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Old 09-17-2014, 06:22 PM
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I had to google Lara to get the joke. Love it.

Venus we're all hoping you'll come back to us soon.
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Old 09-17-2014, 08:15 PM
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Ha ha Hevyn .. thats funny ... yes bit of an Aussie joke !!!
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Old 09-17-2014, 10:34 PM
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I had to google Lara to get the joke. Love it.
Me too)

Venus, Earth calling!
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Old 09-21-2014, 02:48 AM
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Glad to see you checking in Vee and reading, but you know yourself, it's easier when you hear feedback and get support, both ftf and here.
Hope you are doing well.
As someone else said "earth to venus"!
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Old 10-26-2014, 03:35 AM
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Been a very long time since I've been here.

For the second time, in a stage of enormous panic, least somehow managed to find me.
least my love ~ thank you.

All is almost lost....but maybe it's not too late to save myself. Maybe.

Step 1.

Return to SR.
That's as far as I can get right now.

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Old 10-26-2014, 03:38 AM
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Been watching, waiting and prayin'.
Good to see you back.
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Old 10-26-2014, 03:40 AM
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There is always hope, as long as we're still breathing. You are much loved here. Please keep in touch. I'm sending up prayers for you.
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Old 10-26-2014, 03:48 AM
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Old 10-26-2014, 03:53 AM
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I'm glad least found you and I hope you'll stick around V. People care here

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Old 10-26-2014, 04:03 AM
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I'm glad Dee.

Because my life is too hard for me to deal with any longer.
I have two choices. Give up, or believe in something bigger than me.
I choose to believe that what I found here is real and people do actually care.

My dad is in hospital with pneumonia and heart failure.
I am no longer sober. I lost it on pain meds and then just gave up.
I am currently at risk of losing my flat.
I have Venus to look after, and as always, in my very darket days, that has kept me from total addictive insanity.

I am a wreck.
I would never have come back if least didn't chase after me...
I truly no longer believed I deserved any salvation.

I am aware that my mind is clouded, but there is still a part of me that believes that I will be better sober and clear.

This is really hard ~ but this is exactly the truth. (If that makes sense).

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Old 10-26-2014, 04:10 AM
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You're way better here than out there.

You got sober before, despite everything. I know you can again

There is strength here and support.

You can do this
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Old 10-26-2014, 04:14 AM
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I love you, my friend, and want to see you happy again. You can be happy. You've got to believe that!
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Old 10-26-2014, 04:15 AM
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i am so sorry to hear about your father.
does your doctor know that you are unable to take certain pain meds?
maybe it is time to reach out ftf to family, counseling, your friends and referrals to groups, whatever it takes to stop from jumping off the cliff, cos it is a hard landing, very painful.
i don't have trouble stopping percocet or vicodin, mostly because they screw up my stomach, so it is hard for me to relate.
coming here and staying in touch, helps keep me accountable, even after 4 years, it is like brushing my teeth. and for me it helps tremendously..
visit 24 hours?
Dee is correct, better here than by yourself, strength in numbers for sure!
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Old 10-26-2014, 04:15 AM
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I love you, my friend, and want to see you happy again. You can be happy. You've got to believe that!
I don't least ~ but I trust you. So I'm willing to give it everything I got.
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Old 10-26-2014, 04:23 AM
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I used to feel hopeless. Like there was nothing for me in life. But my attitude changed and now I have hope. As Andy said in The Shawshank Redemption; "hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies."
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Old 10-26-2014, 05:36 AM
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So good to see you, V! Sorry things are so bad. It really is so good to have you back.
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Old 10-26-2014, 05:49 AM
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Oh Venus my heart aches for you. Sobriety is a bumpy ride. I thought it would be a straight line from drinking to sober. It's not. I too am struggling but SR helps tremendously. It's a safe place to be honest and get support. Please keep checking in. We are all rooting for you. It can get better.
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Old 10-26-2014, 05:58 AM
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((((Dear venuscat))))).

I haven't had time to read through this thread; I have been a little MIA myself and trying to catch up little by little.

I am very sorry to hear about your father's illness; it is so veryndifficultntonwatchnsomeone you love struggle.

You are well loved, sweetheart. Glad you are back. Stay close, venus; we are solidly in your corner.
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Old 10-26-2014, 06:25 AM
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It's a relief to see you posting Vcat. Many of us have been concerned and praying for you.
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Old 10-26-2014, 06:30 AM
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