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Old 03-23-2019, 11:26 PM
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Time to stop.

I want one more day to smoke tomorrow before I quit for good. I’m running out but have a small portion of green left. Maybe I’ll smoke tomorrow before work then start my detox. I’ll keep updated here.
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Old 03-23-2019, 11:39 PM
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Welcome back Charles.
Spose there's not much I could say to convince you to start today?

Dumping your stash would be a great definitive statement to start on

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Old 03-24-2019, 10:49 AM
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Hi and welcome to the forum.
I sure understand your thought process here.
It's always "just one more day, one more gram, one more bag and then I'll quit"
I hope you use this forum. It's a great source, helped me quit for good.
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Old 03-24-2019, 10:24 PM
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Hello! I got rid of my stash last night and chose to stay sober today. It worked out great. Day one down, did work and took bath and did laundry, anticipating day two tomorrow. Thanks y’all.
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Old 03-24-2019, 10:30 PM
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great start Charles

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Old 03-25-2019, 07:00 AM
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That's amazing! Something I never could do!
That strength of will is really going to help in your goal to get sober.
Onto day 2!
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Old 03-25-2019, 02:41 PM
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Thanks for the responses everybody, it feels good to have support. Sober Recovery forums have helped me tremendously. I’m on day two and I feel like crap. Not much energy for anything after the morning time, it’s 2pm and I feel like sleeping and crying though I still have a full day ahead of me. I’ve stopped smoking before and these days are absolutely the worst, I’m feeling negative but determined still. I’ve been setting myself up for success by installing sober apps on my phone, keeping water by my bed for morning/nights and keeping in contact with positive people. I’m coming in contact with people who smoke tonight but I’m not worried, I know how to say no. I bought more notebooks today since I’m a fan of writing and need things to do in my spare time. Pocket sized notebooks. I wonder if I’ll ever feel normal like this?
The last times I stopped I remember getting to a point to where I felt horrible but then had some of the greatest times ever. Does this end?
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Old 03-25-2019, 05:07 PM
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Yeah it ends...I had a pretty ordinary first week/10 days but things got better from there Charles

a week might sound a lot, but when you stack it again the 30 years I smoked it was a pretty good deal

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Old 03-25-2019, 08:57 PM
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I trust and believe you Dee, thanks for being here!
I got through the meet up without smoking with friends, now I’m home in bed thinking of either a shower or sleep (it’s 8pm !! )
i love my life this way and will carry on. Bring on day three.
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Old 03-26-2019, 02:36 PM
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Today I feel so sleepy and sick. Digestion is bad, stomach is burning and my appetite is shot. I woke up and ran errands, now it’s 2pm and I’m home working on my second nap of the day. I feel good/ish mentally, clear and able to get things done but creatively and sexually not oiled. Day three is going well nonetheless.
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Old 03-27-2019, 06:20 AM
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Hang in there Charles, things will get better and that won't take very long.
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Old 03-27-2019, 03:08 PM
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Thanks for the response! Today’s going alright, I guess a bit better than yesterday! Digestion problems still, big sweats, it’s 3;04pm and I’m on my second shower! Notebooks and hobbies have been keeping me busy, I volunteered for more shifts at work this weekend to keep me social and not home alone to feel the pain. My marijuana addiction was coupled with a porn addiction and I quit porn a day before I quit weed. I feel like I’m doing good, it’s hard to feel happy when i’m not, especially around other people, but I rather this than having to maintain a high to even want to be around anyone. I thank the lord for my sobriety! Also, I’ve noticed that I’d would have spent atleast $40/$50 on weed since Sunday, I’m feeling like a success in that regard too. More money to spend on more productive things to have fun with. Thanks everybody.
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Old 03-28-2019, 11:48 AM
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It is now Day 4 and I’m feeling much more alive and energetic, my digestion is better than when I started, I feel like things are going good. I’m journaling more every day and had time to cry yesterday. Keeping at it!
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Old 03-28-2019, 11:57 PM
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Today was a great day as day 5 rolls in. The last hour of work was long and scares me because usually it’s when I smoke to ease the pain of the job. Today was rough and I didn’t do as good of a job but I plan on working harder tomorrow and getting out of bed earlier to make breakfast and enjoy my day. I usually wait until the last minute to eat and leave and I think it tremendously affects my day. If I start it earlier maybe it’ll be better. I’ll see tomorrow. I feel like not smoking is so cool because I want my face to be clear and smoking always felt like it dried me out whether it’s vape or not. I feel great about my progress and won’t turn around. I enjoy being sober. I’m able to look people in the eye and deeply connect. The same thing scares me but I’m ready for it. Thank you all here at SR
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Old 03-29-2019, 01:42 PM
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Thanks for the update Charles, sounds like you're doing great.

The first weeks can be a rollercoaster, both up and down, but things normalize and stabilize. That's a good thing, but it can lead to thinking about smoking again.

Not wanting to pull you off your pink cloud, but maybe it would be a good idea to take a moment and plot some coping strategies if the quitting business becomes a little harder for you. I hope it never does, but it's not unthinkable.

Have a great weekend and drop us a line every now and then.
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Old 03-30-2019, 09:31 AM
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Congrats on your success, Charles! You are definitely on your way!

I agree with FlyingDutchMan. Make a plan for when the cravings hit or when your resolve lessens. There may also come a time when you think, "hey, I've got this under control. I can smoke once in a while and not have it snowball."
It will snowball and you'll be right back where you were before you quit.

So stay vigilant. Working on sobriety has to be part of every single day.
A journal is fantastic. I kept one when I quit booze three and a half years ago (OMG! already?) and found it extremely helpful, especially when I wanted to cave. I'd go back and read the first entry and see how hopeless I was.
And of course, daily visits here.
This place rocks.

Keep it up, you're doing great!
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Old 04-02-2019, 06:05 PM
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Thanks for the responses everybody!
I do have a list of things I created the day I sobered up of things to do with my spare time in those emergency instances. They include reading, writing, sober recover forums, music, cooking, a list of cooking videos (I love to cook), skin care, walking, a lot of other private things I love! I also have goals of things to do with my time such as therapy, more involvement with my family, more involvement with my work, etc.
I also have some sort of long term goals that specifically being sober will help me achieve. I don’t think it’s ever enough to keep all the way safe but I’m adding to these lists by the day.
Today is my ninth day sober and I feel more normal and focused than I have yet this run. It feels good to see my money build that I’m not spending on god knows what. I’ve been pretty productive especially these last two days with my hobbies, though these last two days I’ve smoked in my dreams! It’s funny to wake up feeling like I broke my streak but it was only a dream. Things are moving along, I’ll keep updated!

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Old 04-02-2019, 09:48 PM
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Did a good work out, ate a huge meal after and am in bed for an early sleep. Something tells me to work more but I’m exhausted. I think the workaholic stance is damaging though there’s a lot of validity in it. We’re on earth for an amount of time unknown and I’m interested in leaving as much of myself here as possible. Not at the cost of my sanity, freedom and relationships. I’m selfishly enjoying my life as mines as well as being an artist. I’m enjoying my time sober as it opens up so much more free time and energy to... do more lol.
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Old 04-03-2019, 09:25 AM
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Cooking and art. Are we related? lol
Glad to see you are doing well!
How's withdrawal going? Sweats? Sleep? Sounds like your appetite is back again.
You're around day 11? Congrats! Keep it up!
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Old 04-05-2019, 01:35 AM
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Hey Lynnmarie! It’s midnight making this day 12 officially! I think I’m past any withdrawals but I’m having really bad nightmares and feeling sad a lot more as of the past two days. I had to miss a work meeting today due to feeling so unbearable earlier today. I’m also picking up a lot more caffeine lately which kind of scares me but it’s nice to have some sort of vice. It scares me because I associate coffee and green tea with smoking weed but so far so good with not having the urge to smoke while caffeinated. I’d say I’m doing pretty good this go around. Eating a lot more sweets which is making my face break out but it’s better than smoking.. On the upside I’ve been a lot more productive lately. And the thought of smoking makes me uneasy thinking about how much better I’ve been at work without it. I love how agile and full of energy and ready to go overtime without it. I feel much more dependable but also more stressed by ordinary life responsibilities. Things are good.
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