The Darkness
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Originally Posted by Kaily 
I can feel it coming, creeping upon me as it has before. I am hanging on searching for light and unfound joy before darkness closes in on me. I am fearsome, alone and joyless.
I can feel it coming and I have nowhere to run...
I can feel it coming and I have nowhere to run...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OozIDOzGWH4
We are cursed but I have been cursed for a wile you need to surf through it and embrace it if you can this darkness.
That's wrong, I should speak for myself, I am cursed but
Go with it, get evil, that's what it wants feed it and it backs off.
Even with the power of Google search I have no chance of finding that short horror film where they are stuck on this train and when it goes through a tunnel everyone is just a skeleton and the old timers just say "tunnel" and go with it.
Not that I have mastered this, not by far I am here too but I know how it operates.
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Kaily, I'd like to share with you what really helped me let go of the darkest that I was engulfed in. Maybe you can apply these ideas I am about to tell you in your life: 1. turning my life over to my Higher Power 2. Becoming more loving and helpful towards people.
Everyday I reaffirm that I am giving my life over to God, that I want him to come into my life, that I want to have a relationship with Him.
Becoming more loving started by posting positive messages on post it notes and leaving them in bathrooms and other public places. And then everyday I think of what I can to help someone that day or make their life easier. It has produced amazing results for me.
I firmly believe the darkness that was in my life was put there for me to grow in my relationship towards God and in my love towards other people. The darkness will go away when you use it for the reason that it is in your life. Perhaps start doing the things that really worked for me and see what that does for you.
Everyday I reaffirm that I am giving my life over to God, that I want him to come into my life, that I want to have a relationship with Him.
Becoming more loving started by posting positive messages on post it notes and leaving them in bathrooms and other public places. And then everyday I think of what I can to help someone that day or make their life easier. It has produced amazing results for me.
I firmly believe the darkness that was in my life was put there for me to grow in my relationship towards God and in my love towards other people. The darkness will go away when you use it for the reason that it is in your life. Perhaps start doing the things that really worked for me and see what that does for you.
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Keep writing, Kaily.
You can find joy. How about starting a gratitude list? That always helps me to refocus.
The trick is to not let the thoughts and darkness stick around. We all have them, but I cannot/will not allow that to drag me back. There are good things in my life. Did everything turn out like I had hoped or wanted? No. Would I like some things to be different? Of course.
One walk at a time.
You can find joy. How about starting a gratitude list? That always helps me to refocus.
The trick is to not let the thoughts and darkness stick around. We all have them, but I cannot/will not allow that to drag me back. There are good things in my life. Did everything turn out like I had hoped or wanted? No. Would I like some things to be different? Of course.
One walk at a time.
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How are you doing today Kaily? I've been getting up early and walking in the dark for the last 8 months, it does wonders for my anxiety and depression. The best action I can take though is to go outside and soak up some sunlight, even if it's only for a few minutes.
I'm praying that every day brings us towards a better outlook, even the slightest improvement. I hope you find your sunshine today.
I'm praying that every day brings us towards a better outlook, even the slightest improvement. I hope you find your sunshine today.
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Thank you.
Thankfully I don't get too many drinking thoughts these days. When the depression hits immediate thoughts of self medicating flood my mind. I am shutting them down but it is hard. Instant relief is tempting even with the havoc that would prevail.
Yes Tatsy, the dogs give me a reason not to run away with myself completely. I think I need them more than they need me.
This 3 am waking night after night is horrible. I know depression makes sleep difficult. An unbalance of the mind never makes for a good rest.
Thankfully I don't get too many drinking thoughts these days. When the depression hits immediate thoughts of self medicating flood my mind. I am shutting them down but it is hard. Instant relief is tempting even with the havoc that would prevail.
Yes Tatsy, the dogs give me a reason not to run away with myself completely. I think I need them more than they need me.
This 3 am waking night after night is horrible. I know depression makes sleep difficult. An unbalance of the mind never makes for a good rest.
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