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Old 09-11-2019, 02:29 PM   #1 (permalink)
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11 Years Ago Today


It seems impossible that you have been gone for so long and at the same time it feels as if maybe you never existed. So much has changed Mike. So much. I am tired. Life has been hard. I can't seem to escape the chaos that I so want to escape. It makes me sad.

I wish away the past and I'm scared of the future. How can I deal with a life so full of loss? How do people deal with this? I want to enjoy life but I worry away my time instead.

Once upon a time you existed on this earth and walked alongside me. It's so hard to believe. I want you to know that as I have grown my compassion for you has grown. I realize more now than ever that you fought your disease. You fought with everything you had. I hope in years to come I can let go of the pain that came with that battle.

If you are up there looking down on me this is a formal request for help. I am lost and confused. I am sad and scared. I want to live a better life. I am asking for your help.

I miss you.
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I hope you can let go of that pain too bluerskies.
I am very sorry for your loss.

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K, I pray that our loved ones are having an amazing afterlife in a place that is so much better than we can imagine. I believe! I'm sorry for your loss and am sending you plenty of hugs too
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