tracer

first shop opened in my state today. good times. lots of addicts probably going to relapse. I must admit I am tempted. If its a great as everyone is saying it its, and I could buy a strain that will help me with ocd and depression and not make me paranoid I sure would like to. probably be a lot cheaper than therapy too

Dee74

Alcohol and tobacco are legal too.

Its not an answer Tracer - not for folks like us.

do yourself a favour and re read some of your recent threads - there are a few factors that I fear are pushing you closer and closer to 'circling the drain'

it's not the time for bad decisions or quick fixes.

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RDBplus3

'Circling The Drain'
That image is Stone Cold Reality.

RDBplus3 ... Happy, Joyous and FREE

tracer

https://goo.gl/images/nGJ26x

Dee74

the good thing is, if you know it's happening you can get yourself out of that situation.

If nothing use the support here - SR has some pretty good truth bombs

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FlyingDutchMan

How's it going Tracer?

tracer

I was doing great until I learned about a weed yoga class starting down the street from where I live. wtf is going on in the world ? this crap is so bad for people trying to recover

lynnmarie123

To be fair, alcohol is all over the place.
When I quite booze 3 years ago, it was constantly in my face.
You just gotta soldier through and stick with your recovery.
Ignore it may seem like a flippant thing to say, but that's what you got to do.
Good luck to you!

least

I see alcohol everywhere I go, but it doesn't matter cause I just don't buy it. Just because the shop is there doesn't mean you have to patronize it.

AtomicBlue

I went to get a cupcake for my 1 year sober anniversary. Asked about one cupcake and found out it had booze in it. Can’t even get a darn cupcake without it being in my face!!! Anyway I just moved along and made sure to get one without alcohol. I get you Tracer, it can be annoying. Just have to shrug it off.

MindfulMan

I've always loathed rum flavored baked goods, even when I drank.

FlyingDutchMan

Tracer, I feel for you. You're in a country where legalization has just begun. But bear in mind, I live in a country famous for its liberal ways of dealing with marijuana. There's a legal selling point (we call them coffee shops) literaly a couple of hundred meters from my home.

While it might give you an idea that it's all cool, that everyone is using it, that it's harmless...you have to look at yourself and only yourself. Does it work for you? Are you totally happy when smoking regularly or even daily? Are you the person you want to be when you smoke a lot? Speaking for me, I wasn't. Something had to change, no matter how much the stuff was on offer.

I wish you strength and courage!

tracer

I hear you. Every day there is something new in the news. friday it was cannabis infused yoga classes and today its cannabis infused coffee. I get how it's similar to alcohol, but it has never been cool and acceptable to drink at yoga studio, or with coffee before work. drinking alcohol in the morning is considered alcoholism, but drinking cannabis coffee is a health benefit ? I do think being stoned all the time would help me deal with life's frustrations, as when I did smoke pot it made me not care so much about things, took the edge off. Now with all the helth benefits being advertised, its really hard to stay abstinent. I used to think if I smoked pot it would lead me back to drinking, and it would make me paranoid and depressed, but now with all the strains its making me second guess myself and my choices.
Now even in some AA meetings cannabis is not considered a drug.

FlyingDutchMan

Weren't there any negative side effects when you smoked regularly? Not questioning your abstinence but we forget why we quit sometimes.

tracer

well it stopped working for me as it made me depressed and paranoid but now with the different strains etc i wonder if it still would. I'm just really triggered by the whole pro-pot agenda

FlyingDutchMan

I can relate to that. It's extra hard to stay off it when everybody seems to be doing it and enjoying it. That you look like a fool for not being able to enjoy it like everybody else does. I have no idea for how long you've smoked but my experience is that in the end it makes almost everybody depressed and paranoid. That is kind of a universal story in all our quitting threads. It worked out great in the beginning but after a while side-effects developed and in the end there's only the addiction.

I cannot decide for you when you can really take a step away from it. I'm hesitant of advice, not wanting to come off as if I know it all. After all, I smoked daily for pretty much 22 years and it cost me numerous attempts to finally give up and make it stick. As you may have read in my thread, I sometimes feel I am still a long long way from home. Your story does however sound very familiair to my own experience and thought process over the years. In the end I came to the conclusion that no matter what I tried it wasn't going to make me the happiest man on the planet. The longing for was so much better that the indulging in.

I tried everything from biological outdoor weed, the strongest weed The Netherlands has to offer, hash, vaping, you name it. In the end, if it has stopped working for you at some point there will probably not be a magic turnaround. That's a hard fact to accept, especially in a place where it's just become legal.

Do what's best for you, and by all means vent on SR. It helped me a great deal and I am hoping it will help you as well.

tracer

Agreed. and it would be much easier if people were being honest about it's effects instead of saying its not addictive and perfectly safe. Its making me doubt my own experience, being bombarded with this propoganda every day.

Dee74

I ended up being a slave to cannabis. I was hardcore addicted.
I can't forget that, no matter how many wonder drug articles are printed.

I have the benefit of seeing my life with and without pot, and without is light years better in every way.

People massage the news and present it in all kinds of ways to be persuasive.
I don't have to buy into it, and neither does anyone else .

If you want to learn to deal with life frustrations I think you need to actively deal with them - not run away from them... which is what pot smoking would be, IMO.

D

Maudcat

Like pretty much everything, pot is being marketed to death.
A pot shop opened in a Boston area town in my state, and the lines to get in and buy were ridiculous. It was covered by the media in the same way it covers big lottery payouts.
Lots of shots of people hanging out the doors, joshing around, everyone holding “the” winning ticket.
The reality, to me, is, that there are a lot of people spending money they don’t really have for the miniscule opportunity to win.
But....no one ever says that.
Same with pot. No one is going to broadcast that some of it smells terrible, that there are going to be a lot of impaired people walking and driving around, and that, for some of us, it might be addictive.
Alcohol ads make drinking look like tons of fun, and casinos only show young, slim, attractive people gaming.
It’s just another way to separate us from our money.
There is a recreational pot facility set to open in my town in the worst possible place with regard to traffic. I shudder to think what it is going to be like getting through town when it opens.

SoberCAH

What on earth are you talking about?

I have been going to meetings for 30 years and I have never run across one which espouses this kind of nonsense.

I wish you the best, but I think that you may want to focus on recovery-oriented efforts and not on recent weed-related developments, particularly if they cause you to second guess your decision to get clean and sober.

FWIW, I had a very hard time not focusing on alcohol and drinking-related things when I first got sober, but it can be done - I'm living proof.