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Old 01-04-2009, 03:16 AM   #541 (permalink)
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I am really tired of the tough love now, I think people forget what it was like to feel powerless and hopeless and full of self-hate and despair.
Maybe people also think "I did it, why can't he, it is because he isn't trying".

I admit for the first half of 2008 I was going through a stage of wanting to not be an alkie, but for the second half I was trying my best, it wasn't good enough.

I wake up and check here now to see who has given me my latest spanking, talking about me like I am not here half the time.

Like I say, I feel hopeless and in despair and it isn't helping. I really need to take a break from here.
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Old 01-04-2009, 03:19 AM   #542 (permalink)
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I forgive you Nikky, don't worry.

Although I know people say what they do cos they care a big dose of lost patience is involved too, it is understandble but is not helping me. I am going for a while.

I am not sulking or anything just tired of it.
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Old 01-04-2009, 03:20 AM   #543 (permalink)
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someone!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dont know what to say stone except i feel badly
for me for you an for this situation
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Old 01-04-2009, 03:25 AM   #544 (permalink)
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I am only taking a break Nikky and it isn't cos of you, ok?
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the best place for you is here, mate - really.

Leaving your support group is not the best idea - especially now.

Noone likes being taken to task, whether its justified or not - and I think some of us have made mistakes in the course of trying to help and being honest with you - but we're all as worried and concerned and frustrated as you are Paul.

It's a ****** situation all round for everyone.

But I've never seen anything here that wasn't said with love to you.
I think you should stick around.

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OK it's just a break LOL but I'll leave my post

Night all

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Paul i realise that much hun.
the situation as a whole is what i was meaning,
i was reminded myself of a few months ago when a newcomer came in an was rasking if others had forgotton what it felt like to be raw an desperate myself today...
that newcomer was me babes...


we shouldnt shoot our wounded were the wiser words of a beautiful woman i am growing to love dearly

an stone?
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Old 01-04-2009, 03:35 AM   #548 (permalink)
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Old 01-04-2009, 03:58 AM   #549 (permalink)
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Dee, I come here because I am lonely and need friends but all my friends seem to feel they aren't being friends if they don't throw in a lecture or advice...the tone of some (not all) has been a bit over the top too. I do understand that people are worried about me.
It has been a bit like an intervention every two weeks, do interventions work? I dunno.

Niks, I think people with a few years sobriety do forget what it was like to be so emotionally raw, thanks.

Anyway, a break would be good for me, I just hope it lasts more than a day like they usually do.
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Old 01-04-2009, 04:04 AM   #550 (permalink)
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please dont make it too long away babe

one thing i think you will agree with is even if its a shyte of a time here to keep it together...its even harder alone yea?

i dont want ya to get sicker or even god forbid die hun i really dont.
i dont think you do neither paul.
you have my email hun touch base,
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Stoney babes... it might seem like peeps are talking about you like you aren't here well... because you aren't. I saw a few posts here yesterday morning. I said I love ya no matter what. Then you disappeared for the day. Where'd you go?

You know everyone feels for you and supports you. You may need to rethink what you're taking as a "spanking". I understand what it's like to go through what you're going through, I do. But sweeping it under the table and posting a few smilies is not recovery babes. You need to do something. Don't sulk and stop posting because you don't like tough love. DO SOMETHING so we don't have to even think of tough loving you. Personally I like my love hard but that's another topic .

OK... lecture over.

I love you babes . Always will.
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