The Quit Team Part 2
So, it's Thursday. It's a big day in my neighborhood because it's trash day, so the neighborhood's opportunity to offload the dozens of cubic yards of marijuana trash from what they processed in the last couple days. Everyone is paranoid AF, aggressive and stupid.
Welcome to a little neighborhood above famous Nye Beach in lovely Newport, Oregon. Legalization is a *********
I am literally stalked and harassed every day of my life because of this **** that I worked so hard to get legalized. I have moved three times, but I did not know anything about this stuff, and inadvertently moved closer to the Emerald Triangle, a/k/a Syndicate Central.
Sorry if this sounds alien. People from the West Coast will likely know what I'm talking about. Here is a docu on the "Green Rush."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c5GbodqKVT8&t=1635s
Tomorrow is my day, I decided. I work nights, so sleeping Saturday is likely to be my first big challenge. My neighbors use electrical stuff, like teen repellant noise makers and the like. They are getting a bit desperate because they have ******* up the drainage of the building (Dry, burn, flush what won't fit in the trash receptacle is the protocol). I have not been able to get the landlord to believe me, and I cannot get law enforcement to care. For all I know, the police are profiting from the ******** too.
So, this is gonna be an out-of-the-ordinary recovery, I think.
Welcome to a little neighborhood above famous Nye Beach in lovely Newport, Oregon. Legalization is a *********
I am literally stalked and harassed every day of my life because of this **** that I worked so hard to get legalized. I have moved three times, but I did not know anything about this stuff, and inadvertently moved closer to the Emerald Triangle, a/k/a Syndicate Central.
Sorry if this sounds alien. People from the West Coast will likely know what I'm talking about. Here is a docu on the "Green Rush."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c5GbodqKVT8&t=1635s
Tomorrow is my day, I decided. I work nights, so sleeping Saturday is likely to be my first big challenge. My neighbors use electrical stuff, like teen repellant noise makers and the like. They are getting a bit desperate because they have ******* up the drainage of the building (Dry, burn, flush what won't fit in the trash receptacle is the protocol). I have not been able to get the landlord to believe me, and I cannot get law enforcement to care. For all I know, the police are profiting from the ******** too.
So, this is gonna be an out-of-the-ordinary recovery, I think.
All of that is way out of my personal experience but I wish you the best tomorrow, DBTS.
Local conditions aside, I think there are basic commonalities to everyone’s quit - We’re sick and tired and we want change.
Also no one need do this alone - we’re here to help
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Local conditions aside, I think there are basic commonalities to everyone’s quit - We’re sick and tired and we want change.
Also no one need do this alone - we’re here to help
D
Small little update…I’m on meds for about five weeks now, low dosage (10 milligram). And I haven’t smoked any for almost six weeks. I did so during the Christmas holidays but prior to that I was four months sober. The meds took a little while before they started working. There’s not a huge amount of change but I generally feel better and my way of thinking is less problematic. I worry less. Other than that I am feeling no side effects or anything. I’ll be seeing my doctor again in three weeks time to talk about the effects and about the dosage.
One aspect I really hoped would vanish but hasn’t materialised is the continuous pull smoking weed still has on me. It’s getting stronger as the weeks go by. Why is it that everyone seems to think the first weeks are the hardest? For me, it’s the other way around.
I don’t really know what I can do to alter my thinking. Just saying no all the time isn’t really cutting it.
Have a good weekend everyone!
One aspect I really hoped would vanish but hasn’t materialised is the continuous pull smoking weed still has on me. It’s getting stronger as the weeks go by. Why is it that everyone seems to think the first weeks are the hardest? For me, it’s the other way around.
I don’t really know what I can do to alter my thinking. Just saying no all the time isn’t really cutting it.
Have a good weekend everyone!
Good to hear from you FDM
saying no by itself wasn’t really enough for me either. I had to change my life enough so that I wasn’t around smokers, and so I found new and betterways to relax and unwind or be creative or whatever the heck I thought smoking was doing for me?
it was hard work and not over quickly - but it was worth it
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saying no by itself wasn’t really enough for me either. I had to change my life enough so that I wasn’t around smokers, and so I found new and betterways to relax and unwind or be creative or whatever the heck I thought smoking was doing for me?
it was hard work and not over quickly - but it was worth it
D
Thanks for the swift response Dee. I get what you’re saying but I don’t see too much room for improvement, or maybe I am not looking in the right places. Everything is well in my life: I have a steady relationship, two kids, a good job, a nice house, I exercise a lot. I am not surrounded by friends who keep pulling me in. In fact, I am the only one left by a long shot who still uses (used) the stuff.
I am at a point now where I romanticise being sober when I use weed and romanticise using weed when being sober. I don’t see a way out of it that easily, other than just riding it out. But that’s proven to be difficult time and again.
Anyway, thanks for lending an ear Much appreciated.
I am at a point now where I romanticise being sober when I use weed and romanticise using weed when being sober. I don’t see a way out of it that easily, other than just riding it out. But that’s proven to be difficult time and again.
Anyway, thanks for lending an ear Much appreciated.
If only I could crack that nut Dee…I think it has something to do with unwinding, with calming my over active brain or something. I haven’t found anything that compares yet. Saturday was even harder btw, but I stuck with it and I had no cravings on Sunday. Still going strong for now and I intend to keep doing so.
Just my 2 cents FDM but my brain is still over active…but I make it work for me now - I’m productive and useful, it’s not something I fear or need to stop.
When I need to relax, I play or listen to music, or exercise, or socialise with good non using friends.
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When I need to relax, I play or listen to music, or exercise, or socialise with good non using friends.
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Hey Ronantian, it’s good to hear from you. I’ve been wondering how you are doing, an update is always appreciated, wether you are smoking or not. Had a little slip up around Christmas myself but I haven’t smoked any since the beginning of January, but I’ve come very close. Hope you stay in touch with us.
We've all gone back to it at one point or another I think Ronantian - we all understand that insidious pull back in...
hey FDM - close calls or not, since January is a good bit of time
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hey FDM - close calls or not, since January is a good bit of time
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