Introvrtd1

I binge drink myself to sleep....then do it over again....till after several days....i decide ive had enough.....then the insomnia kicks in....its hard the first night sober....it gets easier the days following....but the the urge hits me after im feeling good and sleep is restored.....in a false sense of thinking i can moderate my drinking.....

.....then the failure hits.....

back to square one...

aasharon90

I lost my inability or lack of ability to control
my drinking so many times on my own until
family stepped in and placing me into the hands
of those capable of teaching me about my
addiction to alcohol and a program of recovery
to incorporate in my daily affairs on a continuous
bases.

Once I complete my 28 rehab stay with
a 6 week aftercare program it was up
to me to take this knowledge taught to
me an expand upon it, build it to become
the foundation and bases for my own
life to live upon each day I remained sober.

The driving force for my continued sobriety
is the fear of returning to the insanity that
came with my addiction. The fear of losing
my family, my home, my life.

I chose to do whatever it took for me to
remain sober, no matter what. I balanced
family life with recovery life and have
remained sober for some 27 yrs now, never
thinking that I will ever be able to drink
successful in this life again, because it isn't
gonna happen.

Why you ask.....

Because for the 27 yrs sober, I have never
hear of anyone with a drinking problem get
sober then return to the drink and find they
know how to control it. They always seem
to return beaten down, right back to where
they were when they stopped. Sick, miserable,
mentally, physically, emotionally and yes,
spiritually bankrupt.

Alcohol addiction never gets better. Only
worse. Never cured. Only put to rest with
complete abstinence and incorporating
a program of recovery on a continuous bases.

Yes, life goes on, days, years go by and
alcohol is still alive and well bringing many
folks down left and right. However, I am
one with many who have chosen to live without
it with continuous recovery support day
after day.

It's comforting to know that I, you, we,
never have to go thru addiction recovery
alone or by ourselves. Never.

Seek help with willingness, openmindedness
and honesty and begin building a strong recovery
foundation to live your life upon for yrs to come
one day at a time moving forward.

Introvrtd1

thank u for sharing that Sharon

Dee74

maybe in order for a different outcome, you need to do something different
this time Introvrtd1?

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Vinificent

I had the same problem you do - I could not sleep without blacking out from drinking. But I really hated the way I always felt when I woke up - heart racing, dry mouth, nauseous...ugghhh! Honestly the only thing that got me sober was taking sleep aids early in the evening, like as soon as I got a craving in the evening. Can you see a doctor? I am not giving medical advice, just sharing what worked for me to break that awful cycle.