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I am thankful I can at least look around and SEE all that I have to be grateful for, even though today I cannot FEEL anything close to being thankful. I am quite pissed at myself, actually..and frustrated...but the blessings are there, all around me. I just wish I could FEEL it right now...I am alive and breathing...I am grateful there is hope, don't feel hope....this all might sound ******** as hell, but it's how I feel. Like a loyal addict I pay too much stock in my feelings. Okay, I am grateful for revelations..I just had one...I can't rely on my feelings so much!! I need a brighter light bulb in my head.....