Bedtime Gratitude-Part 12
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Originally Posted by Rusty Zipper 
wheres astro and richie?
I just take a break from the keyboard most weekends. Grateful that my son had a great time on his trip to California with the National Junior Honor Society. And my daughter spent most of the weekend at sleepovers and parties at friends houses. Now I could pout about them spending so much time apart from me on my custody weekends, but I'm thrilled they're having so much fun enjoying life!
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I have been very high-strung the past few days. I can't seem to get a handle on "living life on life's terms." Instead, I'm living in my head. Worried about the future I suppose. I wonder if this is common? 16 months of sobriety and struggling with anxiety.
It seems to be a phase I'm going through and I will keep plugging along. More meetings, more focus on helping others.
Kinda neat experience today. My sons first baseball game of the season. He missed last year because he had a broken leg. I was a bit concerned that he would get upset if he wasn't quite as good as the other kids.
We practiced a bit last night and on the field today before the game. And he did just fine (two singles
). I know I gave him that bit of confidence he needed just by being patient with him and telling him that he was a good player, a good boy.
Anyway, the neat part? Light rain, cloudy all day - the sun came out just for his game. A beautiful spring evening, kids laughing & having fun.
I really needed that break from my anxiety. I feel better, stronger. I know that I have to deal with the anxiety but those two hours were just priceless.
It seems to be a phase I'm going through and I will keep plugging along. More meetings, more focus on helping others.
Kinda neat experience today. My sons first baseball game of the season. He missed last year because he had a broken leg. I was a bit concerned that he would get upset if he wasn't quite as good as the other kids.
We practiced a bit last night and on the field today before the game. And he did just fine (two singles
). I know I gave him that bit of confidence he needed just by being patient with him and telling him that he was a good player, a good boy.Anyway, the neat part? Light rain, cloudy all day - the sun came out just for his game. A beautiful spring evening, kids laughing & having fun.
I really needed that break from my anxiety. I feel better, stronger. I know that I have to deal with the anxiety but those two hours were just priceless.
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Originally Posted by gravity
I have been very high-strung the past few days. I can't seem to get a handle on "living life on life's terms." Instead, I'm living in my head. Worried about the future I suppose. I wonder if this is common? 16 months of sobriety and struggling with anxiety.
It seems to be a phase I'm going through and I will keep plugging along. More meetings, more focus on helping others.
Kinda neat experience today. My sons first baseball game of the season. He missed last year because he had a broken leg. I was a bit concerned that he would get upset if he wasn't quite as good as the other kids.
We practiced a bit last night and on the field today before the game. And he did just fine (two singles). I know I gave him that bit of confidence he needed just by being patient with him and telling him that he was a good player, a good boy.
Anyway, the neat part? Light rain, cloudy all day - the sun came out just for his game. A beautiful spring evening, kids laughing & having fun.
I really needed that break from my anxiety. I feel better, stronger. I know that I have to deal with the anxiety but those two hours were just priceless.
It seems to be a phase I'm going through and I will keep plugging along. More meetings, more focus on helping others.
Kinda neat experience today. My sons first baseball game of the season. He missed last year because he had a broken leg. I was a bit concerned that he would get upset if he wasn't quite as good as the other kids.
We practiced a bit last night and on the field today before the game. And he did just fine (two singles
). I know I gave him that bit of confidence he needed just by being patient with him and telling him that he was a good player, a good boy.Anyway, the neat part? Light rain, cloudy all day - the sun came out just for his game. A beautiful spring evening, kids laughing & having fun.
I really needed that break from my anxiety. I feel better, stronger. I know that I have to deal with the anxiety but those two hours were just priceless.
Gravity, anxiety is a very common characteristic for people like us. I have it too. It does get better as you practice asking God for help immediately and not allowing yourself to really dig into that whole. It takes practice and asking HP for help. Meetings and doing for others are excellent helps but what happens if you are at work? Or in the car? Ask God for help over and over.... my prayer goes something like this, God please help remove the obsession to think about _______. I say it a hundred times a day sometimes. Try it and see if it works.
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Originally Posted by gravity
I have been very high-strung the past few days. I can't seem to get a handle on "living life on life's terms." Instead, I'm living in my head. Worried about the future I suppose. I wonder if this is common? 16 months of sobriety and struggling with anxiety.
I don't think I'll ever completely "get a handle on it", I'm just making progress and not seeking perfection
Be gentle on yourself, grav. Grateful for home warranty plans. It'll be nice to get the A/C fixed, supposed to be over 100 today.
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Gravity, anxiety is a very common characteristic for people like us. I have it too. It does get better as you practice asking God for help immediately and not allowing yourself to really dig into that whole. It takes practice and asking HP for help. Meetings and doing for others are excellent helps but what happens if you are at work? Or in the car? Ask God for help over and over.... my prayer goes something like this, God please help remove the obsession to think about _______. I say it a hundred times a day sometimes. Try it and see if it works.
Anxiety.....that too shall pass. I worry about the future and finances most days, ride the rollercoaster of lifes ups-and-downs. I attend a meeting, read my meditations, be of service, be a good father and fiance, do the next right thing and ask for God's will for me. And still I snap at my fiancee when she buys something big for the house
I don't think I'll ever completely "get a handle on it", I'm just making progress and not seeking perfection Be gentle on yourself, grav.
I don't think I'll ever completely "get a handle on it", I'm just making progress and not seeking perfection Be gentle on yourself, grav.
My current fears include home repair bills (significant but I can afford it) and a close relative (young girl) who is in the absolute depths of active alcoholism (I can't do anything about it). But it seems lately that there is always something to drive myself nuts about. I just want to be able to accept things as they are and be a good person. Perfectionism is an issue too.
Grav what step are you on at the moment?
Thanks for your kind words. I think I have to let some of this out.
Grateful to take a day to slow down and take it easy.
Everything will be fine.
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