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Old 03-15-2023, 08:34 AM
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Me too FDM. Today has been a bit harder than yesterday. Anxiety can be such an up and down process for me. But I have great people around me, and I know I can get through it.
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Old 03-16-2023, 03:09 AM
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Day 10, yesterday was hard, but feeling slightly better today. Proud that I’m not smoking, and have the motivation to stay off it.
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Old 03-16-2023, 05:41 AM
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Good job, Ronantian. Day nine was my very worst day. My drug was alcohol but I think getting off of any sedating drug is similar.

I hope you never forget. I'm a few years in to my sober time and I still come back here every day so I don't forget who I am, who I became. Not interested in that narrative for my life anymore.
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Old 03-16-2023, 06:46 AM
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Yes, I think it’s crucial for me to check in here. I understand that what I have been doing for most of my adult life is self medicating for immediate relief. I’m working my way through a book called unwinding anxiety that focuses on how anxiety is fuelled by negative addictive behaviour patterns. Not just substances, but the ways in which we repeat unhelpful behaviours for their immediate impact. It helps to know that the reason I get drawn back into smoking is that my brain can still view it as a rewarding behaviour, even though rationally I know it isn’t.

I know I’ve got lots of work to do. But I went 9 months without using and started to build far healthier behaviours during this time. I guess the longer I can show myself that the healthier behaviours are more rewarding, the more my brain will reject the illusionary reward of smoking. That’s the narrative I want to create, as some who has no interest in getting high again.

And thanks for the support and encouragement bimi. It’s great to have a community that understands and empathises, and shows that sobriety can be done. One of the things I feel really lucky about is that I never really enjoyed drinking. Don’t like the taste and always got hangovers. I used to drink in my teens and early 20s because it’s what you were expected to do, but now I can just say I don’t like it.
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Old 03-16-2023, 06:55 AM
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When I was young alcohol was legal for over 18. Marijuana was illegal. That factor alone was enough as I was a rule follower, but I also had a family that strongly discouraged any drug use with the story about "Gateway Drugs" - as they sipped their martinis and beers...

I tried marijuana a few times over the years and just found it increased my paranoia so I never used it regularly. To each their own poison.

I'm glad you're trying to unravel that twisted yarn between your ears! That's pretty important, and tends to be a lifelong worthy pursuit.
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Old 03-16-2023, 09:52 AM
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Glad to read things are a little brighter for you Ronantian. Keep going, you're doing awesome.
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Old 03-16-2023, 10:18 AM
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Thanks FDM. The last week has been difficult, but I think I’m finally getting my head round the relationship between smoking and my mental health.
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Old 03-17-2023, 01:40 AM
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Day 11. Yesterday had a good reduction in anxiety. Still feeling a bit fragile, but getting into a better routine.
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Old 03-17-2023, 06:12 AM
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That's good to hear, Ronantian.
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Old 03-17-2023, 08:24 AM
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Thanks Bimi, been building up the exercise too. I
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Old 03-17-2023, 03:02 PM
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Day 11, that's almost two weeks. You're doing really well. How is the new-job-stress?
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Old 03-18-2023, 01:37 AM
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Hey FDM. Day 12, still have a bit of morning anxiety, but getting up earlier and into a regular routine. Still nervous about the new job, but feeling more confident that I can do it. How are you doing?
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Old 03-19-2023, 01:31 AM
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Day 13, still have a bit of lingering anxiety, but sticking to my routine and slowly coming out the other side.
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Old 03-19-2023, 03:49 AM
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Hooray! Never forget, that's all I have to say.
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Old 03-20-2023, 01:39 AM
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Day 14, two weeks and I’m feeling so much better for it.
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Old 03-20-2023, 03:10 PM
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congrats on 2 weeks man

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Old 03-21-2023, 01:03 AM
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Thanks Dee. Day 15 and in a much better routine. Up at 7.30 today, and in bed for 11. Sleep still isn’t perfect, but the routine is really helping.
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Old 03-22-2023, 02:29 AM
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Day 16 and still going strong
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Old 03-22-2023, 05:25 AM
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So happy for you, Ronantian.
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Old 03-22-2023, 07:18 AM
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Thanks Bimi
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