11 Years Ago Today

Old 09-11-2019, 02:29 PM
  # 1 (permalink)  
watching the clouds roll away
Thread Starter
bluerskies's Avatar
Join Date: Jan 2005
Location: bliss
Posts: 84
11 Years Ago Today

It seems impossible that you have been gone for so long and at the same time it feels as if maybe you never existed. So much has changed Mike. So much. I am tired. Life has been hard. I can't seem to escape the chaos that I so want to escape. It makes me sad.

I wish away the past and I'm scared of the future. How can I deal with a life so full of loss? How do people deal with this? I want to enjoy life but I worry away my time instead.

Once upon a time you existed on this earth and walked alongside me. It's so hard to believe. I want you to know that as I have grown my compassion for you has grown. I realize more now than ever that you fought your disease. You fought with everything you had. I hope in years to come I can let go of the pain that came with that battle.

If you are up there looking down on me this is a formal request for help. I am lost and confused. I am sad and scared. I want to live a better life. I am asking for your help.

I miss you.
bluerskies is offline  
The Following 5 Users Say Thank You to bluerskies For This Useful Post:
Astro (09-12-2019), least (09-11-2019), PhoenixJ (09-15-2019), Seren (09-16-2019), Surlyredhead (09-30-2019)
Old 09-11-2019, 02:37 PM
  # 2 (permalink)  
Dee74's Avatar
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 184,902
Blog Entries: 1
I hope you can let go of that pain too bluerskies.
I am very sorry for your loss.

Dee74 is offline  
The Following 3 Users Say Thank You to Dee74 For This Useful Post:
Astro (09-12-2019), least (09-11-2019), Surlyredhead (09-30-2019)
Old 09-11-2019, 05:02 PM
  # 3 (permalink)  
bona fido dog-lover
least's Avatar
Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: eastern USA
Posts: 83,063
Blog Entries: 32
Sending you a hug.

least is online now  
The Following 2 Users Say Thank You to least For This Useful Post:
Astro (09-12-2019), Surlyredhead (09-30-2019)
Old 09-12-2019, 06:05 AM
  # 4 (permalink)  
Forum Leader
Astro's Avatar
Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: Scottsdale, AZ, one big happy dysfunctional family!
Posts: 18,811
K, I pray that our loved ones are having an amazing afterlife in a place that is so much better than we can imagine. I believe! I'm sorry for your loss and am sending you plenty of hugs too
Astro is offline  
The Following 2 Users Say Thank You to Astro For This Useful Post:
least (09-15-2019), Surlyredhead (09-30-2019)
Old 09-15-2019, 06:57 PM
  # 5 (permalink)  
PhoenixJ's Avatar
Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: Adelaide, Australia
Posts: 22,234
Blog Entries: 2
No wise words, just my prayers.
PhoenixJ is offline  
The Following 3 Users Say Thank You to PhoenixJ For This Useful Post:
Astro (09-16-2019), least (09-15-2019), Surlyredhead (09-30-2019)
Old 09-30-2019, 07:05 PM
  # 6 (permalink)  
Life is Grand
Surlyredhead's Avatar
Join Date: Feb 2007
Location: Michigan
Posts: 1,862
I can feel the pain in your words, I am so very sorry that you are struggling right now. I hope you can find comfort in a short story my Friend shared with me. I don't know if you believe in such things as being visited by loved ones who have passed, but my best friend in recovery told me once after he lost a lifelong friend to the disease that she came to him in a dream, he asked her if she was still struggling with the disease and her reply was simply this "What disease?"
..He was so comforted that she was no longer bound by what her body and mind wanted so bad in life, that her soul was free and happy. I have since lost my friend, thankfully he was clean and sober, it was Cancer that took him, but I believe with every fiber of my being that he is happy and free and is soul has no memory of any illness what so ever.

I know that doesn't take the pain away, but somehow, I hope you know that your Guardian Angel is happy and joyous and free. I am sure he would want you to be happy too. My wish for you, is that one day soon, you will think of him, and it will be a happy memory that comes to mind first and you smile.

I hope you can feel the hug that I wish I could give you in person, Cathy
Surlyredhead is offline  
The Following 2 Users Say Thank You to Surlyredhead For This Useful Post:
Astro (10-01-2019), least (09-30-2019)

Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are On
Pingbacks are On
Refbacks are Off

All times are GMT -7. The time now is 08:27 PM.