Gig

Last night my husband started drinking again and I thought I was going to DIE. In fact, I wanted to die. But I made myself think about me and my life with the LORD and who HE wants me to be, in spite of all of the REALLY BAD vibes and the theatrics, plus the insanity of him drinking after he said he wasn't going to all week, and then deliberately being a hypocrite on top of it. I know he wants to stop.... I know he does!! But I have to do some things differently. Anyway after my 4m run this morning (which is a lifesaver by the way) I was so depressed going back home that I knew HE wanted me to start thanking HIM... even though I DIDN'T FEEL ANYTHING. Normally I will thank the LORD WHEN I'm feeling it, not when I'm not feeling it. But I did. I know HE heard me. May the LORD bless all of you out there that are feeling as bad as I have been feeling.. HE IS WITH US!!!!!! eVEN when we think that HE isn't.