I ponder why today im sad, my mood is low im feeling bad
Little things get to me, thank god that I'm alcohol free
Usually mood would be a trigger making all my problems bigger
I'd grab a wine and drink a few, knowing it was wrong to do
It exaserbated everything, my eyes would blur, my ears would ring
Next day was hell, hungover bad, my standards fell just a tad
Riddled with remorse and shame, those drinking days were all the same.
Never did i think" that was great "my thoughts of wine were love & hate.
So regardless of how sad i feel, the alternative makes it real
I never want to go back there, to days of certain dark despair.
I've healed enough to move along, take a walk, sing a song.
Because at last im alcohol free, that alone makes a happy me.