timzup

"Failure is not in falling asleep in your chow mein, Failure is in not getting back up"

Chinese take-away Proverb

lostbutterfly

I have wanted to get hammered all week Wibble. The other day, I had the Sobriety Calculator up on my computer at work - the one that works out your sober time in days, hours, minutes and .... heartbeats!

I was checking it every 2 minutes, or 150 heartbeats. It's like a hunger right in the pit of my stomach. I don't like it. Make it go away, someone. Where is nands and her wisdom when you need it?

wibble

I've been ok all week, little spits and spots of cravings but Today has been horrific

God only knows what i'm gonna be like by this evening!

I can't look at the sober time thing...it just depresses me!

timzup

Cool, I've got a sponsor

wibble

father jack is the man!!!!

timzup

You know it.

Go on Wibbs, take his brandy off him.

wibble

FoOk that!

He be hard!

I appear to have gone a bit pirate!

Ananda

hey guys!!!!! well i read and was so uplifted today...then it ends up everyone is craving like crazy.....

NEVER GIVE UP NEVER SURRENDER.....

Ok...a little tip from me to you....I had a couple of rough patches this year...wanted to drink sooooooo bad.....or was scared I would...not real sure.

YES...aa and a spirtiual path are my long term solution to my problem, but....sometimes i get in those spaces where those tools seem to not work...so WHITE KNUCKLE IT!!!!!

It is at times like those that I have to remember a slip isn't just about starting over it is russian rulet!!! Will that one drink be the one where I end up killing myself however...suicide, car wreck, dangerous situations????

We have to stay alive in order to get and stay sober....

Sorry this is long...one time I just sat in my car in a hotel parking lot after stalking my sponsor and going through my phone list thinking of why I couldn't call each person on the list...sucked. Next time I knew that again I wasn't going to call my sponsor or anyone else (thing about a man in the program)...wanted to was afraid i would drink so baaaad...I came to SR, went in the chat room, grabed someone I knew a little and blurted it all out to her.

If any of you ever want to drink and I am on the list above please pm me to ask me to chat and I will go chat...you can click on an individual's name and do a private one and spill your guts....

I knew those nights that if I drank it might be like the last time that ended up being 8 years and i thought i'de never make it back...if i drink i am comitting not to one night but likely for years to come or even to death.

OK...have i Killed the thread now?

timzup

Certainly not killed the thread. Nands, that gets my vote for post of the month. Thanks.

Ananda

wibs logged out

Pixy1

Thank god you are keeping this thread going! I agree with LB & Allport, I need somewhere to belong sober or not. We all kinda know each other aswell.

As you all know I'm struggling but I am going to do this! I know thats what alcoholics say but I'm trying so damn hard every day!

WIBBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know its hard and I know I'm a fine one to talk but please stick with it. This will pass! focus on how u will feel in the morning and how proud you will be of yourself. Post post and post again ok?

timzup

Calm down nands, Wibbs wouldn't just log out in a huff. Probably just burnt his tongue again.

Pixy1

He will come back!

Ananda

LB is gone too...maybe we can start a rumor!!!!

Pix...good to see you again! Yep you belong here!!!! and as the months roll by you will all still be the class of November regardless!!!!! And such an inspiration!

I know you are giving this all you have pixy and it inspires me. My brother is struggling right now and you give me hope....thanks so much!!!

Pixy1

I do??

It's dinner time, they have prob gone to have something to eat.

I have to pop down the stables and feed the ponys, back in a bit x

lostbutterfly

Thanx nands. And for your offer to chat. I agree, white knuckling when all else fails!!

IO Storm

Hey class! Popped in to read for a sec...whoah Nelly. I've certainly been down

this road before too, so many times. So, how have I put together two and a half

years? A day at a time. Not giving up or giving in..

And relying on support! You all have it here... :ghug2:

Hang with each each other class...

colagirl

Hey everybody, just woke up (11:30 - sheesh!). Wibbs, I hope you're getting through the day okay, come back and post and let us know how it's going!! I know you can do it.

Pixy - of course you belong here!! How are you doing?

Nands - thanks for your post, that was amazing.

Hugs to all... :ghug2

Pixy1

Wibbs not back yet??

CG :ghug3

colagirl

Pixy!! Good to see you!

Wibbs?