Emerging from a fog
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Emerging from a fog
Hi all,
I am about 5 1/2 years off of alcohol and 3 years off cigarettes. But I convinced myself that weed was different because it's a plant. I even bought a book in Portland last year titled Cannabis and Spirituality. But I never got around to reading it. A couple years ago it felt fun and recreational but it really picked up after my father died last January. Disgusted and sick of it. Grateful that some recent events yanked me from the stupor. Today is Day 4.
I am about 5 1/2 years off of alcohol and 3 years off cigarettes. But I convinced myself that weed was different because it's a plant. I even bought a book in Portland last year titled Cannabis and Spirituality. But I never got around to reading it. A couple years ago it felt fun and recreational but it really picked up after my father died last January. Disgusted and sick of it. Grateful that some recent events yanked me from the stupor. Today is Day 4.
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Day 6. Not tempted. Sick of it. Grateful to be clear. Overwhelmed by how long I have been in a fog but thought it was helping me to relax and be focused. I have been so blind. I think I didn't do the work I needed to do when I quit drinking in August 2013. So that's what I'm going to do now.
Hope everyone has a peaceful, calm day.
Hope everyone has a peaceful, calm day.
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Hi kadidee and welcome to the forum. Glad you're here.
Sounds like you are off to a great start with a good state of mind.
I don't think I was that optimistic at day 6, so take that as far as you can.
Sobriety does take work, no matter what it is we are addicted to.
Daily affirmation is important.
Visiting here every day is my thing and it has helped me quit booze and pot.
Looking forward to hearing about your journey!
Sounds like you are off to a great start with a good state of mind.
I don't think I was that optimistic at day 6, so take that as far as you can.
Sobriety does take work, no matter what it is we are addicted to.
Daily affirmation is important.
Visiting here every day is my thing and it has helped me quit booze and pot.
Looking forward to hearing about your journey!
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Today is day 17 and is the first day I feel the cravings of wanting to slip back into it. Not going to do it!! Anyway, I have thrown it all away so not a temptation. I have given away my TV and have been doing more yoga, meditation, and reading. Gave away a bunch of stuff to goodwill and rearranged my house so it looks different. Cut out sugar. Been doing more with friends. Went to a new counselor and I am overwhelmed by the 3rd person narrative she read back to back to me after the intake process, dating back about 30 years when I started smoking cigarettes. Wow.
So, so sick of it. I also started experimenting with CBD around last October. It really creeps up slowly. I feel like I am just waking up and seeing how addicted I have been the whole past year, since about January 2018 after my father died. I actually started before then with my boyfriend but it was off and on till my father passed, when it became daily. But all the while, I lied to myself by saying I quit alcohol and cigarettes and this is different because it is a plant and legal. Not so, my friends. It creates a foggy haze, changes personality, leads to bad decision making, affects reading and writing and time lapses, relationships....just really sad and astounded that I fell into this hole. Stopped doing the work. The loss of a special relationship that I had not been paying attention to because I was distracting myself from doing the hard work was a big wake up call. It took a second before it dawned on me that it's not even about that relationship, as sad as I am to see it end, it's about me as an addict.
Hope you all are doing well and staying strong. I feel like I'm going to crawl out of my skin at least fifty times a day. My addict voice told me to go buy cigarettes yesterday to get through this...STOP...I will not...I used mj to quit smoking.
Just walking through. Hope you all have a good day.
So, so sick of it. I also started experimenting with CBD around last October. It really creeps up slowly. I feel like I am just waking up and seeing how addicted I have been the whole past year, since about January 2018 after my father died. I actually started before then with my boyfriend but it was off and on till my father passed, when it became daily. But all the while, I lied to myself by saying I quit alcohol and cigarettes and this is different because it is a plant and legal. Not so, my friends. It creates a foggy haze, changes personality, leads to bad decision making, affects reading and writing and time lapses, relationships....just really sad and astounded that I fell into this hole. Stopped doing the work. The loss of a special relationship that I had not been paying attention to because I was distracting myself from doing the hard work was a big wake up call. It took a second before it dawned on me that it's not even about that relationship, as sad as I am to see it end, it's about me as an addict.
Hope you all are doing well and staying strong. I feel like I'm going to crawl out of my skin at least fifty times a day. My addict voice told me to go buy cigarettes yesterday to get through this...STOP...I will not...I used mj to quit smoking.
Just walking through. Hope you all have a good day.
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Congrats on 17 days!
Sounds like you are doing all the right things.
The good part is that the cravings will fade away and it gets easier.
And life gets so much better.
Glad to see you back and posting.
Keep at it!
Sounds like you are doing all the right things.
The good part is that the cravings will fade away and it gets easier.
And life gets so much better.
Glad to see you back and posting.
Keep at it!
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I am very happy for you. Day 5 and my stomach is still a wreck. The diarrhea is horrible. Every time I get off the pot I have the same problem which leads me to smoke again just to not have to go through this.
Hoping that at some point I can move pass this and feel human again.
I had thought of getting the cbd oil as it is supposed to help but not have the thc I don’t want.
I don’t know if it would help in easing the diarrhea until by body gets used to no thc.
Best wishes.
Hoping that at some point I can move pass this and feel human again.
I had thought of getting the cbd oil as it is supposed to help but not have the thc I don’t want.
I don’t know if it would help in easing the diarrhea until by body gets used to no thc.
Best wishes.
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