kab1daat

yes its been a while because I chose to start drinking in a "controlled" manner. Right??? I seem to think I can stop or start whenever I want. but the 4 oz of vodka neat did not stop my craving it FED it and now I want to go get more because Im not "there" you know? Each bottle is my last until the last is gone and then it is just one more and them Im done. Right now I hate this addiction and hate that it has control of me and not the other way around.
I am so grateful that this website is here. Grateful right now that I am typing and not drinking. Grateful for the love and support we get from each other.

Rusty Zipper

i have a sponsee in the same boat as you right now kab

do hope you both start rowing to recovery soon

Opivotal

Happy to have you back. kab1daat.

Opivotal

kab1daat, please check out our Newcomers forum. I think you'll like it. Also , maybe you'd like to join our August class or the daily support thread.

I'll post the links in case you want to take a look.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-3-a-23.html

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-161-a-17.html