Lbad

Good Morning!!!
There is nothing sad about being grateful for the little things Arura. It is a type of awakening when we realize how much we appreciate even the small stuff...like the hoover. It is a good thing.
Also, that feeling of looking around waiting for something bad to happen is called "impending doom" most addicts have it and it gets better with time.
I am grateful that it is cooler outside. Low 90's today. It is so much better than 110.
Arura I have been to London many times and I wish we had your weather here. I always loved the weather in England. I know it is a heatwave for you to be in the 80's but I could deal with it.
Have a great day.

Arura

Well today ALL i can be grateful for is today.

Im grateful i dont have a hang over,i did'nt get that drunk. But i still drank on feelings,which is a familer OLD pattern.

Today im also grateful for my friends .

Lbad

((((((((((Arura)))))))))))))) Lots of hugs coming your way. Forgive yourself and start again. I am grateful you are still here. Keep posting.

Arura

Thanks L, i panicked and im in pain alot...! so hopefuly there will be an end to it...!

My life has always been full of drama, its that i bring it to me or it comes to me im not sure but its normaly my fault anyway.My confidance has been knocked aswell recently, with not getting that job.I blew out on that aswell...!...I really DONT want chaos in my life anymore...!

I feel really stupid posting about drinking...when i was drinking...

Thanks agin L,...x

Arura

Morning L, yer the weather here is fine...we complain if it rains on if its hot, but the way i see it is when its sunny im happy, n when it rains the gardens are happy, win win...!

Today im grateful its now 3 days again.!

Im also grateful for just being here as so many times a slip has turned into a 2 year habit...but not these days.!

Weres the sun gone! its freezing...oh no thats my circulation,.. that i dont have.

Grateful Kev is chuffed as a woodpekker about his hair...!...

Grateful im back on track.!

Have a nice sunday L. and an easy week at work...! Thanks again honi...x damn pressed the thanks, instead of edit..Duh...!

Lbad

Congratulation on Day 4 Arura!
Like I said before try not to feel to bad. Just forgive yourself. It is so much easier that way. Forginess is giving up the hope of a better past. It is over and done with. Stay in today. Lots of (((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))) coming your way. Do you go to 12 step meetings Arura? Just curious....I am not sure if you ever said or if I asked.

Arura

Mornng L, ive done step work in re-hab, a few years ago.There still in the house aswell, maybe i sould dig them out...!...Its always tears when i try and do the questions...!

Anyway im grateful today for an other sober day...!

feel really down today again...Damn hormones...!

But im still grateful for being able to feel again...!

THANKS L,....hope your not worked too hard today,and it aint too hot for ya...!..

Lbad

Good Morning Arura!
Congratulations on Day 5!
I just asked about the meetings because they have been so beneficial to me. I can't imagine my life without the love and support I get at meetings. Also the working of the steps with a sponsor changed the way I think and live. I am so grateful for that. Maybe you might want to consider going to a meeting. Stay open to the possibility that they might work.
It is my weekend so I am not working to hard. That is good. It is beautiful and cool outside this morning.
I will see you later.

Arura

Thanks L, for being so surportive towords me...x Your helping loads... ....!

Today im Grateful for the cool weather n the lovlely rain in the middle of the night...

I am Grateful for staying sober yesterday, as its that time of the month again.So pysco b%$@ch form Hell is waiting to lash out...

But im Still Grateful for my body now behaving in a normal fashion...!

Lbad

Morning Arura,
Congratulations on Day 6! Good to hear your doing ok.
The weather here is perfect and should be all week.
I am off to work this morning so I will see you later.
I am grateful you are sober today too. If it gets rough just come here and post and hang on. Remember all feelings do pass.

Arura

Hi L, yep still sober... pmt n everything aswell...!

Well Today im Grateful for a few hours work as its gona rain.

Grateful that i got a date for the scan on my womb, for next week...!

Hope your day is full of sunshine ((L,)).......... not toooo hot though....!

Hugs...x

Lbad

Conratultions on Day 7 Arura!
One whole week again! That's awesome.
It should be about 90F today. I can live with that. As long as it's not 112F I am good.
Good luck with work today Arura. Stay dry if you can.
Tons and Tons of love coming to you all the way from CA!

Arura

Thanks L, It dont feel like a week.But it is...

Well we certainly could do with a drop of California over hear.It a classic day in Birtian, its gray n cloudy, its gona rain all day...

So Im grateful i wont have to water the garden today....!

Im grateful i dont live in Lebbanon...! or Israel....!!!!!!

Anyway no polatics for breakfast...!

Im also grateful for not drinking over the last week.

Have a Great day ((L,)).......send us some sunshine...

Lbad

Good Morning Arura! Day 8! You are well into your second week.
I am sending you loads of sunshine from my heart to yours.
Have a great day and thanks for reminding me how lucky we all are not to live in a place where war and violence is a daily event. We are all blessed.

Arura

Hi L, yer me too we are so lucky not live were the war is active...!
We are Lucky...!

Thanks for the sunshine...it must have worked as when i got on my bike to go out ht sun came out, so thank you Very much for the sun...lol..x

Today im Graetful im CLEAN. as i see others still hurting and struggeling through addiction.Im so Graetful thats not me anymore...

Im also Grateful for clean friends who with out i would have been LOST.

Well i do hope the comes out as i want to sit n ...Ahh..x

Have a GREAT day L, with Love honi...x

Lbad

Good Morning Arura!
Glad the sun is shining for you. Happy Day 9.
I too am grateful to be clean. It is cool.
I am off to wrok now.
Have a super day.

Arura

Morning ((L)), im grateful its the week end too...Phew.

Today is another bigish day...Its my sons 15th birthday.Today...!

For that im ulimatly Grateful...x

Hes gone to Army camp, as hes in cadets...???...He only got so over exited he forgot all this new clothes, only took 1 pair of pants...???
Strange child. But my mum said she had to let him learn as he was being really rude.No soft upbringing from her thats for sure,
Glad to see she aint changed...! but i want her to be gentel with him...!

Anyway i was getting upset there so 'im back in the room'...!

Many Big hugs L, im truly Grateful for the sunshine, as today as you say L, its golden...X

Lbad

Happy Day 10 Arura!

I am grateful this morning that the weather is mild and my kids are healthy and happy. Grateful for all the support from friends and their Dad in raising them. I could never do it alone. Thak God I don't have to.
Arura! I hope you are feeling better. Remember nothing ever stays the same. Your feelings will pass. My current ex BF says, "Feelings aren't facts." Makes me mad but it is true.
Off to work now. I will see you later.

Arura

Good Morning L, Grateful it NOW your weekend...!

Thats very true 'feelings arnt facts' are they...? never heard that one .Its good and yes Very true.I will have to try n remember that one.Thanks L,..!

Grateful for sticking at it even though things are hard at times...!

Im also grateful that me and my new found friend are going to a Smoothie Festival...lol....No Dairy please Im British... , its gona be a laugh...

Im Very Grateful that me and the bf have also stopped shouting at each other...Peace in the house again Arhhh...Shhh...x

Anyway L, have a wonderful lie in Bed honi, Enjoy your weekend...X

Lbad

Thanks Arura! Happy Day 11!
I slept in an extra hour and a half and it was lovely.
Have fun at the smoothie festival.
Be good and just leave if you get squirrelly.