Self injury
 

I've been sober almost 10 years, and I very rarely think about drinking. But there have been many times I have "craved" cutting. Three years ago, I was hospitalized for depression after the birth of my 2ND child, and underwent more than 20 rounds of ECT. It's been that long since I last cut myself. I've worked the 12 steps, but am not active at the moment in meetings. I am also a Christian. I had a baby almost three months ago, and am so grateful that I seem to be more clear headed than last time. But for the past few days, I have just had a really strong desire to cut. I don't feel sad, maybe anxious about returning to work. I just really want to cut.

I know I won't always feel this way. I just wanted to put it out there.

Hi Gal :)

I've never wanted to cut but I know you'll find support here - you're not alone :)

D

prayers

Hello Gal220,

Congratulations on the new little one! What a blessing :)

I am sorry you have been feeling the urge to self-injur lately. I can only imagine that the postpartum flood of hormones does not help. You will be in my prayers. I am afraid I have no great insight to share because among the many coping mechanisms I have, that was never one of mine.

Have you read through the self-injury sticky above? I think you will find some great information there!

Please take good care!

Hello Gal. I find that when old thinking creeps back into what seemed like my normal that it helps me to bump up my recovery meeting attendance and seek out the support and relationships I may be lacking. Church helps with that too, I'm a Christian myself. I hope you'll continue to reach out for support.

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I struggled with PPD too, it's brutal. I don't cut, but it sure made me desperate to drink. Are you spending enough time with other people?

Thanks everyone. Yeah, I am trying to be around people (other than the 3 kiddos). It's difficult to manage, but I know it will get better in time. Work starts back up soon, so that's an additional stressor, but will also get me out of the house.