tsukiko

I wanted to share something specific.

When I first got clean and came to SR, I got to about 83 days and then relapsed over a three week period.

This time, when I got over the 80 day hump I began thinking about how last time I had relapsed at this stage.

I was sat, having locked myself away for weeks, pending a diagnosis of 'manic depression', unable to sleep, barely eating, having ended what I thought was going to be a lifelong relationship with my partner, amidst a pile of university books, job application forms, washing and an ever growing ‘to do’ list, thinking:

What the hell is it all about?!

Then, out of the blue, I get a phone call telling me my God Daughter has just been born, premature, but that mother and baby are doing great.

So, what’s it all about? The answer arrived yesterday afternoon weighing just 6 lbs, 7 ounces:

It’s all about life.

....And that is what I am grateful for.

adore79

Thats awesome, thanks for sharing.

Jomey

That's beautiful. Thank you. Blessings on your family and your bundle of joy.

Rusty Zipper

yep, life tsuk!

blessings

tsukiko

Thanks guys.

nocoincidence56

Congratulations tsukiko (a little late, but...)! Yes it's all about living and feeling. Feeling the feelings and knowing there is no need to run from them and try to escape. A significant problem can be our bedeviled emotions, coloring our perception of the world. To feel, some for the first time really, pleasure/pain, whatever it might be and come out the other side of the experience sober, we become stronger. What was once was an aversion to feeling/living has now become an acceptance of reality and whatever it brings...... Life on life's terms :bounce