1000 Days
1000 Days
As imperfect as my life is ( and boy, is it ever!),It's wonderful, not to mention an everyday miracle,for me to not be living in a world of nightmarish Hell like I did for 30+ years.
Sometimes, it seems like it was all a VERY bad, LONG dream.I can't even begin to comprehend the permanent damage I have inflicted on my life. The lost opportunies. Relationships. Health. Reputation. ALL because I HAD to be drunk/high 24-7.
But, as long as I stay sober, all that is behind me now. I CAN dig myself out of a deep, deep hole I had lived in for so long.
I've grown.
The self- hatred that was destroying my soul has, over the last 2 & 3/4 years, morphed into a self-acceptance, self-knowledge, and most important, in my opinion, a SELF- RESPECT I had NEVER known in my entire life.
My warts & faults may be as "numerous as the stars in the sky". But, in spite of it all, under the leadership of my Lord & Savior Jesus Christ,
I've changed into a decent guy. That wasn't always the case.
For this, I am VERY grateful.............thank you.
Sometimes, it seems like it was all a VERY bad, LONG dream.I can't even begin to comprehend the permanent damage I have inflicted on my life. The lost opportunies. Relationships. Health. Reputation. ALL because I HAD to be drunk/high 24-7.
But, as long as I stay sober, all that is behind me now. I CAN dig myself out of a deep, deep hole I had lived in for so long.
I've grown.
The self- hatred that was destroying my soul has, over the last 2 & 3/4 years, morphed into a self-acceptance, self-knowledge, and most important, in my opinion, a SELF- RESPECT I had NEVER known in my entire life.
My warts & faults may be as "numerous as the stars in the sky". But, in spite of it all, under the leadership of my Lord & Savior Jesus Christ,
I've changed into a decent guy. That wasn't always the case.
For this, I am VERY grateful.............thank you.
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