Class of November Part 2
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Last year christmas was such a mindblowing but joyful time for me and the contrast with this year is just devastating...Last year I slid through with no problems at all..but this year it seems like a real disaster waiting to happen unless I do something proactive soon....
I'm stuck with the trip home and I guess I just assume my freind connie will watch the dogs overnight christmas eve/christmas morning. I won't leave for home till around noon on christmas eve day, we do the present thing on that evening....I may want to drink, but I really don't see it happening....then I'll head home as soon as lunch is over on Christmas day....
Then I think the trouble will all come to a head...See I will be all set up with anger at the kids, lonelyness about the holiday...ghost of last years christmas and all that....and go back home to the perfect time to become a hermit...
It's like I'm planning the drunk already...and on top of that I found myself thinking through the concequenses of drinking...death...no biggy...jail for DUI...would simplify my life a great deal....jeeeez...I gotta do something different quick...guess I'll have to call my sponsor for a long talk tonight...and if she isn't available I think I may just fire her and find someone who is willing to be there for me when I get this far down.....
TMI.....I have no self control at the moment.
I'm stuck with the trip home and I guess I just assume my freind connie will watch the dogs overnight christmas eve/christmas morning. I won't leave for home till around noon on christmas eve day, we do the present thing on that evening....I may want to drink, but I really don't see it happening....then I'll head home as soon as lunch is over on Christmas day....
Then I think the trouble will all come to a head...See I will be all set up with anger at the kids, lonelyness about the holiday...ghost of last years christmas and all that....and go back home to the perfect time to become a hermit...
It's like I'm planning the drunk already...and on top of that I found myself thinking through the concequenses of drinking...death...no biggy...jail for DUI...would simplify my life a great deal....jeeeez...I gotta do something different quick...guess I'll have to call my sponsor for a long talk tonight...and if she isn't available I think I may just fire her and find someone who is willing to be there for me when I get this far down.....
TMI.....I have no self control at the moment.
((nands)) I'm thinking of you hun!
Pixy - new years with Scottish folks - you'll have to ask Fizzy on how to survive that. It will be his first Hogmanay too.
Night my luvleys. I hope you find some peace and serenity tonight.
Pixy - new years with Scottish folks - you'll have to ask Fizzy on how to survive that. It will be his first Hogmanay too.
Night my luvleys. I hope you find some peace and serenity tonight.
Nands I feel usless at the min. It's good that you see there is problems ahead but I don't want you to think that the final outcome is to pick up! Because no doubt the step after that is death. Yes very dramatic I know but sadly it's the truth in the end.
I'm a fine one to talk I know.
Your doing just fine, get back to meetings and reach out! Easy does it x
I'm a fine one to talk I know.
Your doing just fine, get back to meetings and reach out! Easy does it x
Morning all, how are you all on this bright and frosty morning?
Hey wibbs, Thanks for dropping by. It is just not the same here without you.
Off to work in a min, I'll be back tonight. Have a good day, Pixy
Hey wibbs, Thanks for dropping by. It is just not the same here without you.
Off to work in a min, I'll be back tonight. Have a good day, Pixy
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Thanks to all of you for being so patient and tolerant last the last few days. I hope someday I can help each of you through a rough time.
I just know that had I drank...the world would have seemed a darker place today. I think last night was just one of those Dark Night of the Soul things....cleared away some of the rubbish in my head to make room for the growth I must have in my life in order to stay sober right along with the rest of you.
Have a good day today guys...I'll pop in and out....
(time zones still suck!):ghug
I just know that had I drank...the world would have seemed a darker place today. I think last night was just one of those Dark Night of the Soul things....cleared away some of the rubbish in my head to make room for the growth I must have in my life in order to stay sober right along with the rest of you.
Have a good day today guys...I'll pop in and out....
(time zones still suck!):ghug
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yep....and the insanity that procedes the first drink is pretty ugly too
I guess I've learned again...if you hang on through that insantiy, don't drink, you will come out the other side and learn something that really matters in the process...
As a freind said to me last night...it isn't all sunshine and roses in sobriety, but it is well worth the trip.
wibs has friends???? who ah thunk it
just kidding wibs...have a good time...we are sober today and need to enjoy our lives to the fullest.
I guess I've learned again...if you hang on through that insantiy, don't drink, you will come out the other side and learn something that really matters in the process...
As a freind said to me last night...it isn't all sunshine and roses in sobriety, but it is well worth the trip.
wibs has friends???? who ah thunk it
just kidding wibs...have a good time...we are sober today and need to enjoy our lives to the fullest.
Hi guys just a quick drop in. I have just got back from work and off down the stables now. I really don't know where the days go, I never seem to get any proper time on here.
New look is lovely but being a tad Dyslexic it's very red and not easy on the eye.
It's beginning to feel like Christmas it's the frosty mornings and evenings that do it.
I'll be back here in little while, how are you all? It's soooooooooooooo quiet again today.
New look is lovely but being a tad Dyslexic it's very red and not easy on the eye.
It's beginning to feel like Christmas it's the frosty mornings and evenings that do it.
I'll be back here in little while, how are you all? It's soooooooooooooo quiet again today.
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hi pixy! glad to see you....I'm at lunch, and I'll pop in a few times this afternoon, but won't get back on for "quality time" till 10:00 your time....
So, today is the first day of the rest of my life sober....I will be hearing a dear friend share her story tonight at a meeting, then I will meet with my sponsor to help me figure out what actions I need to take to change...
You know skating on the edge is not a very nice place to be.
LB....when is that play you're going to be in? We wanta send out some critics to get a reivew
Pixie...you can get rid of the christmas stuff....even though it's pretty and all and go back to "blue"...go down to the bottom of the page and change the ??style?? from default to blue...I think.
Later guys and stay focused on sobriety
So, today is the first day of the rest of my life sober....I will be hearing a dear friend share her story tonight at a meeting, then I will meet with my sponsor to help me figure out what actions I need to take to change...
You know skating on the edge is not a very nice place to be.
LB....when is that play you're going to be in? We wanta send out some critics to get a reivew
Pixie...you can get rid of the christmas stuff....even though it's pretty and all and go back to "blue"...go down to the bottom of the page and change the ??style?? from default to blue...I think.
Later guys and stay focused on sobriety
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