life is awesome today
life is awesome today
Hey everyone. Just wanted to say how grateful and at peace I am today. I've only been in recovery for six months but in such a short amount of time my life has changed so much. I had no idea I could be this happy and be this at peace without drugs and alcohol. Y'all my life sucked so bad the past 5 years and I was in so much pain when I finally went to rehab. I was addicted to oxycontin with an 800mg a day habit that went to a gram a day intravenous heroin addiction and my body at 24 years old was deteriorating by the time I went to detox. I have never felt more physical pain than withdrawing from that crap and the emotional pain that followed hurt so bad having realized what my life had become and the people I hurt. I looked in the mirror and I didn't know who I was. I can look in the mirror now and love who I see and someone who has never believed in God can pray everyday now and have a little faith behind that mountain of doubt I always had. I believe the words in the big book and surrendering to this program and the steps has brought me more than drugs ever could. I didn't find peace automatically and the position of neutrality I have towards drugs and alcohol now has come at the cost of a lot of work and a lot of pain and suffering of learning how to live sober but once I gave up and started letting God take control of my life I realized I was at peace. That took so much work for me and I damn near got high until I let go and surrendered. When hard **** comes up in my life I am able to walk through it today. My recovery is strong but I know how fragile it can become if I am not vigilant about it. Life is so beautiful today and I appreciate the little things which is crazy for someone like me. I'm truly happy for the first time in my life and I am grateful for that.
Welcome bones! Thank you for an uplifting post - I'm sure it will inspire many.
Six months sober is wonderful - & you'll continue to feel even better. It's a beautiful feeling to be free.
Six months sober is wonderful - & you'll continue to feel even better. It's a beautiful feeling to be free.
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