DG's Gratitude List
Tonight, I am thankful for:
- 9 Days alcohol free!!
- a slightly productive day
- a nice, cool evening breeze
- clearer thoughts
- thinking it's actually kind of nice to not be passed-out drunk, but awake posting crap online late at night... when was the last time I really DID or THOUGHT something at night?... I don't remember. It feels...good.
- people I like
- music
- starting to take better care of myself
- starting to feel better about myself and think better things about myself
- being able to think more clearly about problems in my life
- recovery... it feels good. I have more hope again.
- the depression has lifted- so much of the darkness and pain in my brain has faded
- learning what makes me feel bad- the darkness and pain start to come creeping back awful fast if I'm hungry or let my thoughts go places they shouldn't... but I can monitor these things!
Today I'm thankful for:
- 10 days alcohol free & working on day 11!
- starting to feel much better
- being able to go drive & do things at night
- It's Friday!
- I have a new place to stay to try out for a few days this weekend!
- I found a great restaurant I never knew about before in the middle of nowhere
- the people out here are all super friendly, well, most of 'em anyway
- I woke up feeling happy and with energy
- I get to feel proud about not drinking rather than thinking I need to quit
This morning I am thankful for:
- It's Saturday!!
- Woke up some place absolutely gorgeous. The place I was planning to stay was a real dump, so I found a different place. I never would have done that before. I just would have gotten trashed in the dump until I didn't care that it was a dump.
- It's a nice day out
- It is so peaceful here
- I have 11 days alcohol free!! On to day 12!
- The only things I can hear are the wind and the birds (at least if I stop typing).
Today I'm thankful for:
- 13 days alcohol free!
- I won't wake-up hungover!!
- Made it through the weekend.
- I DREAM at night again... how strange to dream like normal people rather than pass out blank.
- I found someplace I really like this weekend!
- I had a quiet, relaxing weekend to myself to deal with my issues & work on my recovery.
- The pain in my brain has subsided.
- I have something to be PROUD of myself for!
- I made a 'to-do' list for the day and got pretty much everything crossed off!
Tonight I'm thankful for:
- 2 Weeks Alcohol free!
- Having a good day today!
- Getting work done today
- feeling more sane
- getting more used to this
- having had a really nice walk tonight
- music
- SR
- opivotal, Rusty Zipper, & 1newcreation for following this thread and supporting me
Today has been a bit of a struggle, so I thought more than ever I need to focus on what I'm thankful for a bit tonight:
- 16 Days Alcohol free!! I am SUPER PROUD of myself.
- My over-all health is improving. I have been working out a little, eating well, drinking water, sleeping decent hours, etc. I feel better. I think I must look better.
- My emotions are WAY more stable. I've had my ups and downs, I've cried several times through this, etc. BUT it hasn't been the way out of control almost psychotic moods I had when drinking. And when I DO feel bad, I am much more able to let it go, or think it through if need be and then let it go. Plus I'm able to take care of myself and go for a walk or calm down in a rational manner.
- My thoughts are clearing up. I can tell my brain is still healing because at times, I struggle with 'brain-fog' but I AM processing a lot more information and able to think more clearly about things. My ability to concentrate and remember things and learn new stuff has grown, too. I can even remember the name of somebody I met today.
- I am starting to DEAL with the things in my life that need DEALT with, not DROWNING my stress in alcohol and putting stuff off more.
- I had a nice walk this evening. I used to go for walks at night all the time, but it seems like it's been forever since I did much of that. It's nice to see the stars and moon and just walk around and relax after the day.
- Even though it wasn't the best day, I never seriously considered drinking.
- Even if it wasn't fun, I got stuff done that I needed to do and at least now, I don't have to worry about it anymore. It's nice to have that stuff done rather than worrying about needing to do it.
Things I'm thankful for tonight:
- 17 days alcohol free!!!
- I had a nice walk
- I'm half-way ready for tomorrow.
- I re-stocked up on healthy snacks. I am actually buying healthy food again and eating well. My calories come from real stuff instead of alcohol. As a drunk, I used to buy more food than I'd ever eat too and then drink instead and the food I imagined I would eat would go bad.
- I'm starting to do more little things that make life better than I did when I was drinking/hungover ALL the time- washing the windshield at the gas station more often, not leaving empty cups or trash in the car when I get out, etc.
- I actually bought a book today and read a chapter... looking forward to reading more before bed. I can't remember when I last read a book before bed instead of getting trashed drunk.
- I went for a walk after I got into my motel room tonight. It used to be when I traveled, I'd never see anything outside the motel room after I got in.
- I managed to make a 'to-do' list and get everything crossed-off. Planning the day is becoming easier again. I'm starting to be productive again.
- I was moderately productive so far as work was concerned.
- I really have a pretty good life, all things considered. I'm a lot better off than tons of other people, and I'm really very fortunate for what I have. Sometimes I forget this, but when I was out walking, I was walking through a neighborhood that isn't as nice as mine and it made me remember how fortunate I really am for my life.
- Tomorrow will be day 18. I have a productive day at work scheduled and no choice but to stick to it, so I know I'll get a lot done. I'm prepared with healthy snacks so that I won't end up starving and cravey while stressed & busy.
- It's almost bed-time and I have the presence of mind to actually think things, not just pass-out/fall asleep really drunk. More than that, I can think positive thoughts about tomorrow and I've actually prepared for it somewhat so it should be a good day.
- I had a cool thing happen today. I was about to take off from my motel and I was counting my change wondering if I had enough to take the toll roads or if I needed to get cash somewhere. A couple of guys came up and asked if I had jumper cables and if I'd help them jump their car. Most of the time, I don't 'help' people who come up to me asking me for something when I'm traveling. But generally they're asking for money and I don't have any extra since I spent it all on alcohol. They were a little rough looking, but I agreed to give them a jump... I figure it's good karma and I'll need a favor from somebody else someday when I'm stranded. Afterward, they gave me a few dollars for my trouble and then I knew I had enough money for the toll road.
Sounds like you had a great day. I was an avid reader before I started drinking. I'm afraid that went to the wayside, along with most things. I was thrilled to get back to it.
I can relate to so much in your post.
Best Wishes To You!
I can relate to so much in your post.
Best Wishes To You!
Tonight, I am thankful for:
- 19 days no alcohol!!
- Having a decent place to sleep for the night.
- Starting to feel more normal & functional again.
- Starting to figure out how to live life sober.
- Being on my way home.
- Deciding I really like the book I'm reading.
- Making better habits as far as eating, exercise, etc.
This morning I am thankful for:
- THREE WEEKS NO ALCOHOL!!!
- Waking up not hung-over.
- Being home!!
- Birds chirping outside
- my kitty-cats
- 3 weeks!!!! I know I already said it, but I just have to say it again.
- waking-up & having energy/feeling like doing stuff for the day
- I'm thankful I found SR because I don't know that I would have made it this far without it.
- it's spring/summer & the trees are green, the grass is green or getting there anyway... it's time to get outside and enjoy it and do stuff!
- I have been getting caught up at work, so instead of dreading my work today, I am thinking about 'what next' and trying to get more caught up.
- Last week, I took care of some of the crappy things I had to get done at work, and now, I don't have to worry about those anymore.
- I am feeling better about myself in general again. I still have progress to make, but I am making progress.
This morning I'm thankful for:
- 23 days alcohol free!
- gorgeous weather
- went to a yoga class Monday night. It was nice to get out and do something.
- I am starting to work through stuff rather than putting it off to the side as much.
- Yesterday was a rotten day, but I didn't drink!!
Today I'm thankful for:
- 24 days alcohol free
- it's not yesterday anymore
- today is a new day
- it's nice and sunny outside
- My memory is improving and I'm able to think much better.
- Yesterday was really miserable. So was the day before. But I didn't drink. And now, I'm not sick and hungover.
- my boyfriend has been doing a lot around the house to make it nicer for us. I know he really wants to be a good boyfriend.
- 25 days no alcohol!!
- Also 25 days eating well, drinking plenty of water, and getting a little exercise every day.
- 123 days no cigarettes. I like that number.
- Being able to get my planner out and schedule some stuff. I can actually think ahead again.
- I can schedule stuff in the evenings and I know I won't be too drunk to do it. I couldn't have done that when I was drinking.
- I can actually take a step back from what I'm thinking, write about it and re-evaluate if need be.
- Today is going to be a good day!! I woke up and thought it would be a bad day, but I decided it's not ok to think that.
- Today is day 26 no drinking!!!
- It's Saturday!
- I am learning new coping skills for dealing with things.
- I'm thankful I found SR and for all of the support I have found here. It has been so helpful in this process.
- I am starting to feel more like the 'old' me.
- I am able to learn music better.
- 27 days alcohol free!!
- time to play my drums!!
- it was a pretty relaxing day, which was nice.
- I am starting to feel more used to the new routines and to not drinking.
- I feel calm today.
- Last night was rough: dinner at a bar/restaurant with everyone else drinking, but I didn't drink. And I woke up feeling good about it this morning. It wasn't much fun at the time, but I'm thankful for it.
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