For members with less than 2 weeks sober...Part 7
ExNavy....
I sure hope you can come thru tonight sober.
I sure hope you can come thru tonight sober.
In the end it ends up being me looking out for me.
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HEY EX!!!
You are AMAZING!!! You didn't feel comfortable going tonight as planned...so you didn't. Way To GO!!!!!!
Don't worry too much about breaking your commitment to your friend this time. You will be a better friend for having listened to your gut.
Here's wishing you the BEST of everything in 2009 ExNavy. You deserve it!!
You are AMAZING!!! You didn't feel comfortable going tonight as planned...so you didn't. Way To GO!!!!!!
Don't worry too much about breaking your commitment to your friend this time. You will be a better friend for having listened to your gut.
Here's wishing you the BEST of everything in 2009 ExNavy. You deserve it!!
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I retract "breaking your commitment to your friend". That's not what I meant to write.You certainly gave her the heads up and she may be disappointed but you came through for yourself.
I guess that's my first amend for 2009. (The time showing on the site is 4 hrs. behind)
I guess that's my first amend for 2009. (The time showing on the site is 4 hrs. behind)
Day 13 -- waking up after good sleep, even though my dreams made me feel like I was at the movies all night.
Today I have a 5K run scheduled with the friend I let down last night. Some I am prepared for a light protest.
Today I have a 5K run scheduled with the friend I let down last night. Some I am prepared for a light protest.
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Just want to wish everyone a Happy New Year
Whilst there are 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days, 8,760 hours and 525,600 minutes in a new year - it's a daily reprieve that we have. Just keep it in the day; 24 hours and don't pick up that first drink or drug.
PB glad to read your post
Whilst there are 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days, 8,760 hours and 525,600 minutes in a new year - it's a daily reprieve that we have. Just keep it in the day; 24 hours and don't pick up that first drink or drug.
PB glad to read your post
I am looking at this from a different angle this time. I will focus on a new way of life. I can't expect things to be different If I'm not different myself.
I want to look after me and need to find a New Normal. In 3yrs my life as I knew it has gone (not through drink) I need to build a new one and cannot do that drunk.
Also instead of just thinking Feck It, I will reach out for help and take it each moment at a time.
I want to look after me and need to find a New Normal. In 3yrs my life as I knew it has gone (not through drink) I need to build a new one and cannot do that drunk.
Also instead of just thinking Feck It, I will reach out for help and take it each moment at a time.
Hi everyone! Happy New Year!
Well, I didn't drink on New Year's Eve or on New Year's Day, so I guess this is day 3 for me. It's very pleasant to wake up without a hangover, without feeling like someone has drilled a hole in my head...
My mission today is to do whatever it takes to avoid picking up that first drink. Thanks for all the support, advice and encouragement here in this thread, it is a lifeline for me personally.
You know, even after all this time, my mind still tries to play tricks with me, trying to persuade me that "really i'm just a heavy drinker, not alcoholic". Sometimes I wish that someone (outside of myself, that is) would just give me an official diagnosis - "yes, you are an alcoholic" or "no, you're not an alcoholic". But I know life is never that easy, and I have to take responsibility for myself.
I re-read my diary last night, and it's a record of so much wreckage caused by drinking - I think that alone is all the proof I need that I am alcoholic (plus the fact I answer "yes" to 8 of the 12 questions on the AA website).
I love sobriety - it's been very kind to me whenever I've had days without drinking. Alcohol is just a nasty bugger, I don't want to be acquainted with it any more.
Thanks for letting me post. Have a lovely Friday everyone!
Well, I didn't drink on New Year's Eve or on New Year's Day, so I guess this is day 3 for me. It's very pleasant to wake up without a hangover, without feeling like someone has drilled a hole in my head...
My mission today is to do whatever it takes to avoid picking up that first drink. Thanks for all the support, advice and encouragement here in this thread, it is a lifeline for me personally.
You know, even after all this time, my mind still tries to play tricks with me, trying to persuade me that "really i'm just a heavy drinker, not alcoholic". Sometimes I wish that someone (outside of myself, that is) would just give me an official diagnosis - "yes, you are an alcoholic" or "no, you're not an alcoholic". But I know life is never that easy, and I have to take responsibility for myself.
I re-read my diary last night, and it's a record of so much wreckage caused by drinking - I think that alone is all the proof I need that I am alcoholic (plus the fact I answer "yes" to 8 of the 12 questions on the AA website).
I love sobriety - it's been very kind to me whenever I've had days without drinking. Alcohol is just a nasty bugger, I don't want to be acquainted with it any more.
Thanks for letting me post. Have a lovely Friday everyone!
The mind tricks are the worst PB. Every single time I stop for longer than 3 weeks I have the same old story in my head... well if you can stop for this long you aren't an alcoholic.... gets kinda boring after a while....
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
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Join Date: Jun 2002
Location: Serene In Dixie
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I consider that my drinking turned into alcoholism
the last 5 years I drank.
I've never figured out what day or which drink...
Depression is why I decided to stop drinking.
My situational depression vanished at about 2 months of AA sobber.
This is from my files... Hope this info helps ...:ghug
the last 5 years I drank.
I've never figured out what day or which drink...
Depression is why I decided to stop drinking.
My situational depression vanished at about 2 months of AA sobber.
This is from my files...
Here's how alcoholism typically progresses:
SOCIAL DRINKERS — Most Americans are characterized as social drinkers. Statistics indicate, however, that one of every 16 drinkers will become alcoholic.
WARNING SIGNS — The individual begins to drink more frequently and more than his associates. He drinks for confidence or to tolerate or escape problems. No party or other occasion is complete without a couple of drinks. Driving and drinking become routine.
EARLY ALCOHOLISM — With increasing frequency, the individual drinks too much. "Blackouts," or temporary amnesia, occur during or following drinking episodes. He drinks more rapidly than others, sneaks drinks and in other ways conceals the quantity that he drinks. He resents any reference to his drinking habits.
BASIC ALCOHOLISM — The individual begins to lose control as to the time, place and amount of his drinking. He gets drunk unintentionally. He hides and protects his liquor supply. He drinks to overcome the hangover from his prior drinking. He tries new patterns of drinking as to time and place of drinking. He attempts cures by moving to new locations or by changing his drinking companions.
CHRONIC ALCOHOLISM — The individual becomes a loner in his drinking. He develops alibis, excuses and rationalizations to cover up or explain his drinking. Personality and behavior changes occur that affect all relationships — family, employment, community. Extended binges, physical tremors, hallucinations and delirium, complete rejection of social reality, malnutrition with accompanying illness and disease and early death all occur as chronic alcoholism progresses.
Source: American Medical Association
SOCIAL DRINKERS — Most Americans are characterized as social drinkers. Statistics indicate, however, that one of every 16 drinkers will become alcoholic.
WARNING SIGNS — The individual begins to drink more frequently and more than his associates. He drinks for confidence or to tolerate or escape problems. No party or other occasion is complete without a couple of drinks. Driving and drinking become routine.
EARLY ALCOHOLISM — With increasing frequency, the individual drinks too much. "Blackouts," or temporary amnesia, occur during or following drinking episodes. He drinks more rapidly than others, sneaks drinks and in other ways conceals the quantity that he drinks. He resents any reference to his drinking habits.
BASIC ALCOHOLISM — The individual begins to lose control as to the time, place and amount of his drinking. He gets drunk unintentionally. He hides and protects his liquor supply. He drinks to overcome the hangover from his prior drinking. He tries new patterns of drinking as to time and place of drinking. He attempts cures by moving to new locations or by changing his drinking companions.
CHRONIC ALCOHOLISM — The individual becomes a loner in his drinking. He develops alibis, excuses and rationalizations to cover up or explain his drinking. Personality and behavior changes occur that affect all relationships — family, employment, community. Extended binges, physical tremors, hallucinations and delirium, complete rejection of social reality, malnutrition with accompanying illness and disease and early death all occur as chronic alcoholism progresses.
Source: American Medical Association
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Join Date: Dec 2008
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Day 12, I dont know how i made it the last few days but I did.
I will be sober today. The holidays are hard. Also my ex came back in my life and we broke up because partially my drinking several months ago and she called me out of the blue and invited me over to a new years party, I didnt drink and had lots of fun, but im feelings i havent felt in awhile and im feeling a lot of anxiety.
I will not make it worse by drinking. ITs ok to feel feelings.
I will be sober today. The holidays are hard. Also my ex came back in my life and we broke up because partially my drinking several months ago and she called me out of the blue and invited me over to a new years party, I didnt drink and had lots of fun, but im feelings i havent felt in awhile and im feeling a lot of anxiety.
I will not make it worse by drinking. ITs ok to feel feelings.
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