Tesla

When we fall...we fall harder. Made it to 6 months and then it all came unraveled. How much abuse can the human body take...apparently quite a bit. Not the first time...but I want it to be the last. On day 24 and I am still emerging from the dark corridor towards the light. I know I am not alone, but I do feel alone. I am most alone at meetings...very uncomfortable as the group is more like a fraternity gang with their own particular rituals and inside jokes. I am not judging them...I am just saying what my mind feels. I am grateful that there are some slivers of light -- for reasons I cannot explain some random acts of kindness thrown my way for some of the good things I did even when I was lost to it. Those small acts have helped me slog on..through the muck of depression and the realization that I have led a shallow and empty life of deceit and corruption to get ahead. Happy for a single photon of light...it travels fast and provides a beacon. May there be more.

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TY for that honesty