breakdance1212

Hi, I am new, I smoked for 20 years. Every day for about 10, I am on day 2. I feel like I have to stop, but I can't really pinpoint why. It seems the last few years it doesn't work like it used to.

Lorax1981

I was the same. I felt deep down that I needed to quit. I’m glad I did. You’re on the right track, keep going!

breakdance1212

Thanks for the reply, I hadn't missed a day in years, the thought of it was scary.

breakdance1212

Funny thing, I sent a request to facebook to stop suggesting cannabis pages lol.

Dee74

Welcome breakdance
I quit after 30 years so it's possible. Glad you're with us

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breakdance1212

That's awesome. It's actually 21 yrs...does that matter? lol. I thought I was a goner, I felt like i had to keep 'medicated' 24/7 for a few years, like if I missed a day I would slide off the earth. I realized I didn't have any serious medical issues really at all, but in my mind I was vaguely treating some general aches, headaches, insomnia or connecting with Budda or something lol. But seeing all these people who have been there longer than me and were able to drop it gives me hope. so far so good on day 3. Thanks for being here.

breakdance1212

Starting Day 5. Hasn't been as bad as I thought. A bit of sweats, temperature swings, muscles feel a bit tight.

lynnmarie123

Hi Breakdance and welcome to the forum.
I really think thoughts of quitting are worse than the actual quitting.
Great job on 5 days!

Dee74

Day 5 is awesome BD

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breakdance1212

Hey Lynnmarie123...I was thinking that too. When your stuck in the haze it seems scary to leave it.

breakdance1212

Hey guys, on day 11 now. still going, each day gets better. Longest break in a decade. Symptoms seem to be fading, still kinda weird to not have a 'go to' , have to actually manage my emotions when i get pissed off instead of just smoking it away. T

Dee74

great going breakdance - keep it up

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breakdance1212

Day 12, starting to feel bored. Like I could have a little bit every now and then but I don't think that's an option. Plus the weekend. Just need new hobbies I guess.

Dee74

I think you know it's not an option? If we could have a little bit now and again we wouldn't have ended up here on sober recovery.

I confused abstinence for control a lot of times. Don't do that.

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tabata

You got this breakdancer1212. I hear on on it loosing it's luster, I was telling my best friend and long time smoking partner who gave it up in May this same thing just this morning. Many times I took a toke in these last couple of years and honestly felt worse. Perhaps its simply run it's course in my life like alchohol has.

Try to find something else to occupy your time, I started Jiu Jitsu and it's been wonderful for me.

PEACE! Keep it up, you got this.

Englandd1989

Hi Iv just been reading through congratulations on doing so well! Keep it up I'm on day 21 Iv been a smoker for over 10 years and I feel like I got my life back! I stopped once before and got to where I am now then like yourself thought I could have a cheeky puff on the weekend and I can tell you within a couple weeks I was back smoking everyday before I knew it! This time iv decided to sign up to a gym it works wonders keeps you busy and makes you feel really good about yourself my gym! Anyway keep up the good work you can do it!

breakdance1212

Day 17. Thanks guys. The support helps. was feeling a bit down today. bit anxious. gonna get out of the house and take a walk.