teodor

So here I am again ...

Tomorrow's gonna be Day 1.
I'm still smoking, have a little bit left and then I must quit.

For some reason, still the idea of never ever it's scary/not appealing to me, but I know I must stop for a good time to get myself and my life together. Right now my life is chaos and I'm acting chaotically.

I intend to once again stop smoking weed and also do NoFap, since both things have proved to be beneficial to me and my life.

I'll keep this as sort of a journal to my journey.
There are a lot of things I need to do, sort out, etc.

But first things first and step by step.
So tomorrow when I wake up it will be already Day 1!

I'll keep you posted.
Thank you!

lynnmarie123

Welcome back, Teodor!
I found making a complete and thorough commitment to quit for good much easier on me.
Quitting on temporary terms made my AV a constant pain in my a$$. That monkey on my back just kept harping, nagging and whispering in my ear. That meant dumping all my supplies. All of them.
I have found peace and life is so much better.

Lorax1981

Hugs bro! Get on it man, seriously, sober is so much better.

Dee74

Good to see you back Teo.

I had thoughts of coming back to pot eventually too, but I learned that there really is a great life free of addiction.

I like sober me - he beats high me hands down

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teodor

So it's the beginning of Day 1.
Slept a lot, have a lot of work to do.

I've obsessive thoughts that are bugging me and making me think about smoking again, so I can get rid of them sort of.

Has that happened to anyone else ?

Downthepath

The main reason I am here is because I spent years trying to switch my brain off from work using alcohol. It needed more and more each time.

Dee74

I think obsessive thoughts are pretty common - they were with me - it was like my mind was racing 100 mph...it did settle down though, Teo.

Try not to worry about it.

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Windytown4

Go Teodor Go! Walk away from pot and onto better and happier things. Make the path and I can follow you. You are a few days ahead of me- I am still "the night before quitting" (which can last anywhere between 8 hours and 20 years).

teodor

Tnx everyone. It's day 6 here.
Doing OK I guess. Still fantasizing about moderating though.

lynnmarie123

It's a funny thing. Pot is so sneaky.
I had no fantasies about moderation when I quit booze. I just knew it wasn't possible.
But pot... different story.
But I've come to realize, it's no different to alcohol. Addiction is addiction.
Until I made that same commitment, moderation was always in the back of my mind and I decided I didn't want to live that way.
Have you tossed all your paraphernalia?

Windytown4

same exact feeling here on Day 4, Teodor.