My theory of schizophrenia bipolar depression
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Originally Posted by Opivotal 
dsmaxis, you seem to be struggling terribly.
I wish, I could help in some way.
Take some deep breaths, maybe call someone for some face to face support?
I wish, I could help in some way.
Take some deep breaths, maybe call someone for some face to face support?
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I love Bob Darrel listened to all his stuff and Layla N and Chris Raymer I just never could get honest to be free of all that paranoid madness is a gift from God I talk to Chris Raymer on the phone he gave me an honest answer!!! Look met a paranoid schizophrenic with 34 years sober if it worked for him it will work for me!!! I was Muslim yesterday Taoist today what will tomorrow bring!!! So I'm excited no I don't really suffer God molding me to help others I fully opened my Brow Chakra 4.5 years ago but never new what it was opened my crown 02/12/2017 then I was raptured but today I'm getting back on a sleep schedule I really do love Religion but it's not for me Spiritualism is.
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I really love Religion II Really love Spiritualism the book AA for alcoholics only no I think Randy the Teacher and Benny little bout Benny my first co sponsor took over 300 acid trips meth addict recovered and has been given the Power to help others!!!! Doesn't even go to meetings Buddha B doesn't even go to meetings he go's to Refugee Recovery Inspite of the AA fellowship we have recovered I recovered twice!!! He saved are lifes low bottom cases only the hopeless the lost cause owe how I love all three!!! My first and last home group we would go threw the first 164 pages of the big book and do connecters what connects from one page to the other!!! I out grew Randy The Teacher in one year Buddha B told me to fire him I did and now I've outgrown Buddha B because I achieved Nirvana 4.5 years ago !!! Why i drank at 3.5 years sober I was making a great living on disability and playing poker which releases a lot of dopamine the same chemical cocaine releases and porn abosolute no no no for the schizophrenic1!@! And had a psychotic break this was my 10 psychotic break I stayed sober Buddha B told to have a Spiritual Awakening you have to face your fears naked and defenseless which I did !!0% so I drank because I had a fear of drinking and dying went to 15th mental hospital when I was praying to the Three Pure Ones it happened now I opened my Brow Chakra not knowing what it was 11 years ago pracicing Freemasonary ask to joim I am an Indigo I don't take orders so I said no but after I faced tons and tons of fears I fully opened my Brow Chakra but I didn't know what it was until a month ago i started studying history from Sumerian Tablets to New age did I find that I was gifted from the gods and God !!! Face all your fears detach from all responsibility give up all desire you got to be willing to die in order to live AA Spiritual neaphiteism people carry around that book and have never done what it says I'm living in the 7th density and beyond and I take so much medication it would nock a mortal to death !!! So I say my theory on schizophrenia is a Universal Truth!!!
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god your fired the great reality deep down within us I will conquer I will survive I know me the truth about my self and my capacity to be the kingdom of god is within !!! AA dam near killed me play doctors mood and mind altering drugs like bill willson took acid like schizophrenia a Spiritual malady
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Well that attitude didn't work so I used the steps of Schizophrenia Anonymous page 161 of the book aa says one God see psychosis is a blessing you should be grateful to One God of your conception !!! I'm like Stu Ungar and John Nash mixed together!!! I'm board I want to be a writer but for now I'm trying to get medicaid paranoid madness is gone the Church rejected me and I'm glad they did there only in it for the money not Catholics I find them to be most caring Christians towards the mentally ill they treated me so nicely !!! If i get medicaid I can get a case worker and take better medication I'm worn down trying to prove there is a God I need for nothing and want nothing I just want to get medicaid!!!
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