I am grateful to be alive.
Alcoholic,Addict, Mental Mess!
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Join Date: Dec 2004
Location: A Crowded Bathroom Called New Jersey
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I am grateful to be alive.
Since this is my first post allow me to give some background information...
I was introduced to pot and alcohol at age 5, my mother thought it to be amusing to see an intoxicated child, her being an addict herself she had created a drug buddy. I continued to use a variety of substances through out my life in a vain attempt to self medicate the painful images of my disturbing childhood.
After another failed attempt to end my life I ended up "in patient" 12/07/2004. This time is different. I realized that my suicide attempts were just another thing for me to fail at so I took a closer look at my life, therapy, and future. I had an epiphany in that my life and future are non existent unless I come to terms with my addiction. This is a terribly painful process.
Someone had said to me, "If I put one hand in AA and one hand in God, I would not have a hand to pick up a drink." I have been slowly recovering from a lifetime of destruction.
For me, maybe just for today or for this moment, I am grateful to be alive.
Thank you for giving me this opportunity because I am grateful for that too.
I was introduced to pot and alcohol at age 5, my mother thought it to be amusing to see an intoxicated child, her being an addict herself she had created a drug buddy. I continued to use a variety of substances through out my life in a vain attempt to self medicate the painful images of my disturbing childhood.
After another failed attempt to end my life I ended up "in patient" 12/07/2004. This time is different. I realized that my suicide attempts were just another thing for me to fail at so I took a closer look at my life, therapy, and future. I had an epiphany in that my life and future are non existent unless I come to terms with my addiction. This is a terribly painful process.
Someone had said to me, "If I put one hand in AA and one hand in God, I would not have a hand to pick up a drink." I have been slowly recovering from a lifetime of destruction.
For me, maybe just for today or for this moment, I am grateful to be alive.
Thank you for giving me this opportunity because I am grateful for that too.
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