebrating it
im going to we dont have it here an i think its just a swelll idea really
Im not crazy and neither am I
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Originally Posted by least 
hello all. just having a do nothing day. withdrawal anxiety is being helped with the meds from the hospital so once I get thru wd I can have my sober life back. and I want it back, only I want it better than before... if that makes sense.
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this is Bottoms part 120
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this is Bottoms part 120
Some days in the beginning it was all I could do to just hang on (to my couch and cat);hang in there. I STILL have my days, BElieve me !
EFF the fake it till ya make it crap ! imho
Talk about it if you can. To anyone who might listen and you dont think will hurt you. Some are sicker than others.
I STILL HAVE to go to 1-2 mostly 2 meetings to stay sober. Im not working regular atm. But it seems to be picking up rather quickly ! yay !
Im not crazy and neither am I
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Do you folks know the first three years of sobriety saying ?
Something like
1st yr Sober Up
2nd yr Throw Up
3rd yr Grow Up
I feel like 2nd and third year are happening all at once !
Does anyone else see this in their recovery ?
Something like
1st yr Sober Up
2nd yr Throw Up
3rd yr Grow Up
I feel like 2nd and third year are happening all at once !
Does anyone else see this in their recovery ?
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Hmm never heard those sayings here. I feel like I've been doing some growing up this last year. Dunno 'bout throwing up. Does that mean more in a figurative sense, as in doing a thorough moral inventory and throwing up (or out) what no longer works? If that's the case, then yeah, I'm going through #2 and #3 combined.
Nikks - you sound better - more in focus. I'm glad. Really glad. Happy Birthday to your April. I have a sister named April - it's not a very common name, so I was surprised to hear you had a girl with the same one.
Nikks - you sound better - more in focus. I'm glad. Really glad. Happy Birthday to your April. I have a sister named April - it's not a very common name, so I was surprised to hear you had a girl with the same one.
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My mind is twisted up.
I got a call from the drs office where I am having the MRI tomorrow. They told me they pre-medicate with Valium. IV VALIUM!
I know I do not need it for an MRI and I'm not going to take it. But it still messes with my mind. My sick mind tells me it is permission from a dr.
I know if I took that Valium it would just be the beginning. I would want more. I can't take it. And that pisses me off.
I got a call from the drs office where I am having the MRI tomorrow. They told me they pre-medicate with Valium. IV VALIUM!
I know I do not need it for an MRI and I'm not going to take it. But it still messes with my mind. My sick mind tells me it is permission from a dr.
I know if I took that Valium it would just be the beginning. I would want more. I can't take it. And that pisses me off.
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IO I am fine . Not sure what confused you... my post about the chair with no explanation? I need one for the steam canopy 
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Happy Birthday too April. Hugs to Nikky. Focus on Jai and give yourself a break
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Frst, never heard those either but if they're slogans I'm not surprised as you know I don't AA. I don't have high hopes of growing up in either case though
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Ro...don't throw up.
Hi Telly
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. Not sure what confused you... my post about the chair with no explanation? I need one for the steam canopy .Happy Birthday too April. Hugs to Nikky. Focus on Jai and give yourself a break
.Frst, never heard those either but if they're slogans I'm not surprised as you know I don't AA. I don't have high hopes of growing up in either case though
.Ro...don't throw up.
Hi Telly
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Originally Posted by tanyapmc
My mind is twisted up.
I got a call from the drs office where I am having the MRI tomorrow. They told me they pre-medicate with Valium. IV VALIUM!
I know I do not need it for an MRI and I'm not going to take it. But it still messes with my mind. My sick mind tells me it is permission from a dr.
I know if I took that Valium it would just be the beginning. I would want more. I can't take it. And that pisses me off.
I got a call from the drs office where I am having the MRI tomorrow. They told me they pre-medicate with Valium. IV VALIUM!
I know I do not need it for an MRI and I'm not going to take it. But it still messes with my mind. My sick mind tells me it is permission from a dr.
I know if I took that Valium it would just be the beginning. I would want more. I can't take it. And that pisses me off.
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Damon is lecturing the girls. I hate when he starts being all assholic and lectury to them. They don't listen... especially when he drones on and on.
I have to bite my tongue and not say anything or we'll be back to where we usually are. It's funny that he thinks we should be on the same page and supportive of what the other is dishing out to the kids but he never consults me before he starts unplugging the computers and TV's and stuff. Or his lectures.
I have to bite my tongue and not say anything or we'll be back to where we usually are. It's funny that he thinks we should be on the same page and supportive of what the other is dishing out to the kids but he never consults me before he starts unplugging the computers and TV's and stuff. Or his lectures.
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Tan positive thoughts!
Gyps
to everyone else RK, Sher, Dee, Jules, Ro Ro, Ma, Stoney, Frst, and whoever else I missed....
Sorry about the 20 RK I was a bit tired last night! I have Anna on it to fix it to 120!
positive thoughts! Gyps
to everyone else RK, Sher, Dee, Jules, Ro Ro, Ma, Stoney, Frst, and whoever else I missed....Sorry about the 20 RK I was a bit tired last night! I have Anna on it to fix it to 120!
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Hi everybody. I know what you mean about the Valium, Tan. When I go for dental work I get nitrous as it's a legal high and it's a controlled dose, but still. I really look forward to it. And I'm glad you made a decision to go without for the MRI. It would **** me off, too, to not be able to take it legitimately, but I believe that I gave up any rights when it comes to pills. If I hadn't of abused them in the first place, I wouldn't be in this mess. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.
Enjoy 24 Gyps. I'll have to download it tomorrow. I can't wait!!
Enjoy 24 Gyps. I'll have to download it tomorrow. I can't wait!!
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3 more minutes. I will Ro. Too bad you have to wait until tomorrow.
I'll be keeping you in my thoughts too Tan. I know what you mean about the Valium except replace that with alcohol and I'm right there.
I'm going to read my Pema Chodron book on commercials to make 24 a little more spiritual than drooling over Jack.
Good night peeps :ghug.
I'll be keeping you in my thoughts too Tan
. I know what you mean about the Valium except replace that with alcohol and I'm right there.I'm going to read my Pema Chodron book on commercials to make 24 a little more spiritual than drooling over Jack.
Good night peeps :ghug.
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I think that it means that we start remembering some of the stuff in our past and working on the 4th step. Sometimes my memories make me cringe or want to puke.
The 3rd year we start to heal our emotions social behaviors and coping skills and start looking at what we want to do w the rest of our lives. For those who dont already or think they know anyway. "THEY" say our emotional development is stunted when we start using at an early age and we need to grow up in this respect.
I do believe that they all overlap a little.
Just my experience so far...
The 3rd year we start to heal our emotions social behaviors and coping skills and start looking at what we want to do w the rest of our lives. For those who dont already or think they know anyway. "THEY" say our emotional development is stunted when we start using at an early age and we need to grow up in this respect.
I do believe that they all overlap a little.
Just my experience so far...
~miss nikky~
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back from the doctors, jai has a viral throat infection,
me, im ok , my doctors looking into psychologists for me to see.
ive jst spent half an hour chatting with jo on the phone which has been really nice, its always nice to put a voice to the person behind the posts.
she was a big help to me.
im out of here for now as im very tired an going to relax with jai to a meditation cd.
laters to all
an thanx for the support.
me, im ok , my doctors looking into psychologists for me to see.
ive jst spent half an hour chatting with jo on the phone which has been really nice, its always nice to put a voice to the person behind the posts.
she was a big help to me.
im out of here for now as im very tired an going to relax with jai to a meditation cd.
laters to all
an thanx for the support.
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((((((((Tanya))))))))
A close friend of mine has had to have 3 MRI's lately and she refused the valium too.I think they mostly give it to people who are claustrophobic-to help calm them but it is optional as far as I know.I'm sorry though-I know what that can do to your head.I'm thinking of you
Rellz-hi you sweetie! Missed seeing you round here.
Gyps-thanks for the kind words.Love you
Stoney? *sigh* Come back soon okay....
Liz-I owe you an e mail-LOL(I see you lurking) Will write tomorrow. *hugs*
A close friend of mine has had to have 3 MRI's lately and she refused the valium too.I think they mostly give it to people who are claustrophobic-to help calm them but it is optional as far as I know.I'm sorry though-I know what that can do to your head.I'm thinking of you
Rellz-hi you sweetie! Missed seeing you round here.
Gyps-thanks for the kind words.Love you
Stoney? *sigh* Come back soon okay....
Liz-I owe you an e mail-LOL(I see you lurking) Will write tomorrow. *hugs*
everybody!
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