Thank you!! I don’t think I quite understood the word withdrawal. I appreciate your tips and encouragement. Tomorrow marks two weeks without weed and I’m happy to say that I don’t feel like smoking. I had a run like this before a couple years back (When I first joined Sober Recovery) and this time of my life feels like that time of my life. I feel motivated and none of my goals include buying weed or being high on weed.

Thanks Dee! I caught a crazy urge to smoke right now. I want to stay creative and have finished one aspect of a project and want to move to another, triggered my thought of smoking helping me out. I remember how slow it’d make me at the same time and how I’d have to focus twice as hard to accomplish what I set out to do. Also, I want to keep the same mind state I’m in and don’t want to risk drugs messing something up mentally that I’ve been forming these past two weeks. I think I’ll do something else like physical excerise or.. eat? I’ve been up drinking coffee for two hours and haven’t ate! My appetite and digestion is still pretty shotty.

Woohoo! Day 17!
Feeling creative and back on track with my life! I’m having crazy messed up nightmares but other than that I feel factory restored. Yesterday was hard when I got stressed but I’m thankful that I did everything but smoke weed. Another day! Thank you SR

I gave away the rest of my stash today. It’s day 22 and I’ve been holding a bunch of weed for the day I decide to relapse. I gave it all away today. I feel as if I’ve been cheating by drinking a bunch of kava tea these past three days. It’s given me a slight buzz.. I’m feeling crazy emotional today. Feeling overwhelmed with money issues and being busy a lot. Responsibilities at times feel like a dark cloud traveling me. Still I move along without smoking weed or anything for that matter. Cigarettes tempted me today but I rather not go down that path either! Thanks for listening. I’m grateful for the blessings, the huge blessings that I have and I will continue to take my life journey day by day and moment to moment.

Back for an update!
today is 420 and also my 27th day without weed. I started off the day smoothly with fun plans ahead but slowly by the time mid afternoon rolled around and I was outside around weed smokers, the cravings hit pretty bad. The situation was me being very stressed and hungry, taking a break from an event that had people I knew attending. There were many people I knew strolling around the event also and I got very paranoid for my safety and the people I came with. So when a friend starting rolling up weed (that I gave them) the feeling of joining sounded amazing. I denied the feeling and waited for my food that I ordered to be ready and ate, then boom the cravings were gone. This sober run I’m really noticing how patience and imagining how I felt high and the difference that it would have made in my day makes me happy about being sober. Also, I’m allowing myself to drink Kava tea for those extreme stress moments which I must say helps in social situations where I want to let loose and not be a scrooge. I had to let go of control at one point before the cravings hit because the people I attended the event with invited more friends and the plans changed quite a bit which I wasn’t the happiest about in the moment. Deep breathing and wishing for the best for everyone involved in the day was a positive tactic for me. I decided it wasn’t about me today and that I would, to the best of my ability, be there for my friends and help them have a good time and it worked! I’m home now resting up for a ten plus hour work day tomorrow and though I feel sick (maybe from stressing a bunch lately), I feel mentally empowered and motivated to continue on my journey of sobriety and living my life to its highest values that I’m comfortable with today. I’m super grateful for SR, since the first time I tried sobriety since a kid these forums have been giving me a extra lifeline. Cheers to everyone here.
Its also crazy how I’ve given up alcohol, porn and cigarettes as well as weed by focusing on the big scheme of sobriety and living as addiction free as possible. Porn sometimes calls me but I use the same formula and methods of abstinence as I do with quitting weed and it’s been working for longer than 27 days!

Work has me wanting to quit my job but I don’t want to live with a lower pay check!! I am feeling pressure from my partner and pressure from the world in general. I do see that I smoked to calm my mind and escape from the pressures!! I feel like I want to be alone selfishly to avoid social structure pressures!!! This is for sure why I smoked to lessen the feeling of nothingness and the need to chase being “something” and making money off of my passions. I’m not gonna smoke because I feel like it would only make my problems worse but also it feels crazy to feel like physically escaping because all around me is pressure to live up to this standard of being a “great”.

Thanks Dee. Almost 24 hours later and I feel much much better. I spent a lot of the day talking through work issues and working on things I felt I was behind on and doing house chores. I am feeling the feeling of always being behind but I can only imagine the reality of it if I was smoking all day as usual.

Tomorrow marks 31 days and I am estatic! I’m feeling the hang of sobriety and have been more comfortable in my productivity as of lately. This is awesome, even when it isn’t!!