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Join Date: Mar 2015
Posts: 293
Hi Flying, thanks for the support!
There's jut a lot going on and a lot of things to fix and organize, I mean work, finance, home, personal life and etc. There were some mistakes I made, a lot of things that I postponed and etc, and now everything is catching up with me and it's a little bit overwhelming.
I have a strong desire to excel in my life and that's part of the reason why I'm here. There are so many things I want to do.
I'm trying to take it step by step, today was a little better, I hope tomorrow will be even better.
Day 2 here.
There's jut a lot going on and a lot of things to fix and organize, I mean work, finance, home, personal life and etc. There were some mistakes I made, a lot of things that I postponed and etc, and now everything is catching up with me and it's a little bit overwhelming.
I have a strong desire to excel in my life and that's part of the reason why I'm here. There are so many things I want to do.
I'm trying to take it step by step, today was a little better, I hope tomorrow will be even better.
Day 2 here.
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Join Date: Sep 2014
Posts: 466
Happy to hear that you're giving this another go teodor. I hope you can reflect on your past quit attempts and pinpoint what things caused you to go back. Whatever they may be, don't think that they won't again, so I'd highly recommend having a plan to avoid them. Always remember that you'll never wake up in the morning and wish you had smoked the previous day.
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Join Date: Sep 2014
Posts: 466
Teodor, I think we both know that you smoking again has nothing to do with trying to come up with a plan. Your brain knows that you'll get a rush of dopamine and serotonin by smoking again, and being hardwired to seek pleasure, is now trying to trick you into doing so. By a plan, I meant more an ongoing thing that you can craft as time moves on. An example that was true for me was being around certain places. I relapsed at the apartment of a few of my friends during college. I got sober again in the summer, so when the school year started again, I realized this, and made the decision to avoid going over there. Nobody's expecting you to come up with everything all at once. Take it a day at a time, and as things come up that you know might trigger you to want to smoke, do what can you to avoid or mitigate them.
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Join Date: Dec 2019
Posts: 3
The Quit Team. Hello everyone. Filled with shame i am on these forums. I was on this maybe 4 months ago under the user name angmrtz or something like that. My name is Angel. I had 111 days under my belt before i relapsed and it was rough. I lost 3 months worth of trust in about a week. After throwing myself a pity party, and feeling sorry for myself. I’ve decided to get back up and fight once again. December 3rd is my new recovery date and i shall put my recovery in front of everything and seriously devote myself to the program. Man was i doing good. Those 3 months were the best 3 months of my life. Now i feel that im at square one. I am but much wiser. I recently got laid off. I managed to pull through the college semester only to quit two weeks before the semester was going to end. How lovely is it when addiction has a death grip by my sack. But the Buck Stops Here. I love you all and you will be hearing me soon
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Join Date: Feb 2016
Location: Washington state
Posts: 571
Welcome to the team, Angel!
I did the exact same thing; quit for 3.5 months and then started up again and was deep in it for another year or so.
But you can do it, it is possible.
Post often, read a lot and make recovery #1 in your life.
I did the exact same thing; quit for 3.5 months and then started up again and was deep in it for another year or so.
But you can do it, it is possible.
Post often, read a lot and make recovery #1 in your life.
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Join Date: Dec 2019
Posts: 3
@lynn what do you recommend that i read? I have the basic text but i just dont understand it.
@flyingdutchman. Well i relapsed but i truly thought hey im 3 months clean i can handle a blunt and stop right after. NOPE. but before that i had texted everyone in past tense that i used. If that makes sense . Lets say i texted you at 12pm saying im high when i wasnt, i set myself up to get high later on that day at 4pm. But in all reality i screwed myself. I call the other half Tazz. I just let that son of a gun take control of the reigns.
@flyingdutchman. Well i relapsed but i truly thought hey im 3 months clean i can handle a blunt and stop right after. NOPE. but before that i had texted everyone in past tense that i used. If that makes sense . Lets say i texted you at 12pm saying im high when i wasnt, i set myself up to get high later on that day at 4pm. But in all reality i screwed myself. I call the other half Tazz. I just let that son of a gun take control of the reigns.
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Join Date: Feb 2016
Location: Washington state
Posts: 571
I recommend that you read the threads here on this forum.
I found reading the sobriety journeys of the members here very helpful.
You get to see how very similar we are in our behaviors. Learn of the struggles of getting clean. Read about how to cope with withdrawal.
I recommend the threads with lots of posts. Those will most likely be the ones that have the most helpful info and will give you the full picture of a person's recovery story.
I hope you stick around. This place is priceless.
I found reading the sobriety journeys of the members here very helpful.
You get to see how very similar we are in our behaviors. Learn of the struggles of getting clean. Read about how to cope with withdrawal.
I recommend the threads with lots of posts. Those will most likely be the ones that have the most helpful info and will give you the full picture of a person's recovery story.
I hope you stick around. This place is priceless.
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Join Date: Jan 2018
Posts: 754
Originally Posted by EddieBauer 
@flyingdutchman. Well i relapsed but i truly thought hey im 3 months clean i can handle a blunt and stop right after.
It just came to mind...tomorrow I'll be at 23 months without weed
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