shakeel

I have been away from this site for a while again. Truth is I could not get out of that vicious cycle. been drinking most of last week and trying ti hide my drinking until it blew up in my face as I got into a huge argument that ended up a bit physical from my uncle's part who had me stay at his farm as long as I don't drink. So I got to that point we all know where I could not drink nor could I stay sober. I have always contemplated suicide as most alcoholics have I presume. I went on line few days ago and did my home work on what works and what does not, I wanted to just sleep it away, no pain. So I took what was available to me at the time, a whole box of xanax about 30 pills plus a whole box of sleeping pills about 30 I think plus about 20 pills of some kind of antidepressant. ALL at once. was found passed out in the kitchen, was taken to hospital, spent one night strapped to a bed, coma fr 24 hrs so they said a hefty hospital bill and back at the farm. and they say sleeping pills could kill you. I am on some kind of stuff now called Nozinan, reading the notice scary stuff. I decided to get admitted to a rehab as soon as possible, it will cost me a lot since I have no insurance but I have 2 uncles willing to pay the bill. I know that if I don't do something, this whole episode could repeat itself, I know that I would drink again if I am not "pt away" for sometimes, having been to detoxes in the US, I just hope that the place I will go to is not some kind of country club. I need the real deal, shrinks, meetings, AA or other, group therapy. Thank you for reading

aasharon90

My story is similar to urs in many ways. Intervention
took place after I attempted the same route as
you did. I spent the first night in the crazy ward
and the next day passing all the mental tests.

The results came that I had a problem with alcohol
and an addiction to it. I was ordered to stay 2 weeks
in rehab in which I did recieving the proper knowledge
of Alcoholism and how it affected myself and my life. At
2 weeks i was told my insurance was up and that if i was
sent home id surely drink again. Then they said i would
have to be sent to a halfway house out of town away
from my family. I begged and pleaded to let me stay
where I was in treatment and would do whatever I needed
to do to stay sober and not be sent away from my family.

It was agreed and I completed 28 days in rehab and
a 6 week aftercare outpatiant program attached, which
I also completed. From there I took all the knowledge
and tools of a recovery program and began incorperating
them in my everyday life one day at a time.

That journey in recovery began 22 yrs ago as I continue
today passing on my own experiences, strengths and hopes
of what my life was/has been like before, during and after
my drinking career.

I wanted to end my misery back in August 1990 and
was saved by those wanting to do for me what I couldnt
do for myself. To get the help to stop drinking for good
but didnt know how. Today I hold those tools and knowledge
with gratefullness and not take anything for granted.

I appreciate the world today with a bright new sober vision
and joyful heart.

shakeel

Thank you Sharon, very inspiring for me that is. in the situation where I'm at right now. I also thank God for the internet and computers, I don't know how many of us could get help they need without the internet. I am definitely checking into a rehab.

Freedom1990

Rehab saved my life and gave me a running start on recovery. I was given a bounty of tools to use once I was discharged and back out in the world.

I know that feeling of hopelessness, of just being too tired anymore to even exist.

I will be keeping you in my prayers and hope that rehab gives you the gift of yourself back!